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Midwest Attorney trying to navigate the waters of life
Each person feels pain in his own way, each has his own scars.
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Hypocrisy but Open in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Now, I’ll admit… I view pornography. If I did not… I think I would be a much different person. I can’t say exactly what kind of person. I might still be with my wife but be angrier, meaner, mo...
Winds Through Corn Rows in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I was really depressed on Monday. I was really depressed on Wednesday. I wasn’t as depressed on Tuesday because I didn’t have TIME to be depressed as I had 8 hearings. But last night, I went to i...
My Dream Last Night in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
No idea what this means but… I was sitting at a desk in a Des Moines Office Building. I was wearing a blue blanket over my business suit absolutely fucked up with the flu. I was shivering, fre...
10 Second Break in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I’m in between things. I’m like a real attorney here, lol. Doing motions and hearings and sentencings and pleadings and suppressions. LOTS to do. And the ever present October looming in the i...
Pause Button in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
So today I have to cover my cases and my bosses cases while preparing for a Bench Trial on Wednesday and a Jury Trial next week. So… I’ll be super preoccupied today.
Few Statements in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Last night I embraced my inner self and stated quite clearly to wife, “I am a catch!” And… I am. I am an employed, not unattractive, intelligent 35 year old with no criminal record who still bel...
Some Good in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Here’s some good… which I should share. Wife knew I was having a really rough day (heart and mind). So she took the dog for a walk so that I would not have to do that when I got home. And she ...
Thing in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I know that a palliative is unhelpful right now… but I’ll tell you I am missing Raven. Catfish or no, the idea that a beautiful 20-something Goth could find me attractive… I valued that. The fac...
Twitter Sized in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
This is me furious. I e-mailed the local therapist stating “Hey, I e-mailed you last Monday and haven’t had a response yet. Please reply. I would really like to get something scheduled before ...
Bah in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I’m not feeling well. The diet recipe I made last night? Not much food, WAY too much salt. I had it out with the wife. Really. Discussing how it is so damned hurtful for her to shut herself of...
Twitter Sized: Weightloss in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
So… it IS likely that something is fucked up with my scale. This morning, I woke up and weighed myself. 216.8. K. Oh, I have to pee. Peed, thought it would be funny to see if that would bring ...
Let's Play in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Let’s Play Pretend, and let’s say I’m drunk. Honestly, the truth is… I’m not. Really. But In Vino Veritas is typically forgiven more than blunt honesty that may be contradictory or controversi...
R.A.D.: Wife in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Date Night It was… interesting? I got home, Wife and I took Nala for a walk. When we got home, I said I wanted to take a shower. Before I continue, do you remember how I approached the subject...
Seeking in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Seeking a break from my “Child Molestation” reading. Hab a survey stolen from a fellow PB-er after some Meme-splosion. Oh… before the funny and the yay… allow me a simple statement of FUCK. FU...
Once upon a daytime dreary in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
This morning has been a black night, filled with rain and thunder. We’ll see if the sun comes out at all but if it does, it is supposed to be short lived. Rain and darkness in the forecast for ...
Well, that was... in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Sometimes I feel like just jumping into these entries with my current day, forgetting that those who read may wish to know what has occurred outside of the office. Last night after work, I drove ...
Washimine in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Akusai wa hyaku-nen no fusaku Kishi kaisei Saru mo ki kara ochiru Tade kuu mushi mo sukizuki I no naka no kawazu taikai wo shirazu Keizoku wa chikara nari Shiranu ga hotoke Anzuru yori umu ga yas...
Some Humor in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
My latest entry is certainly not likely to be fun or uplifting. At least, those are the thoughts that have been going through my head a lot the last few days and I certainly don’t feel fun or up...
The Conflicts of Caring in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
Marriage Counseling this weekend was… important. I mean… not a lot to it that wasn’t expected. I discuss Anxious Attachment, bitterness, resentment, and sexual frustration. I mention how I’ve ...
Series of Statements in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I received a phone call this morning that the power was out at my office so I didn’t need to come in to work today. That being said, I knew this could happen before hand so I brought my Work Acce...
Semi-Twitter Sized in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
So… I get grocery store anxiety. Hear me out… if I’m going to the Grocery Store to pick up “staples” that’s fine. Some milk, cereal, bananas, yogurt, a little meat, whatever. But when I go aft...
Expense in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
As I look through dating sites, it seems that a lot of them only allow communication between paid members. This is unfortunate for many reasons but perhaps the most unfortunate: that means (it s...
Random Humor in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
I’ve created my schedule for the remainder of the week. THE BIG QUESTION is if I’ll be receiving my package on Friday or not. You see, this is the nightmare and horror of Pre-Ordering a Physica...
Computers are Suspiciously Slow Today in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
What am I doing while my computer is slowly taking hours to load my work? Poll Shows 5 Democrats Could Beat Trump What Does The GOP’s Narrow Win In North Carolina Really Mean? Looking Back A...
The Random One in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019
All right folks, this is the random one. This is the “I’ve soaked in the sorrow of my community, my state, and my country for too long today. Time to do something, anything else.” Because I’ll...