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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
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Nesting in In My World
I want to just skip ahead to the part of my life where I’m happy with someone that wants to spend their time with me and start a family. I want to own a little house that’s not perfect but it wor...
JCH in In My World
Today is your birthday and I miss you. I’ve thought about you a ton today and it hurts. I almost hope you reach out. You shouldn’t and I shouldn’t miss you. If you read this, Happy birthday. I ...
Warrior in In My World
I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror tonight and for a fleeting second I saw her… She was younger then, naive, with galaxies in her eyes and an inferno in her soul. And once she faded all ...
Untitled in In My World
I haven’t felt this alone in a long time. I’m sorry, you deserved better. I broke my promises. I’m sorry.
Let go. in In My World
I’m pretty damned good at compartmentalizing. I really am. That said this shit hurts. I’ve tried and tried to get past it and I just land here every time. I’m sorry I’m not stronger. I wish I wer...
Zzz in In My World
“I can’t sleep” I made him roll over and lay his head on me. About 5 minutes later he rolled over but kept my arm around him and he was asleep almost immediately after. He doesn’t believe he’s r...
Okay but he's great in In My World
I’m a little bit in love with YungBlud. What have I become? Also… HELLO EMOPHASE THAT NEVER LEFT
Grumpy in In My World
I’m allergic to fleas and I’m also a magnet for all biting bugs. About 20 bites later (in 2 or 3 days. Not bad except 13 are from last night) and I’m just grumpy.
Tried hard to correct it, but nothing was effective. in In My World
I need to know what really happened to you. The spiral won’t leave me alone.
Running at 75%, maybe. in In My World
They say that if you can’t sleep at night it’s because you’re awake in someone else’s dream… Well I slept from around midnight until around 2:30 and then I was just awake until after 6. So like. ...
Friday the 13th in In My World
I curled myself into a ball and had your arm between my legs. My head was above your shoulder but my cheek was against it. My legs were cold but your arm was warm. We were watching Friday the 13t...
It's only a matter of time in In My World
I keep seeing a car crash over and over again. In my dreams, while I’m awake, and everywhere in between. Not I’m just waiting for it to actually happen. Fuck this. Maybe talking about it will k...
Stop. in In My World
Stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it. Let go. It isn’t fucking worth it anymore.
Sleepy in In My World
I haven’t been sleeping, mostly just listening to forensic files and reading some things on my phone. I got up to go up stairs and while I was putting my glasses on you rolled over and growled in...
I only want to cry a lot. in In My World
I typed out a whole fucking huge entry and it never saved to my drafts when I told it to… its just gone.
Coughing, still and again. in In My World
I coughed that kind that takes your breath away but you cant feel in your throat and I couldn’t breathe for almost a whole 20 seconds. So much for prompt care helping. Apparently my airways soun...
We are okay in In My World
I am getting through this dumb move because you are here with me through it. We hold each other through everything and I am so grateful for you. You keep waking up and mumbling at me to ask if ...
Safe in In My World
I wanted to run away to the 4 walls I felt safest in. The 4 walls I felt closest to you in. You’re gone and my walls are being taken from me again. I’m terrified.
Pissed off in In My World
I am completely irrationally pissed off at you right now and I cant talk about it or deal with it so I’m just posting this here. You could at least pretend to care. Oh wait, you’re too “busy”.
Darling, sweet lover, won't you help me to recover? in In My World
We will work things out because as long as we stay together we will always figure it out. Breathe, It’ll be okay. We have 30 days to find a new place to live and I don’t know how the actual fuc...
The static still cracks in my veins. in In My World
I’m not okay. I likely won’t be okay for a long time. I need to breathe. Fuck.
Protip: Don't mess with my Protector. in In My World
(Context: someone direct messaged me on kik and has been making me uncomfortable. Will post screenshots later.) “Yep. That’s it. If things go too far, I’m going off on him. I havent gotten to do ...
Fuck this sickness. in In My World
Its 2:35 in the morning, I’m completely exhausted. Still sick, going on day 5. Lost count of how many times I’ve run to the bathroom now. And I’m just generally in a bad mood. I want to be so fr...
"...and it felt like a bullet in her heart." in In My World
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Turn me up when you feel low. in In My World
You know I’m missing you today. Playing the one song that hurts every time while I’m in Walmart and have to remain composed is just not fucking fair. I miss you.
