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"It has been said time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue, and the pain lessens, but it is never gone."
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Dream baby in In My World
I had a dream the other night and it’s been fucking with me. I’ll spare most of the details but the big main thing was that I was pregnant and spotting. I remember thinking “I dont want to lose t...
Quarantine in In My World
Change is inevitable and necessary but one, huge, collective, global change…? That is a bit much to handle. But honestly? I’m loving the free time. For the first time in my 25 years, I have time...
Can't find the right music. in In My World
Can’t keep you off my mind. I have a bad feeling about tomorrow and it is making me so restless that music doesnt sound right. I cant even explain why because I’m not low or anything. I feel goo...
Dreams in In My World
I had a dream we were riding in a car or a bike maybe and we had to stop because a small airplane was going to park on the roadway. You were immediately terrified and so was everyone around us. Y...
I should sleep. in In My World
I wasn’t low today. I wasn’t low all day but now… I’m burnt out. I should be sleeping because I have to be up in less than 5 hours but I needed to write. Most of the time I’m doing well. I got us...
Sunlight heals all in In My World
There’s just something about a warm day in the winter. It feels like the start of something new, and maybe it’s just another day but today feels free. Big changes are coming and in the short-slee...
I almost don't want to talk about it in In My World
I had a bad bad bad dream last night. There was a nightmare part but overall just an awful dream. There was this creature that didn’t fit the… I guess resolution… of the dream and it scared me so...
When faced with tragedy, we come alive or come undone. in In My World
When you’re reading a book about the end of the world, it’s hard not to imagine it being your world. You put the book down and expect the world to be in chaos but it all feels so… normal. The wea...
We are, we are all innocent. in In My World
“I remember feeling low and I remember losing hope And I remember all the feelings and the day they stopped. We are, we are all innocent.” Filed under: Lost in thought on the way home.
Merry Christmas in In My World
This has been by far the least Christmas-y Christmas in my life. I believe I did a pretty good job of hiding it but I’m honestly really depressed. I miss my mom. I know she comes back tomorrow ...
My mountians are not mole hills. in In My World
I have a really bad habit of downplaying anything that is wrong with me–even when it is completely valid for me to be broked/down/hurt/angry/etc. Maybe that’s why no one believes me when I start...
Sick of being sick. in In My World
I’ve been sick for a week now with varying symptoms and I am so frustrated. It started on Monday the 21st with a sore throat that hurt too much to swallow by the time I got home. Fever of 100.5....
Yesterday in In My World
My brother and I were in Walmart today to buy the switch I’ve been saving for and some groceries and animal stuff. I had already bought the switch and a game. While we were in line checking out ...
"He is your comfort zone." in In My World
Have you ever had someone put into words exactly what you were feeling in a way you couldn’t articulate? On one hand they know what you’re trying to say and are truly listening. On the other you ...
A dream after a dream in In My World
I woke up into another dream only I didn’t know I was dreaming. We were talking but I’m not sure what about. I moved to put my head and arm on your stomach. I wiggled and you asked why so I told ...
Ultrasound in In My World
My appointment today went by so quickly and it made the ache… the grief so much worse. I shouldn’t have talked about it. I’d have been better off if I just buried it as far as I could. My cowork...
Grumpy in In My World
I’m so exhausted and restless that I can’t even fall asleep for a before work car nap. Now I have 40 minutes to waste whatever other way
Early Mornings. P.S. I got up 10 minutes early anyway in In My World
I went to bed at midnight last night despite knowing my alarm would be going off at 4:30. I tried everything to get to sleep but by 1:30 I was still awake. I wasn’t even can’t-stay-still restless...
Hinder in In My World
Lets go home and get stoned. We can end up making love instead of misery. Let’s go home and get stoned ‘cause the sex is so much better when you’re mad at me There’s just something about that ...
Liar, Liar, You'll pay for your sins. in In My World
Why do you have to come back here and shake things up again? I was doing just fine without you. I am doing just fine without you. I loved the way you made me feel but you hurt me when I was my m...
. in In My World
“I really hope you don’t hate me before I can finally find clarity.”
I'm sick of crying in In My World
Depressed means panic mode comes out a lot more. Panic mode means a lot more angry “attitude” moments. Everyone is going to start hating me but I swear I’m doing my best. I cried for over two ho...
Who would want to celebrate anyway? in In My World
I know it’s just the depression talking but I feel like no one gives a shit that I’ll be 25 in a week. I thought 25 was supposed to be important. A quarter of a century. I wanted someone besides...
Up before the sun in In My World
I finally fell asleep some time after 1 this morning and then I woke up some time before my alarm at 4:45. I’m so tired but your sleepy whimper and adjustment to pull me closer make it a little l...
Ugh. Fuck you, prosebox. I trusted you. in In My World
I wrote out a good long entry tonight. It took me almost an hour to write and then the page refreshed itself before I could do anything and the entry was gone. What happened to autosave? This ha...
