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Ya know, I'm not a big white snake fan. I think. that people do come into our lives for a reason. and some stay and some don't. some, of their own accord and some not. some die and that's how th...

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this has to do w/ my last......entry. he said that the other wk. [er, 'the other wk.' no it was this wk. it's been a long wk. my god. I feel like I've lived 2 wks. or somethin just in 1]. yeah s...

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it's from a song from the tv show 'smash'. remember that show? I. like that song. a lot. um. yeah so lately. I've been depressed. like not suicidal depressed any more. just idinno. numb. it's w...

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'yeah. maturing's a weird thing. I realised this awhile ago. it doesn't feel quite right. it feels a bit terrifying, actually. I want last yr back. even though yes I was sick. I've never been t...

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evan, again. ya know. like. a yr. ago. [actually it's been a yr. and 4 months and 6 days. it's also my ex's 31st bday. um. he's single according to FB] he was so sweet to me. evan I mean. he was...

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evan, of course. [who else but?] yeah so he calls me bc I asked him earlier to call. and I think oh ok so i'm going to talk about something that I should talk to him about and he'll listen but h...

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I want to be Circe. you know, the lady who uh.............um. Hercules [er, 'hercules'] Odysseus encountered on hiss travels. she was the lady who turned her enemies/those who'd offended her into...

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this is a bit of a boring entry. um so I think I slept better this morning. I slept from 4 a.m. - 1 p.m. which is um. 9 hrs. I went right to sleep which like never happens but maybe that's not a...

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but they're not sure if it was accidental or uh. intentional. I just found this out today when I asked stephanie. oh i'm talking about Jared's sister's Jennifer's.passing. she passed this week, a...

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So I have news. Stephanie's son in law Jared's other sister Jennifer evidently passed away this week. I don't know any of the details. And I know it's not my place to be involved [in] and i'm try...

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a few yrs. ago my bar friend Lou and I were talking about this. and she said that. and ya know she's right. I used to think that 1: all that meant was.uh. letting people do what they wanted w/o t...

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yeah so on Mon. Jessica came as usual. um. we went to firehouse subs for our last hr. I wouldn't go there again I didn't like my sub. it was alrite. during the 1st 2 hrs. she did things which I f...

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er that is I had an epiphany recently. I came to a realisssation. it was something i'd realized before but not this fully. so as sweet as I come off. i'm not a nice lady sometimes. but only like...

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evan stuff of course. I only wrote my last entry 2 days ago? wow it feels like it was a week ago. but a lot happened Mon./Tues., so. no but that's how my days always are. like ok so the bus cam...

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yes this is about evan. of course. so um. that was bizarre. [i'm also really tired so a few things seem more bizarre to me than usual]. so a few mins. ago we were on the phone and he asks me abo...

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sorry I just. should vent. yeah so last night Stephanie got uh. dinner from Noodles & Co. I had the penne rosa which I ate most of which she was surprised by. I don't usually eat a whole lot...

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So he and I were talking [after he made me angry and so I texted him via email testing him going 'call and we can talk about some stuff. I might just go to bed early tonight. and tomorrow night t...

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which is funny cause i'm doing that exact same thing. i'm using him until. something better comes along which it won't unless/until i'm open to it. I want him to be that better. but. and. maybe...

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yeah so we jut talked. evan and I. and he told me that. but I want him to be. he's the one person i'm closest to right now. and have been for a long time. and that's where my fault lies. not my f...

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I jut don't see how a world that makes such wonderful things could be bad. no I know how. I just don't like it. copied from my FB: 'and maybe i'm not ready to surface. it means i'll have to brea...

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yeah so last Sept. I shot him an email stating that if he wanted to get coffee or lunch or w/e let me know. I told him i'd moved and I told him about Pat's um. having died and that was it. And h...

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yeah so like I said. I cut for 10 yrs. haven't in a yr. and 4 months. it just. it wasn't me any more. I stopped cause whenever I did it I actually got too emotional. just another way of avoiding ...

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but I don't. nor do I trust others, really. back when I was cutting [oh. yeah so I cut for 10 yrs. and haven't in a yr. and 4 months. doesn't mean I haven't wanted to. more on this in an upcomin...

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So. I don't think I've ever written about this. At least a yr. ago Jessica [again, she's my. mentor] and I - well ok she did - came up w/ this thing of. weekly goals. which was each wk. to do so...

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So, the past......10 yrs. [well almost. i'll be 27 this month. and also. fuk has it been 10 yrs. already?] I haven't had a good relationship w/ my dad. I mean we get on and everything but we're n...

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