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it's not a breakup since we're not together. er we weren't. rather. but it feels like a part of me's missing since. things changed. I feel. incomplete. yes bc I gave myself to him. and no not...

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yeah so the other day the ladies & I were talking. and I go "I like Trixie better cause she doesn't run away from people" [Trixie's one of the kitties. she's blind and was a product of inbree...

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my um. profile pic thingy. It's a pic from our [my family and I that 'us'. for the longest time I couldn't remember the word 'our'] recent holiday in Disney. I think it's one of my better ones. ...

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So at my house we have: Jenn, Kristina, Stephanie, Christopher and myself. Jenn and Kristina work from 9 - 2 at a pizza place. Jenn just started up again. like last wk. or something. Christopher...

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not my sister I mean. Stephanie the lady i'm living w/. I know it's weird i'm stating this given that. 77F is cold to me. but it's too hot to cook. Even though aside from my room the rest of the...

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but I don't know. I mean I don't like. care or anything. yeah so on Wed. when we're coming back from the mtns. [my god it's cold up there] I ask her what she remember about that night [the night...

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So I woke up 20 mins. ago. It's now 1:20. I don't really feel like I've wasted half the day when I get up at 12:30, 1 at my house but I do at my mom's. But then, I'm actually allowed to go places...

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Ya know. My roommates are nice. to me and in general. they're cool. But Jenn and Stephanie are related. And Kristina's Jenn's best friend. she's been living here for 3 yrs. I'll never have that ...

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cause that's the most interesting part of my life right now. [no it is]. yeah so. he's told me twice he doesn't know how long it'll be before we see each other again. I might just be looking for...

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Ya know. We're [evan and i i mean that 'we'] not in love. I mean yes we do love each other.......in the way you love a very good friend. and we're always telling each other 'I love you'. [actuall...

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yeah. i'm bitching again. I do that a lot apparently. funny thing is my mom doesn't think I do. cause I don't around her. yeah so evan. he's becoming slightly clingy. actually this isn't really ...

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which well I was before due to health news. this doesn't happen to me. I don't have my heart broken twice in almost 2 yrs. no of course not.

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I was thinking about this recently. about the night my ex threatened me. erm. well he indirectly threatened me. he wasn't like 'ok if you don't stop this is what's going to happen'. but he eluded...

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and I don't feel like I didn't get enough sleep. You'd think, if someone had slept more than 8 hrs. they'd feel overtired. You know the feeling. where you wake up all overtired and emotional. ye...

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right so as put. Ya know. if he wasn't such a nice guy..........then I wouldn't feel so er I mean. [I put 'so towards' and then deleted it. like wait. that doesn't make sense. um]. I mean. then ...

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This is why it makes me sad. is cause we were just starting to get together. just like Pat & I. Pat & I got together for 4 months [well. we knew each other for that long] and then almost ...

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Ya know. I don't want to let him I go I never have. the truth is my bonds w/ my other friends my other close friends - Susie, Lane, Mark - aren't as close as they should be. could be. they never ...

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omygod. yeah so here's the Evan news. well like I put we didn't break up since well we're not together. but it feels like we did. we're, taking a break. he's gotta get back on his feet [he has f...

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yeah so like I put i'll be 27 soon. i really don't want to be 27. 2 reasons A: all the greats died at 27. Morrison, Joplin, Hendrix, Cobain and uh.........someone else. omygod who was it? and 2:...

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Ok so before I start i'ma state that i'm anorexic. [well we knew that]. I've been for um 13 yrs. [i'm 26 btw i'll be 27 this month]. and so my anorexia has led to osteopenia [which really has not...

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which again proves yes it's possible to cry in your sleep. [well. I knew this having read it in 'my sister's keeper'. I haven't read that in a long time]. I don't remember the last time I actual...

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So like I said I've been sleeping a lot. [but I've also been depressed]. And I just read that um. sunlight makes your brain release serotonin which makes you want to wake up. [either that or. we...

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Purple Rain yesterday can't make you love me landslide someone like you total eclipse of the heart midnight train to georgia

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Ya know sometimes. ya gotta let people figure things out by for themselves. which for me is really hard. actually. i'm a hover-er. um. ..........

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so now i'm sad. but I actually know why now. and a bit heartbroken.

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