Park Row Fallout ⋅ 40 ⋅

Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life

Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.

Haruki Murakami

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December 20, 2016

Survey in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Real Entry is HERE: but TLDR.... I’m becoming as formulaic and tedious as a prime time sitcom. Act 1: Here’s what bothered me today. I’m pissed or sad or hollow or depressed. Act 2: Lament! I mus...


This goddamned Board of Supervisors. I want to unleash a rabid wolverine into their mix, save them from it, then push them into a pit of venomous snakes. Today started out as a nothing day of or...


(1) Today, I have spent most of the day trying to do work. Not like… work work… but like… organize my desk so I can write a really long professional looking Summary of Current Cases for the new ...


Precursor: For reasons that will be mentioned below, I arrived to work considerably later than usual. It was… actually good for me. Feeling a sense of urgency, even if fabricated, is good for m...


December 18, 2016

On Hoth in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

It is certainly cold! But it looks like it might not be super bad. When I woke up this morning, my weather app said -22 F and it has already warmed up to be -18. So… there’s that. Of course, ...


The party on Thursday was okay. Glad Wife couldn’t go as it would not have been fun for her. The Lawyer Guests were… me (age 32), Ren (age 35), Ran (age 50), Magistrate (age 65), Boss (age 68),...


December 15, 2016

Recap in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Wow… the meeting was.... rough. Took an hour. The printing and Secretarial Work? THAT took 3 hours. Total of 4 hours. Half my day right there. So tired. So hungy. Must force myself to tak...


December 15, 2016

Berlusconi in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

No idea why he popped into my head today… other than perhaps as a Media Figure with a Scandalous Political Career. Maybe my mind is trying to make parallels. I could simply NOT get out of bed ...


Started writing this from court which is where I am catching up on some Prosebox.net reading. My County is dead. How dead is it? Despite only having magistrate court once a week (for comparison,...


This is not a good sign. I sit here at the end of my work day. I don’t want to go home. I don’t want to stay at work. As those are the only two options; that feels like a bad sign. What I want...


Woke up this morning; cracked my neck in three places, tried to stretch my right leg which is tight and sore due to cold. Then realized that I would rather be shot in the stomach than get out of...


Today, I woke up and shoveled the sidewalk. Then got into a blue blazer and khakis and went to work. Desk is a mess. Court was… quick. Didn’t know what I was doing but faked it well. It turn...


December 11, 2016

Bollocks. in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Spent time with my friend. It isn’t… active time… but he gets lonely so it is good to spend time if available. We watched Then I set out back for Tiny Town. A 3 hour drive through snow, wi...


Visiting a friend this weekend. Upon entering a bigger city, a powerful rage hit me. I’m not too demanding in my hopes and requests. 1: Live in a city of 20k or more, preferably close to friend...


Earlier, I was doing “T minus” for when I’d find out about the job. But now that I know it is a no on that job… today is just another day. Woke up at -14 centigrade today. Step outside and… ...


December 08, 2016

Job in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Didn’the get it. Confirmed via phone call. Not a surprise but thoroughly disappointing. I am still going to do Good Boy December… just to show my Creator that fucking with me won’the destroy me...


December 08, 2016

T-5 in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Still no word about the interview. But truthfully, that really isn’t reason to panic. Hell, my county took three months after interviews to get back to people… and all they said was “We want to...


December 07, 2016

T-4 in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Yesterday, I truly felt like I had put in enough work to be worthy of a paycheck. That happens very rarely around here. Usually, I earn my paycheck by simply tolerating the ridiculous way thing...


December 06, 2016

T-3 in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

It is only 9:06 a.m. CST and I am already forcing “calming breaths” and whispering “Don’t complain, push forward” over and over to myself. It is… difficult in such a “lovely” place (sarcasm). ...


December 05, 2016

T - 2 in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

So, I may be setting myself up for a brutal fall but at least this opportunity gives all of you a far different look into who I am (perhaps). I don’t necessarily wear my heart on my sleeve; but ...


December 04, 2016

Behavior in BookThree: Flight Log 2016

Call it superstitious but… as I have been praying like Luther in Wartburg Castle the last few days… my superstitious and bargaining nature have been off the chart. The full list of things I’d gi...


Interview was definitely for a dream job. I would be part of a team, I would be home, I would be able to learn, and I would be able to focus on ONE department (juvenile) instead of being required...


Today, I drive to an interview that matters more to me than my next breath. An interview that holds for me the promise of returning home. An interview that, above all, I am desperate to ace. I...


Okay… this is judgmental as hell of me. I should feel bad. But I don’t. Because… PEOPLE IN THIS COUNTY DON’T KNOW WHO ELPHABA IS! Seriously… I just heard a room full of “Native Professionals” ...


I am staring at my desk; which I thoroughly WANT to clean and am READY to clean… but my boss called with… well, something that makes me want to not clean and instead use the paperwork littering m...