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SU. and panic attack. in 2017. got it.
so this is from the 7th: ‘so about 20 mins. ago i was SU w/ ideal. [SU idealisa........that.]. so i went on wikihow to look up. How to help someone who is. As I was watching tv online. And then m...
i fell yesterday. in 2017. got it.
this is. from yesterday about mon.: ‘yes again. i’m really starting to dislike mon. so i was on my bed and somehow the um. tops of my feet were hooked into the...........the like. wooden bed fram...
'have a good day'. um. no. in 2018
this is from yesterday. about the previous day which would’ve been Mon.: ‘So. again i don’t like my mentor. also i don’t like when people go ‘have a good day’ it sounds like they don’t actually m...
the dream i had. yesterday. in 2017. got it.
yeah so in the dream i had. I’d apparently done something really bad and I was in this big room w/ other people cement floor. [it was a jail w/o cells.]. and we were strapped to these long narrow...
from the 18th - 24th in 2018
um on the 18th which was sun. i. did i do my laundry no i don’t think i did. on mon. valerie came we did the usual. tues. i. maybe i went out? same w/ wed. um thurs. i was at my mom’s. and fri. a...
it's been a long 6 wks. in 2017. got it.
it’s been a long 6 wks. tbi, discovery of sexual violence, SU attempt, another concussion, funeral um am i forgetting anything? the funeral was yesterday. um. might write more later. oh and the c...
so yesterday i/symptoms in 2017. got it.
yesterday was cold i remember that. yesterday was really cold actually. and it wasn’t just me it was really damn cold. oh yeah. so........like i said it was cold. and i was getting so. later ...
i had a dream about SU. in 2017. got it.
yes. in the dream i was contemplating actually doing it. I was w/ this group of people. and we were in this big house. thing and one of them had somehow found out i was contemplating it and they...
love on the brain./brain in 2017. got it.
actually no. i don’t have love on the brain. cause i’m not in it. [although now i do cause that song was mentioned.]. med stuff. [cause. what else?] um ok. so. i think. and i’m not entirely clea...
head injury or concussion? in 2017. got it.
well. i know i got a head injury Mon., obviously. it’s been. a little over 48 hrs. since almost.........um.........52. [that’s 2 days and 4 hrs.]. but i’m not sure. if in conjunction [meaning. in...
so stevie was in my dream. in 2017. got it.
you know. my mom’s dog. [actually for those of you who’ve never met/seen him. you don’t know. other then my having um. blogged about him.]. anyway he is. um not w/ us anymore happened back in.......
i got my period. in 2018
I got my period um yesterday. damnit i was hoping to go a whole month w/o. it’s not been great this time. um.
from the 11th - the 17th in 2017. got it.
wow i’m behind. on the 11th which was sun. i did my laundry. pretty sure. oh yeah that was the day my grandfather......... on mon. valerie came. we did the usual. tues. i. i went out i went to th...
how i'm doing since. the head drawer thing. in 2017. got it.
this is from earlier. actually this is from yesterday: ‘a little over 3 hrs. ago. no wait make that 4. currently 5:50 a.m. atm. 5?, hrs. damnit. cause math. um. i’m nauseous. and in pain. my occi...
well. hit my head again. in 2017. got it.
this is from earlier: ‘yeah about 2 hrs. ago. [3:40 a.m. atm.]. um. so i’d opened the. 2nd from the bottom, drawer of one of my dressers. i was in a hurry/angry/put out. [and therefore in a hurry...
meetings. cops. in 2017. got it.
so on the 8th. of March there’s going to be another. big meeting. March 8th. and one of the things that’s apparently going to be brought up at the meeting is the encounter w/ the cops. actually.....
pregnancy dream/sarah/fl in 2017. got it.
so a few yrs. ago [well it’s been more then a few it’s been at least 10] when i was in college i had a dream about an abortion. and pregnancy. but. one part of it. well i don’t think it was a dre...
so I had a dream I was pregnant. *mentions abortion, injection, pills* in 2017. got it.
yeah last night/yesterday. that was weird. it was weird. i’ve never been pregnant in my life. and apparently i had to have/was going to have an abortion. and i really didn’t want to. and i had 2 ...
been 5 wks. in 2017. got it.
it’s been. 5 wks. since i sustained the concussion. /1 month. 1 wk.
the trash thing. in 2018
this is from earlier today: ‘vague on purpose. um. anyway. So apparently. When I was at my mom’s the lady went into my closet and took something out. [i won’t put what. but by the title of this e...
been 6 months. in 2017. got it.
well actually a little over. yes. it’s been a little over 6 months since i last had a drink.
ask Ru. more clar. also NE guy. in 2017. got it.
this is from earlier: ‘so at some point earlier I emailed NE guy and. told him that I’d had an ED since i was 13 and the longest i’ve gone in recovery has been a month and that was some time ago,...
symptoms. *TMI in 2017. got it.
this is from yesterday: ‘so i’m still having digestive issues. i don’t have this, particular digestive issue a lot. it’s so embarassing. i feel like i’m 10. it’s apparently pretty common. i’ve be...
i found him. and voyuerism as sex. assault. *TW *SA in 2017. got it.
this is from Thurs.: ‘omygod i found him. well ok i found him online. not the rapist from when i was 17 the ‘friend’. we were all in the van........i was 17........he was at least 32. nothing act...
this is again from Thurs.: ‘yeah um last wk. last thurs. actually. it was weird not the dinner itself or the food but. it was the day after i’d attempted SU so. they don’t know. ‘[they’ being my ...
