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yeah so like I put in my last entry last..........um thurs. I had a dental and dr.’s. the dental was at 1 which was weird. I’ve always had them in the mornings. so I spiked out at the dentist. c...

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as usual i’m writing an entry that covers several things. er events. um so the last I wrote was thurs. the 11th. I had my dental and dr.’s appts. that day they were. ok. it was a long day. and th...

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yeah so as the title states I’ve been thinking about the events of the past yr. last yr. this month I was doing so well. I was going out and writing. recovery writing. I was taking my vitamins. [...

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I don’t talk about 10 yrs. ago. I don’t talk about the rape. I don’t talk about the accidents. in college I did. a bit. I talked to someone about the rape. actually other than here most people do...

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um well shocked. as I didn’t expect it to happen - obviously - but that’s my point. it threw the whole. 2 days off. I don’t like that my dad was in the hospital I just like that he wasn’t at my ...

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emotionally i’m. not. yeah so last month I got laryngitis [again], tonsillitis, the stomach flu [yeah um that wasn’t particularly pleasant. not that it would be] and my tmj got bad. and I also ha...

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‘o. I love chai. like a lot. except for starbucks chai. leela’s has the best chai. I mean that’s what they’re known for but it doesn’t make it any less good. it’s a 24 hr. bar/café downtown [Denv...

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‘oh something else about me is I’m a corrector. not..........not outloud. but in my head i’m correcting people all the time. yeah so when I got back from my mom’s late Wed. night the lady and I w...

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‘yeah so. apparently my mom told Jessica that my dad had gone into the hospital for appendicitis. via email. ok so this bothers me for 2 reasons. A: I wanted to be the one to tell Jessica. I ...

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‘Well my mom and I usually get on well. as do Jessica and I. except. on Tues. I completely forgot to make the bus appt. to go back to aurora. from my mom’s on Wed. the office closes at 5 p.m. and...

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er I mean I stand corrected. I meant. that my dad’ll be in the hospital until Sun. he’ll have 3 wks. recovery time at his place sorry,

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yeah so yesterday my dad was in the hospital for appendicitis. he’ll be there until tonight 3 wks. recovery. um. wow. [knackered as hell i’ll put more when I’ve slept. uh more].

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I just learned something. Apparently when people my age have a physical they have a complete physical. I never have other than when I was little. and bc of this I always thought they just stopped...

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fall in my book starts Sept. 1st. everyone’s all like ‘no it starts Sept. 21st’. um. not officially for me. Sept. isn’t a summer month it isn’t part of summer. for me. yeah I don’t like fall. it ...

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since my 2nd sex abuse. it still doesn’t seem real. like that’s what it actually was. I mean. he pushed me into sex. he used protection and I didn’t. but if it hadn’t been real. I wouldn’t have ...

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and she. was apparently an addict. a meth addict. and she. had an addict baby. .........yeah. oh 'she' being Jared's sister. isn't that much older than me.

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yeah so the last time we talked was the 9th which was um. a wk. ago this sat. I've been calling him since but he hasn't answered or called me. which he usually does. I've texted him. I've told h...

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that song it just. it makes me so happy. as does eva cassidy's cover of um. 'people get ready'. yeah so. ya know. there are certain things that people can't change about themselves. and maybe wh...

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um........well hm........ recently my mom and I saw the movies 'tammy' & 'maleficent' [or as I call it that movie I can't say]. the end of tammy reminded me off me. we saw it w/ my sister. I...

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which. isn't really his issue it's mine. ['he' again being evan]. see people can apologise. and yeah that's nice and everything. but it doesn't mean a whole lot until they tell me 'well I can't ...

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although. i'm not in love. but w/e. metaphorically speaking of course. [this is like my...........4th metaphor lately]. I think. that I like the idea [the 'ghost' part] of who evan was better ...

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well I mean. that's a bit of an odd way to articulate that sentence since you don't remember people as they are in the present. I mean 'remembering' isn't thinking about the present. er that's. n...

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so i'm just. really sad right now. it's currently 10:20 p.m. the girls are over they've been over since like 4 this afternoon. 'the girls' being Nicole's daughters Leila and riley they're 3 and 4...

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yeah so I was just re-reading some of my entries and writing some sstuff down. 1: and back in april according to my blog I was letting him go. what changed? 2: in May a reason I want[/ed] him ...

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well. almost 4 months. I was thinking about this recently. um............ok so May 13th I moved in. I didn't have any of my stuff wasn't allowed to go and get it. that was the night I called the...

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