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‘ oh ‘he’ being evan. yeah he feels the same way I do about the whole Pat.thing. only he’s pushing me away bc he’s scared of losing someone else which. well he’s doing just that by pushing me awa...
from the 29th - the 4th in 2017. got it.
um so the 29th i did my laundry. on mon. valerie didn’t come. so i didn’t do anything. same w/ tues. - fri. and on sat. i went to the store.
‘ yeah evan just said that to me when we were on the phone and he was upset. which makes it sound like he doesn’t care about me. even though I know he does. I texted him and was like wow that hur...
evan in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done. july 19, 2014 in Evan
‘ yeah so like I said. [yes more catching up]. evan and I’ve been talking. well really we’ve been talking since may so it’s not all that new. he’s been alrite up and down just like he usually is....
so we're. dating? in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done. june 24, 2014 in Evan
‘ well er I mean no. no we’re not. But I want to try 1 date just to see how things go. [which means i’m hoping it’ll go well and we’ll go on more]. [oh ‘we’ being evan and I]. ‘
‘ w/ evan. w/ my ex I actually had to work, at being in a relationship. bc I was in one. and now. I don’t actually have to. bc we’re not. it’s so easy and comfortable. I don’t actually have to tr...
‘ I, generally have news when posting here. not to state the apparent or anything. so, there’s this guy. that I’m interested in. and I think we already know who I’m talking about. [well I mean Id...
yeah so evan news. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done. may 26, 2014 in Evan
‘ um well he’s here seems to be doin alrite. I still don’t know what all exactly happened. we talked about it and he’s sorry for putting me through that [well yeah. he should be] but that he need...
‘ I know I should be more understanding. But, I’m currently not. So last night Evan phoned me when he was drunk. And then I phoned him and he said he was going to take sleeping pills. And, I beli...
‘ um yeah. so on Sat. we talked. and, it was good for us. we had a good day. and I want the best for him I really do but. I don’t know what that is, exactly. I don’t know what he ingested last S...
‘ yeah so i’m out of it right now due to my ED and. stuff. Ok so now I have survivor guilt as well as ‘normal guilt’. er I mean the other kindof guilt. Evan’s still here far as I know. I texted ...
‘ Yeah so um. fuk it’s been a taxing.........uh...........almost day and a half. So last........night between 5 and 6 Evan phones and says he’s having a health crisis and he’s going [in]to the ho...
ok everyone so I have news. *evan* may 7, 2014 in Evan
‘ So he phoned me today and he’s. he’s here. not sure how ok he is but he’s here. ‘
‘ I haven’t heard anything official since his mom hasn’t called me. [again yet]. But I think that Evan um. he left. as in, he ............oh god. he physically left.us. [ok so to clarify: he’s no...
‘ yeah so he. evan I mean. makes [or he did when we were actually talking and he wasn’t distracted/spiking out] me feel cared about. like his queen. like he will literally stay by my side while ...
‘ This new format is really damn annoying I don’t like it at all. it used to be you’d have the page and at the top was like. the font bar thingy [I have no idea what it’s actually called] and the...
‘ so yeah. more on this. Ya know. last yr. - March actually - when evan and I started hanging out again. sure he was ranty and upset and emotional [well I mean who wouldn’t be? his, our, best fri...
yeah so Evan news. in The Wonderland Years: 2014. Done. april 1, 2014 in Evan
‘ um well he’s here, a. he finally got at me after 2.5 months of not. on the 27th. and ya know. I wasn’t super excited about it like usual. like yeah it was nice esp. cause I’d been so worried an...
‘ so in my entry from.......the 17th quoting. an entry from. the 1st i state: ‘ ‘ since I uh. no actually it wasn’t due to my ED........i lost my uh ‘battle’, as i call it. well..........I. kind...
‘ from. may 1st: ‘ since I uh. no actually it wasn’t due to my ED........i lost my uh ‘battle’, as i call it. well..........I. kindof...........OD’d........ 5 yrs. ago. yeah............and f*. oh...
‘ so. on ‘that night’. the night that i. i recently wrote about the night of the OD. i remember the argument but i don’t remember what happened leading up to that point. like. i guess. i would’v...
from the 22nd - the 28th in 2017. got it.
um. so on the 22nd which was sun. i did my laundry. on mon. valerie didn’t come. oh but i had a meeting [well a visit] w/ emily. that’s right that’s what happened. on tues. i went to the store. o...
‘ um. so i remembered more of that night. the night i almost um left. a little over 3 yrs. ago. i remembered. that i got as i call it TMI sick. i won’t put, when that happened but apparently it h...
‘ so in my last entry i started to go through the timeline of events from ‘that night’ 3 yrs. ago. apparently it was a fri. i remember it being dark when things started happening er it was alread...
‘ right so. well i was thinking about the night i almost um well left. well no. ok so the last time evan called me we were talking about it cause i had a question on it for him. and the question ...
