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I don’t know if that’s the right word. I have so many friends, and I am incredibly grateful for each one. I’m lonely for myself I suppose. I don’t even recognize myself anymore. I want someo...
My Love Life in All of Me
Or why I am single. I went to a bar a few weeks ago and met a guy…totally out of character for me but whatever. I was really into him and we spent a lot of time together over the past few weeks...
I will be 32 in five days, which isn’t a momentous occasion. It’s not a special year like 40 will be. I am celebrating regardless. Any excuse to get some friends together and stir up some trouble...
I haven't updated because...excuses in All of Me
I’m not going to make excuses. We all do our best with what we can, right? I don’t know what that means anymore. I’m just doing. I’m just living and trying to be happy. I feel content, and that’...
Boy break ! in All of Me
I’m watching George Lopez because I love older tv shows . George W. Was president when the show took place ! Then , friends is on ! Love it ! Anyway , I have to take a dating break . I mean , I ...
The Illusion of Control in All of Me
I sometimes believe I am in control, but I remember I’m not. My moods are all over. I wonder if maybe I am not supposed to be in control. I have been doing well. I have been eating well. I have...
Super excited! in All of Me
So, I am super excited about things right now( that’s where my title came from)! I am taking a Lyra class tomorrow night at the studio. I have never done it before. It looks really hard, but fu...
Run Me Like a River in All of Me
I love Bishop Briggs. Can I post videos hereZ? [enter link description here] () Did that work? I don’t know. The vocals, the lyrical genius, the…boom…shut your mouth and run me like a river… lo...
Let it Go, Let it Go... in All of Me
Why is it that I can’t talk about things without getting upset? I am in such a foul mood because two of my coworkers were talking about the best sex they’ve ever had and sex in public places. My ...
I just forgot to document that I did two inversions unassisted and two leaning pole sits last Friday! I felt so proud. I missed class this weekend because of work…I’m worried I have lost my skil...
All's Fair in Love and War... in All of Me
First, pole update : Nobody’s gonna pay to watch me do this, BUT I am definitely getting better....worked on pole sits, inversions, and learned some little spinny tricks. SO MUCH FUN ! Serious q...
The Fatigue you Feel in Your Bones... in All of Me
It has settled in. I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo old and exhausted right now. TODAY IS MY FRIDAY! I am going home Saturday to see my Dad for Father’s Day. I need to find a present f...
Afire Love in All of Me
I love, love, love ” Afire Love” By Ed Sheeran. I could listen to it seven billion times. It makes me cry sometimes. Listen to it. Ed wrote it for his grandparents. His grandfather died of Alzhei...
Title or Whatever in All of Me
I’m lazy. I don’t feel like making a title. I don’t even really feel like writing, but it has been a long time. I need to write. I am in a mood. That’s really the only way to describe this. I do...
Ok, so, things I am proud of myself for : 1) I texted Mr. Car Salesman that I am not interested because he is ignoring me( maybe I am not proud of this. He is clearly not interested, also, but ...
Rough Week in All of Me
Well, tonight is my last night of work for the week. I did not do well this week. My anxiety was high as a kite. I worked several hours over and ended up not sleeping well, which resulted in me m...
What goes up...must come down... in All of Me
Such a bitch. I’m not lonely- not actually. I am accustomed to being alone. I had a gloriously frustrating period of no sex for nine months. I had decided I wasn’t going to have sex until I foun...
I think I really needed a rest day today, because I was supposed to go to barre , but I could not make myself get ready in time. I felt guilty, but took pup to the dog park. We made new friends i...
I am a crazy person, by no stretch of the imagination. People say to me several times daily: “you’re crazy.” They laugh. I am actually crazy, but I’m funny too. I’m learning to embrace my Bipola...
What a week in All of Me
My dog has a mast cell tumor…cancerous.... My cat is nowhere to be found .... Busted my nose when I fell up the stairs.... That’s all for now .
I set fire to the rain ... in All of Me
I wake up every two hours ,gasping for air ,Choking on air -not really sure How to describe it . My dad had a stroke in June .it was devastating.he went to rehab and he is doing better now ,but m...
Tonight concludes day 7 of my douchebag cleanse .Tonight I feel like I could just cuddle up with someone.Dont worry - no one is interested in that . I am so grateful for my job.I feel passionatel...
douchebag cleanse in All of Me
If you knew me from long ago ,you know that I have a boy who comes back like a cockroach,one I allow back . If you know me now ,you know me as someone who is strong and someone who should never ...
So much is going on-not much is happening… I spend most days trying to maintain.I went through a pretty dark depressive episode ,isolated myself and stopped working out,although i knew that was c...
An update of sorts... in All of Me
I swear I will try to write more often. Where do I begin ?For whatever reason.i have trouble writing on my phone.It doesn’t feel The same as a computer,but I don’t have my computer right now.I le...
