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'Well I got drunk. [and on that note beer makes me feel sexy. and powerful]. So thispast weekend we were up in Arvada. at his place. left Wed. evening and came back yesterday evening. Yeah so it ...

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'So Max has the same view on my rpe [wow that's a weird phrase. my rpe] as James does. Don't think too much about it............if it's upsetting. No and ok I mean I get that. That's, actually wh...

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'>........protection.   Graphic. SA TW. You've been warned.   Please Be Supprtive. & Kind. No Advice.   Ok so this might be a bit weird. or, well, maybe not.actually. um. Justso hear me ou...

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'>......of mind somewhat.   So over the past couple weeks I've been doing some thinking about this. You know, my whole life I always believed one thing. Well. One thing above all else. That li...

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'um. TW for abuse i mean. Be Careful Reading.   Please Be Kind. & Supportive. No Advice.   Ok, so.  On Sat. night/Sun. morning after all that crap went down, James & I went to bed. And. I...

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'So last night I went to the bar. and looked damn good. and apparently this guy - Al - who hit on me quite a bit agreed. In his words I was/am "entirely too sexy". being much older than me he fel...

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'So clearly this entry's er. pot-related.   No Advice. Also this is slightly Graphic, so.   So over the weekend [and yes I'll write about my birthday. and the arts fest which was last month] I go...

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'So for those who don't know I got sick this weekend. We actually got really fukin stoned. off um. edibles. Which I'm not used to so I honestly think that's what caused me to get sick. [yes since...

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'>.........doing'. entry. So as I've mentioned the drinking's a bit out of whack. The 6 wks off thing got. interrupted last week. But I'll try again this week. [oh btw on that note...........t...

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'>Please Be Kind. & Supportive. No Advice. Um. So this coming Friday it'll be 2 yrs since I was last r*ped. Idinno it.........it feels weird. I'm honestly a bit stunned. Like this. isn't a...

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'>........time'. - McCartney. So not this past weekend but the one before, I told Jasmine.........and Max......and Katrina that I'd been r*ped. didn't tell them the entire story [and, to be pe...

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'As put. So that weekend that all that crap went down w/ the whole.all the..........drinking and telling and just general crap. I was saying to Katrina something about how people need to know tha...

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'.....absolutely sucky. So this is actually about. um. Wed. night. So last week at the bar I met this guy Kevin [as I found out this week and B: he was the guy I had a 10 min. convo w/ about musi...

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'As mentioned, I saw 'Sparkle'. but this is [about] what happened before and after that. So I get to the mall at 9:30 and it's weirdly empty. and dark. I check the directory thing and turns out, ...

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'>.......someone like you'. James as in Katrina's man, not mine. oh, Carol's my dad's mom.   So. apparently. according to my man. Katrina & James broke up. and that's all I know about that...

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'So Wed. night he [James] comes down to the bar. again. yay. We do a duet. I've missed our duets. it goes well. We do 'don't stop believin'.......no one's done that in awhile. From what I recall ...

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'So. At the end of this month it'll be a yr since Maggie, um. 'left'. She was a family friend so she came by a lot when I was growing up. She was my aunt's best friend they'd been friends since h...

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'So this is actually from. uh. sometime last month. Idk if you remember but.........  James and i had a situation last month in which. i was depressed and wanted to hide. as i do. so i went into ...

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'As put. My anxiety's gotten worse..........it makes sense, what w/ the event at the end of this month and then next month being the 8 yr.........   and the 1 yr of when I told Mark about 'that' ...

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'So this is interesting.   Apparently. Not everyone's like me. [er well no]. I mean. in terms of depression. See, up untill I thought everyone who had depression was also angry as part of it. er....

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'The entry about my weekend's comin up next. And I'm sure you'll enjoy that one much more.   But first. I needwant to get this out of the way. well, alrite. i don't want to but i should. So early...

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'Uh. So last Wed. night he comes down to the bar. I sing.........Gnarls Barkley's 'Crazy', Adele's 'Chasing Pavements' [which, btw, I think I do beautifully w/.er.on?. yeah I do well w/ Adele. an...

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'Like I said. Here's Part 2.   So we were both having a helluva time getting started Friday night. He took a shower hoping it'd help. and it didn't not really. so we're sittin on his bed he in hi...

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'So I really don't remember most of this weekend. But we also got stoned, so. [yeah like that's new]. And also didn't do much. Um. got my period Fri. that was fun. So he comes to my place and I'm...

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'So the other day we're at my place talking about sex. [which i want to have Dec. 2. at my place. sober. well if i'm ready]. And I ask him what we're gonna do about Plan B. and he goes "I don't k...

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