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~Curiosity epicurian~~Wonder-maker~~Eyes wide open~~Cards held close~
"Her ways were free, and it seemed to me, the sunshine walked beside her."
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Indie Film # 4- The Witch in Independent Film-2016
I am so excited that i have surpassed my goal of one indie film per month. This time i had a date, Jamie! Oh, i am so glad he was with me, because this was such a scary movie!!! eerie music auth...
and he to i in Random Thoughts
Ugh. I am sick. But, looking on the positive side- i just had 4 days off work. Three of those were for a conference. I took 3 classes on the neuropsychology of learning disabilities. The, i left...
Indie Film #3- 45 Years in Independent Film-2016
Filmspotting, my favorite film podcast, reviewed this movie a few weeks ago and had rave reviews for the leading lady, Charlotte Rampling. This is a quiet, slice of life film about a couple about...
Confliction in Random Thoughts
I spent a lovely 4 day weekend driving for many hours to see family and spend a birthday with my sister. She turned 36 last Thursday and i turned 39 Friday. I think its the first adult birthday w...
whispers in Random Thoughts
“I love you” I can’t remember what the second part to this was. The conversation had something to do with how our personal truths change, sometimes day to day. (this kind of reminds me of how we ...
old soul/new body pt 2 w/edit in Random Thoughts
i feel that it is difficult to fit in all the things i would like to be a part of my day and life. i guess that is where priorities come into play… now, passing my saturday and touch of the divin...
old soul/new body pt 1 in Random Thoughts
I had an eventful weekend. It almost feels like more than one weekend packed into one. Friday- play date with Brian…this one needs to be written in a private entry Saturday- Tantra and building ...
I dreamt about you before we met in Random Thoughts
swoon My path is a river, ever flowing.
passenger in Random Thoughts
“Here within the heart, the Self shines in its captivating splendor like a noonday sun.” Shankaracharya A lot has been going on, this journey unfolds and i am a passenger. Not just for the journe...
Indie Film # 2- Room in Independent Film-2016
At one point in this movie my heart is racing and i am shaking, hoping above all hopes that this works out, that Jack and Joy make it out of Room. The emotional rivet of this movie is not contri...
Heart Break in Random Thoughts
I don’t know where i will go with this entry, but i should start with saying that my “heart break” is nontraditional. Last Friday and Saturday mornings i took an Eastern Philosophy and Yoga class...
Carol- Indie Film #1 in Independent Film-2016
A lesbian love affair between a wealthy woman and a younger clerk at a toy store in 1950’s New York, starring Cate Blanchett and Rooney Mara Gorgeous cinematography, engaging musical score, and i...
willingness~compassion~clarity in Random Thoughts
I attended a “dharma talk” led by a local [amazing] yoga teacher in Portland. Going in not really knowing the topic, I was pleasantly surprised that she was talking about the book I am currently ...
Ease in Random Thoughts
This week i eased back into teaching… Monday was a snow day and this morning a late start. I am very happy for this.
Renunciation in Random Thoughts
As i read the Bhagavad Gita, chapter 5 speaks to me. It’s called The Yoga of Renunciation. I don’t know if this will make sense, but what it is talking about is action without desiring the result...
Bhagavad Gita in Random Thoughts
The is my current read for the yoga teacher training. A quote… “When you know who you are, you are enlightened. In that Self-realization, the darkness of ignorance disappears in the light of true...
Ritual in Random Thoughts
I have this idea in my head. I have always wondered about rituals. To commemorate a death and say goodbye, for transitions in our lives, such as becoming a teenager…but not the rituals that we no...
Relocation in Random Thoughts
Warning: title (tidal?) may not be accurately indicative of events real or imagined. No animals were harmed in the making of this entry. Subtitled: A Procedural Today i am cooking an Ayurvedic so...
Change in Random Thoughts
I am sitting in my cold home (i like it that way, bundled up in blankets.... but also my house is just cold!) working on my yoga homework, i am backed up to the first one when i should be working...
Sensitive in Random Thoughts
I slept in till 5:40, even though I went to bed late- about 10:30. Guess my body is just used to the early rise. I have a couple weird ego boosters yesterday. I need to watch out, because attent...
Revel/Revelate/Revelation/Revelatory/Relative in Random Thoughts
I have been trying to take what i have been learning about yoga philosophy (tantra), what i have been reading about the ego, and the pain i have been experiencing as a result of this break up. Un...
Emotions in Random Thoughts
Our emotions are not ourselves, they are just experiences that we have. Once an emotion (say, anxiety or sadness) subsides, we do not cease to exist. This is a tidbit from a lecture in my yoga te...
Pursued in Random Thoughts
I have some catharsis to achieve, but don’t have the time to tell my story. Perhaps i will get to it today some time. My heart feels like it is sodden, so heavy. I am avoiding initiating convers...
I want to say goodnight in Random Thoughts
Our ritual good night and good morning. gone. now i don’t want to go to bed.
Broken in Random Thoughts
I have been broken up with, amicably. Still, here we are in Bend, OR at a hotel with a hot tub. Ending things in a nice way? He thanked me for being me, said I was “too nice” for him. I wonder if...