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Been at in-patient rehab for about a week and a half. Today they finally removed my feeding tube from my stomach. I’m only attached to oxygen at this point. I wasn’t using the feeding tube since ...

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Well still here in the 2nd hospital and in the same building as he inpatient rehab facility that I’m moving to as soon as a bed comes available. It’s basically like a hospital but with intense th...

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As I read in my notes some of you know I was hospitalized on Christmas Eve. I had covid and while on the bypap machine I collected air around my stomach and heart it needed removed and during tha...

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Worst thing so far…constant joint pain. Apparently viruses can exacerbate arthritis and mine is definitely exacerbated. I want to rip my fingers and toes off. Also the headache that comes and go...

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Well if finally happened…I have covid. My coworker was sick last week was tested Monday was negative, came to work Thursday still sick, but not as bad but her husband and daughter also sick now. ...

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So this dream I had before, but tonight’s went longer. I dreamt that a blonde lady was acting erratically and pulled into the parking area where I lived. In the dream my apartment was similar, b...

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I Had a dream involving basketball players, cheerleaders, the cheer staff of the Dallas Cowboys cheerleaders, Bea Arthur, and myself. There were auditions, rule breaking, traveling, very pink loc...

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Just as I thought things were settling down a $500 car repair had to happen this week. I am hanging in there, most things are status quo. The holidays are always super busy for me. I read you all...

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Whether you are celebrating Thanksgiving or not, there is always something to be thankful for. Thankful for so much. Thankful for you all.

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I’m currently overwhelmed with life nothing new really. I’d like to say something different, but it’s like I figure out one thing and 3 more creep on in. Going to try and update in categories… Lo...

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Life is not horrible, but I’m a bit of a big mess. Everything makes me cry, I don’t feel happy. I just want to run away from life. I don’t know what’s wrong and yet everything is wrong. I know th...

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So I have been physically and mentally exhausted since I would say July. I have today off was supposed to have a massage but it got canceled and rescheduled for Thursday so update time it is. He...

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Well unofficially it’s “most likely” a cyst, but they are recommending a 6 month follow up which is the part I don’t get. Other women I know that have cysts just go in for their yearly mammogram....

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For my imaging to take place to see if it’s nothing or something in my right boob. Prayers please.

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Why not…my car brakes are shot more money I don’t have. I have either a stye or infection on an oil glad in my lower eyelid it hurts a lot. Waiting to see when I can get in for that. Shoot me now...

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My parents garage. I am so pissed I can’t even deal…so what am I doing… crying instead. I realize I never updated about what happened that sent me into a hysterical mess. A pipe blew at my chi...

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I’m literally having a crying melt down in a parking lot. I can’t take this anymore…something else just happened and I just can’t.

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Is when they can get me in for the ultrasound and second mammogram. The doctor said not to lose sleep most often these results are commonly from the way the breast was placed in the machine or ju...

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Had my first mammogram today for routine purposes…got an email a little bit ago that I have new clinical results on my health chart app. I read the results…I have a 6mm nodule they recommend furt...

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Go ahead call me a chicken I saw D last night and my anxiety overruled my wanting answers. I do believe I’m going to have to write him a letter/email and just give it that way. We had a good nig...

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My car door latch broke yesterday and it was just one more thing to overwhelm me. Chauffeur to my parents, errand runner, part caretaker, on call committee for church to find new pastor and made ...

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Lowest of lows. I know some of you saw I finally closed my dating 2020 book because on August 1st it will be the one year anniversary of the first date I had with D. It’s been a tumultuous year f...

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Don’t worry I have others it’s just this one was dating in 2020 which 2020 is clearly over. I’ve been dating the same man D since August of 2020 my ups and downs are chronicled in my regular book...

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My dad was in a wreck tonight, he’s ok, but it scared me and my reaction to that was a breakdown because it triggered me. I began thinking of losing him and it just spiraled out of control from t...

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Outside so my apt is an oven even with AC on because I have to use portable AC units and they just don’t work that great. So updates…work is still not 100% what I thought it would be and I’m piss...

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