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i'll bury them in florida in 2024
OKAY I DIDN’T MEAN TO LEAVE FOR A YEAR AND HALF I’M SORRY i don’t know what’s wrong with me. i can barely bring myself to write. i think about it every few days, and even make plans to sit down a...
i wrote a fairly long entry just moments ago but deleted it because it was mostly gibberish. i know i have the inspiration to write again, but tonight - this lonely, rainy monday - is the wrong n...
lately i’ve been trying to be less of a bleeding, open heart. less of a book that’s been left wide open, the pages torn. i miss the girl i used to be - the one with ambition and a lot of dreams a...
i haven’t written since march and i feel really bad about that. i think about coming here and writing just about every other day, but it makes me anxious. a lot has happened and yet everything is...
she doesn't get it in 2017
the older man from florida (from my last entry) came in again this morning, and we talked for almost 45 minutes when i should’ve been cutting vegetables and prepping meat. i’m not going to lie an...
the antagonist in 2017
i’m nice to all of my regular customers - okay, almost all of them - because they are REGULAR and can deal with my occasional attitude. and this includes the 40 or maybe 50-something man with the...
sometimes i don’t know who i am. i think i’m just a girl with too much nostalgia, an indecisive personality, and a drinking/smoking problem. a girl who is too dependent on her boyfriend, who does...
happy weird and lost in 2017
9:44 pm on a saturday night and my face is slightly numb and tingly from a bottle of wine. my boyfriend is at work and i’m hoping that he comes to my house afterward so i can try to stick my tong...
my mind and my hands have been burning the past few days for me to get these words out. it has been a long while since i’ve written, and even longer since i feel like i’ve written something meani...
hi all. reading my last entry i realize it sounds very depressing. unfortunately that’s just how i’ve been feeling on and off…for pretty much this whole fall semester. it’s not fun. the past few ...
thanksgiving break ends in approximately 6 hours and i have nothing to show for it. i have 5 papers, a quiz, a presentation, and a few smaller assignments to do in the next two weeks before exams...
hi, i feel like i’m absolutely drowning. i fucking hate school. i don’t show up to half of my classes because i would rather be doing something else, i hate the professors, the homework is onlin...
happy fall, everyone. i know i’m a little late. it’s been way too warm lately here where i live but it’s about 50 degrees out now and i love it. i can’t wait until it’s cold all of the time. thi...
currently i’m sitting in the back of my cognitive neuroscience class, writing this entry instead of taking notes about the cerebral cortex. this semester is extra difficult for me. i’ve skipped 5...
hello! i know i’ve been mysteriously absent on this website for the last month (or two). i’ve thought about writing a few times but haven’t even come close to doing it and i don’t know why. but h...
i don’t really know what’s going on in my brain these days but i know i’m trying to stay afloat. after the absolute mess that i was on monday evening, i actually felt good all week. i saw cole al...
ugh. another rough day. i was supposed to see cole after he got off work today because it’s our two month anniversary! but of course…he had to work an hour late, and then he had to check his onli...
i’ve had the past two days off from work and it’s felt pretty nice. i got to see my sister and nephew on sunday and i had a great time. mason is so adorable. he just turned two in february and he...
another long week of work and anxiety has left me exhausted. i once again did not have plans friday night and i was supposed to spend tonight with cole after we both got off work, but he ditched ...
thank you to all the people who read my last entry and commented/gave advice! it means a lot to me. i’m in a better state of mind today but saturday night was also rough. i spent time with cole ...
it’s officially summer! okay - it’s been summer for me for about 3 weeks now; i just keep forgetting to write here. and i feel like i have a lot to talk about. the past few weeks have been a lit...
one day after my last entry (4/6) cole officially asked me out and we kinda broke facebook by posting it on there. okay we didn’t actually break anything - but a lot of people freaked out. so on...
if you read my last entry you might remember that i was worrying over how cole told me he liked me while he was drunk. the entire week after that entry, nothing interesting happened. i was ready ...
well my spring break is officially over and it’s back to reality already. i work the next two days and then it’s back to school/internship. the good news: i have a month and a half left of the se...
it feels like forever since i’ve written. i’ve still been on this website at least once every few days but i always feel too exhausted to write. the semester is already halfway over! i feel like ...
