Park Row Fallout ⋅ 40 ⋅
Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life
Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.
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I have a feeling that the best way forward with this today will be to simply keep it open all day and add to it as time goes on. I woke up on time today, felt too much pain, said “fuck it” and w...
Additions to Previous in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
This would have been a simple edit inclusion on a recent entry but I opted for a different path. This evening ended with the perfect reasons to (1) get out and (2) expect surprise and difficulty ...
I'm alright, I'll be okay in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
I did NOT want to get out of bed today. Exhausted. Pained. Just… not at all interested in going to work. Dragged myself out of bed. Discovered I was not the first person in the office today ...
So, there is a holy shit for political and a holy shit for professional here. (1) Holy Shit for Political. I know that Sean Hannity isn’t news. Other people don’t… and that makes me sad. But h...
Get. Out. in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
So… my head is a weird place right now. It is usually a weird place but… even more so right now. Like… I’m feeling anxiety… just from the idea of what I’m about to do. Because “self love” and “...
A Quick Paint Job in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
The city this morning is covered in white. The first time since 2015 that more than 3 to 5 inches of snow accumulated. Which of course makes it difficult to really do much of anything unless yo...
Is This Creative Writing? in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
I don’t know if this is an entry or creative writing. I don’t much care either way, actually. It just.... complicates where I put this. The snow continues. MASSIVE (unbelievably massive) cra...
Head Banging in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
I need these. I need these little reminders of why I am moving on. A few today. It is snowing BUCKETS outside. In some places in Iowa, this will be the most snowfall they’ve received for 3 yea...
Official Statement in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
For those who have been curious and/or waiting with breaths held: Upon the advice of my father, I have chosen to deliver my resignation letter on Friday of this week. After discussing it, we agr...
Great Additions in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
I know I don’t need more reasons to leave.... and I know this is just a standard part of working with International Clients.... but this is yet another reason why I’ve been saying **you need to h...
Proof Positive in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
This morning, I had a hearing at 8 a.m. That hearing went until 10:04. This morning I had a meeting at 10:00 a.m. That went until 11:30 a.m. So… first one in the office by a solid hour. When...
Is it good to be a gangster? in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
Another reason to be a prosecutor besides making a lot more money, driving a lot less, and not being required to celebrate when criminals aren’t held accountable? A prosecutor on a case I’m worki...
Things That Shouldn't Need To Be Said in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
(1) Bloody eye twitch. Still present. Of course it is. It will be, too. Until I get less stress and/or more sleep. (2) I… was going to write my resignation letter last night. But I didn’t. ...
Just a few more steps in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
When I resign from here? I will expect surprise… anger… but I am curious to see which will control. If they will say, “You suck anyway” or “We think this is a mistake.” We’ll see. TONIGHT I f...
Jìngluán in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
China: An old Chinese saying about twitching eyelids says that “the twitching of the left eyelid indicates the coming of good fortune; while the right one is a warning about the coming bad luck.”...
Pretty Much in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
I do not have my resignation letter finished to a degree that I feel it is ready to be turned in. I will be working towards this tonight. I woke up before my alarm this morning due to stomach pa...
Echoes of the Past in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
Clearly one of the things I’m dealing with in Therapy is my difficulty in making healthy decisions to protect myself and/or set up healthy boundaries. Abusive Ex-Girlfriend… people ask when I fir...
Too Late Or Just In Time? (Now an Edit) in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
So… yeah. I am entirely decided. I spoke with Wife about it, I will speak with Parents about it tonight… I’ll write my resignation letter this weekend and begin the process of withdrawing from c...
Updates and Decisions in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
Yesterday was an excellent example of how this firm works. My morning was spent entirely doing work for White Boss. He had an 8am hearing he didn’t want to attend, so I did it. That hearing had...
Yeeeeaaah in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
Yeah, call me any name you want to but I can’t stand immigration work. THE ONLY EXCEPTION is when I can help someone in an Asylum case. But everything else? Just pisses me off. Even when I ca...
How Interesting in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
So this morning I had another 30 minute long “conversation” from Chinese Boss on how I suck at immigration, I’m not a good employee, and a veiled threat that I could be fired at a whim. Conside...
Can We Get This Written? in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
I wasted my weekend. I can’t remember the last time I wrote in here so that should also tell you where I am mentally. BUT Thursday of last week was a very difficult, very draining day. Crippling...
Ooooooooooouch in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
Another reason to want to be at a more reasonable place? Ouch. So… Private Attorneys that I know often scoff and laugh at my firm because Chinese Boss says she will help any Chinese citizen that ...
Some Days, right? in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
Today was going to be a stupid day no matter what. I had to be awake and out the door before 6:30 a.m. because I had to drive 130 miles (Waukee to IA City) for a client’s hearing. The kid is a H...
Self-Care, Owl-Bear in Book Five: Working Through the Maze 2018
One of the biggest things in my life that I’ve always been absolute shit about is self-care. This has been true from the time when I was a teenager. So, not at all surprisingly, Therapy is dis...
