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so i think i had sleep paralysis the other day. *maybe TBI* in 2017. got it.
i don’t usually blog at 11:30 a.m. but here we are. um. so this is from the 8th: ‘to clarify. actually sleep is kindof a weird thing. not like going to sleep but what happens to the body once we...
after the TBI...... in 2017. got it.
this is from the 3rd. of this month: ‘ after the TBI.......i felt. well to be perfectly blunt. ‘stupid’ and ‘clumsy’ in the words of a tv show. but that’s not what this is about. this is. about, ...
13 wks. in 2017. got it.
well. it’s been 13 wks. since i sustained my concussion. 3 months/1 wk.
oh........on denial in 2018
from the 29th: ‘so i was on wikihow reading about helping alcoholics stop drinking. er how to i mean. and. it says: ‘ Be prepared for denial. Alcoholics typically deny there is much if any proble...
the effects of my habit. in 2018
from the 29th: ‘well. ever since i started which was............like........oh god. Sun. apparently. um but yeah ever since i’ve been in this constant smoky haze. brain fog. i guess this is what ...
well. i've managed to hit a new low. in 2018
from. the 27th: ‘i bought something at the dollar store i shouldn’t’ve. if i can’t be honest in here then. where can i be ya know?’ and. ‘the thing i bought at the dollar store. that i shouldn’t’...
cause. depression. in 2018
from the 27th: ‘other people: ‘i got a job today!’ me: ‘guess what? i got out from under my covers today’. er yesterday actually. cause. depression.’
from the 25th: so the first time I had sex. well actually the first time I had sex I was raped. I was 24 and it was a week or so after my birthday. [which is in aug.]. yeah...... i’d agreed to h...
um. eventful. in 2018
this is from the 25th. of last month: ‘so today um. today was sun. actually it still is. um......so i got together w/ my mentor. um oh at wendy’s well they have this new computer thing for a pers...
'are you going to your dentist appt.?' ok never ask me that. in 2017. got it.
this is from the 21st. of last month: ‘yeah the lady asked me that earlier. ok never ask me that when it comes to things like that. it implies i have a choice. between going and not going. [ok we...
um pain. and weird stuff. long weird day. TBI. in 2017. got it.
this is from the 20th. of last month: ‘btw i’m tired and i make even less sense then usual when i’m um. tired. so earlier.......i’m not sure if i was actually sleep or if like. i passed out for s...
i panicked. in 2017. got it.
this is from um wed. [and again this was today? wow.]. so earlier i was at family dollar in the tooth.............um...............well being aisle [weird way of putting it but i have issues w/ t...
Margery. in 2017. got it.
/from detroit. we think. which i’m not btw. my aunt is though. um anyway. so lately i’ve been thinking about this girl evan told me about. she had cancer and was on her way to a..........um dr.’s...
a wrinkle in time. in 2018
this is vague so as not to give too much away for those who haven’t seen the movie. so like i said i saw ‘a wrinkle in time’ yesterday. the ending was good the movie was weird.um. i. i got emotio...
it's been a strange wk. in 2018
um. so i saw a wrinkle in time today. i didn’t not. like it but what the fuk did i just watch? wow that’s a trippy movie. it’s confusing and. bizarre. um but anyway. it’s been a strange wk. sun. ...
um. reminded me of when i was raped. in 2017. got it.
um. i’m really tired right now. but that’s not what this entry’s about. no um. so earlier [that was today? wow i’m knackered] when i was outside the......store waiting for the lady to come pick m...
it’s been. 2 months since my last SU attempt [that was feb. 10th] and i. it’s weird. i’m not really sure how to feel about it. but i don’t think there’s any one way to feel about it. or something...
idinno it's weird though. TBI. in 2017. got it.
idinno it’s weird though. it’s weird to think a little over 3 months ago i sustained a concussion and got a TBI. [well. again a concussion is. a TBI.]. and it completely changed me. and it. it’s ...
TBI. and buses. in 2017. got it.
um. my symptoms haven’t been to bad. thank god. lately though. i’ve had this pressure in my head. kindof like the beginning of a thunderclap. oh god i hope not cause i hate those. they’re awful. ...
Trafalgar Sq. in 2017. got it.
t’s one of my fave places [in london. i don’t think there’s one anywhere else so] along w/ the peter pan statue. while i’m going on about this. so the last time i was there. i was w/ my mom she w...
Mockingbird Woman Part 2 *TW* in 2017. got it.
so i helped a lady today. i mean a random lady not someone i knew/know. well so. this is the 2nd time i’ve seen her. she’s a sign flyer. and stands on a median or the 2 times i’ve seen her she’s ...
Mockingbird Woman Part 2 *TW* in 2017. got it.
so i helped a lady today. i mean a random lady not someone i knew/know. well so. this is the 2nd time i’ve seen her. she’s a sign flyer. and stands on a median or the 2 times i’ve seen her she’s ...
Mockingbird Woman in 2017. got it.
TW so. and i don’t think i’ve mentioned this a lot if ever. a few yrs. ago when i was 24 maybe 23 i was downtown. and i saw this woman holding a yellow piece of paper that had the word ‘abuse’ on...
i love birds. in 2018
well that was just delightful. so i saw a bird at starbucks. like actually in starbucks. at first i couldn’t figure out where the sound was coming from and then. as i was sitting there eating my ...
from the 1st - the 7th in 2017. got it.
btw i’m really tired right now so. um on the 1st which was sun. i flew back from nashville. flight got in at 5:45 had airport dinner w/ my mom. on mon. valerie i got together. we went to. we did ...
