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So I don't know if I have mentioned the movie in my writing before, but A Knight's Tale starring Heath Ledger is one of my favorites. It has heroics, a fun story, jousting, an ability to be funn...

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So the happiness high has worn off and I am feeling more like I normally do. Not really a good thing, I know. But I suppose in the current mood, it reminded me that I have alot more to be afrai...

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This morning, I was originally only going to write about how much I missed you and missed holding you, but I went and did it again. I did one of those things that has always driven you nuts when...

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You know, I normally don't write twice in one night (though I am sure most people did not read the other entry). However, I realize there is a certain irony in my situation. See, I am not a gre...

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So I am sitting here in our room while you are out in the dining room. There was a time we would have spent a night like tonight together watching some show or another. I miss those days. Almo...

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Obviously, I did not get my wish. But today is just as pointless as yesterday. What does a person do when they have so completely lost the one good thing in their life? On the less important ...

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Honestly, on nights like tonight, I just wish my time would catch up with me. I want to be dead. I don't dread it. I don't fear it. I fear going to sleep and waking up again. I fear tomorrow...

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Sorry if the title is overly dramatic for some of you. If you check in on me from time, you probably understand the dramatic part of it. If not, read some of the past posts to catch up.....All ...

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I probably should write a good deal more than I am about to, but I just wanted to get something off my chest. I love my wife. I will love her forever. But the person that is married to me has ...

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Just thought of another one I can't watch again. It's a movie called "Keith". Its about a kid who is a genius but a troublemaker who woos the school's resident good girl due to being put togeth...

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Some nights are easier than others to deal with everything going on. This is not one of them. I can't remember the last time I updated, so here is a brief update if you have been following. I ...

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I was talking to a coworker earlier tonight, not exactly telling him everything that has been going on but at least explaining how my marriage is practically over and how, if I seem in a morose m...

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I spent a vast majority of the day drinking today. Yeah, maybe not the best idea, but I couldn't help it. I am terrible at coping with my problems, especially ones I have no control over and ca...

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Sorry all, had something tonight and just needed to write it down. I really wonder what wisdom is nowadays. Is it really being wise or is it just realizing that even things that don't make sens...

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So I guess that sounds depressing, but I am really trying hard not to be. The wife and I have had some long conversations over the last couple of days and the gist of it is that, really, we are ...

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I am sitting in my room right now watching a movie on tv and realizing that there are just some things I should not watch. If you have read my previous entries, you will understand the reasoning...

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Well, that last session went really well. Note the sarcasm. Anyhow, I guess I should explain. Honestly, my last entry wasn't fair to my wife. Before I continue, I'm sure someone will say, "Di...

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I guess I should start out writing about when the problems truly began for me. The problem is, I can't tell you an exact date other than about 3 or 4 years ago. I do know when it started though...

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