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Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life
Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.
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The Constant Problem in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Emotions versus Intellect. Intellectually, I know that I’m awesome. Truly, I am a catch and any woman would be blessed to be with me. Consider it. I have a stable full time job that pays me no...
Kindnesses and Other Things in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Last night, I had a big list of stuff I wanted to do and to get done. But when I got in the car and started to drive home? I was… almost instantly falling asleep. CLEARLY, I was super tired. ...
Last Night in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Last night as I lay in bed, I was looking through Tinder and OK Cupid as I sometimes do and swiping on the women that looked good or seemed interesting in their profiles. And I GOT MY FIRST MATC...
Probably A Psychological Issue in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I just realized… when I’m feeling anxious… especially socially… I tend to go to a particular show… read the lines from the main character until I’m comfortable enough that I can actually pull off...
Knew It When I Woke Up in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Some days, you wake up and a feeling comes over you. It can be difficult to really put your finger on… but there’s just this feeling and you have a sense for what to expect from the day. Or is ...
A Detached Feeling Understood in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Yesterday, I was feeling sad about the divorce. But I couldn’t put my finger on it. It was a lonely feeling, a feeling that called a tear to my eye and a hollow feeling to my heart. But it was...
Short in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Had a pretty decent weekend. Friday: Roll20 Saturday: DDO w/Remus Sunday: Hung out with Victoria and her kids at their house and went swimming. Overall, pretty good… and very social (all things c...
Okay so in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Okay so… I didn’t create this… but I’m telling you right now… I would very much like to find myself at some point in a place where I can present this to someone!
I'm Not That Lucky in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I’ve not been dreaming the way I normally do. Apparently, this is fairly common in the Time of COVID. But whereas my dreams are normally deeply narrative or, as has been the case during the Pan...
Dogs, Pigs, and Asses in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I’d say last night was a very successful Nala night! Though, concerns abound. I followed the vet’s advice and gave two shorter walks as opposed to 1 big walk. This was better for Nala certainl...
Just a Thank You in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
To everyone who has recommended freezing Nala’s puzzle toys (EverLast Wheel, Kong w/Treats, etc) THANK YOU! Brilliant advice. Today in my failed attempt to get my games to work on my new PC, I ...
Emotions in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I think days like yesterday are about, largely, how emotionally crippling this year has been without almost any support or fix to it. That isn’t to downplay friends and readers who’ve reached ou...
Koinu: Worried Sick in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Oh. Shit. Seriously. This is worry and questioning approaching the level of making me sick. As you may be aware, Nala has taken to destructive chewing again. She has destroyed many a bed linen a...
Tragic in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
So, I was honestly hoping my Sunday would be restorative. After a shitty Friday, a shitty Saturday… I was hoping… Sunday, be relaxing. Started it out by updating my new PC with my old games. On...
Political Statement in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
What has been truly horrifying for me this year is how many people are aghast at my perspective on Law and Order. And that is horrifying because my stance is in support of Law For All. I find it...
For vs To in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
So… not unexpected but… damn I wish I could find someone to help walk Nala! Wednesday I was in too much pain to function; so Nala didn’t get a walk. Yesterday, I walked Nala as much as I could. ...
Survey For Reasons in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I have totally stolen this from one of the various people who did this survey on my list. I just got convictions on all of my trials today so I’m doing this as a semi-victory lap of sorts. Plus...
Silly Rabbit in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I am back in the office today. Have to be. 9 hearings and 4 trials; so… have to be. I’m still feeling… wonky. My legs aren’t in as much excruciating pain but my back is still very fucked up. ...
Pain in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
Today, I have stayed in bed for most of the day due to the overwhelming pain in my legs, back, shoulders, and neck. That sucks. And on days like this… I feel particularly bad for Nala. Because I...
Last One For the Day in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I decided after everything today, I was going to be kind to myself. Just… turn off the outside world… play with my dog, do laundry. The other stuff on my to do list can be taken care of tomorro...
Classic Chris in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
The same day I write an entry about how tired I am? I give Nala an hour walk. Play with her for 20 minutes. Cook 7 different dinners. (Meal Prep, don’t ya know) Play with Nala for another 20 min...
Additional in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I just put this on Twitter: The Law can be very Drought/Flood. Just strange when it is in the same week. Slow, unbusy start. Hectic, chaotic finish! And it is true. My next three days on my W...
Break in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
I know everybody is feeling this way these days. But I need a break. Not just a break from work. A break from everything. A Life Vacation. 1 week where I don’t have to clean or take care of the...
Repeated Reality in Book Seven: Reconstruction 2020
You know, I truly hate to say it. The divorce was necessary and unavoidable and… in truth? Nobody’s fault… which, more accurately, is to say both of our fault in that my ex should have been mor...
First, there are elements that must be accepted as FACT and not up for debate. (1) Any form of Solitary Confinement has the potential to be psychologically damaging. (2) Many violent offenders al...