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I had a thought occur to me when I was trying to think who I could talk to in my circle about how I really geel these days and, it occurred to me, there isn’t a one of them that could truly under...

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Ever regret that someone met you? Not that you met them, but that they had to meet you and you feel like they’d have been better off if they hadn’t. Few folks I feel that about and while I am f...

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Kinda wish I had never fallen in love or had sex. It’s easier to yearn for things you never had than to miss those that you’ll never have again. In Men in Black, when Will Smith said, “Well, yo...

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What do you do when you realize a very fundamental part of you is broken and probably can’t be fixed? It’s not that I don’t feel worthy of love, but that I can’t believe someone would love me th...

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Anyone else have that moment where you realize that some fundamental aspect that makes you you also makes it so you will never find love (again)? How did you deal with it? It’s sometimes an odd...

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One of my favorite film lines of all time comes from the first Men In Black. It’s when J finds K watching the girl from afar, the one he was meant to go on a date the fateful night he came upon ...

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Well, it has been some time since the last entry. I guess the most important point to point out is that I am still here. For the most part, things are better! So let’s see…I didn’t get that jo...

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I’ve been meaning to get back to writing, autobiographical or otherwise. Yeah, believe it or not, I am an aspiring, but shit writer. Not that I think my writing is shit, necessarily, but that I...

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I love that line. For those not in the know, that is a line from Bad Boys 2. The line is spoken by the villain of the movie, Johnny Tapia, in response to finding that there is a rat infestation...

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So the advantage of writing in this journal is that I can talk about things I would never feel comfortable talking about with the people in my life. Not that I expect a lack of judgment, but the...

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How is it that, in the span of 25 years, so much and so little can change at the same time? From spending my time in AOL chat rooms in the advent of home internet because the girls at school nev...

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I’m in the middle of watching Black Mirror again and I think the surest sign that I’m not in the middle of a dystopian nightmare is that the folks in this show have gotten laid more in the whole ...

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The Chinese philosopher Lao Tzu is credited with having said, “The journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step.” It’s one of the most well known proverbs in history and simply makes a ...

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To paraphrase, I never felt comfortable in the real world. I’ve never really understood how to connect with people the way I do online. The world is a scary, ugly place. But the real world is ...

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So I don’t get on here much anymore. I could come up with excuses like there is nothing to write about or my laptop doesn’t work so I pretty much only have my phone, but those are just surface i...

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The biggest lesson I learned and learn from my ex is that, no matter what good you do, in today’s world, it is your mistakes that will be remembered. In my case, my mistakes as an adult have nul...

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I wish I was dumb enough to be happy. To believe that the world has something and someone for me. To believe that not everything I have done in my adult life has been a mistake. To believe tha...

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You ever feel like a convinience? Not something that people need or want around but it is convenient to have around. I feel like that alot. I don’t have the personality of someone people want ...

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It is a very odd thing when you realized you asked permission to get laid in your own dream. Not sure exactly how much good or bad that says about me as a person.

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I swear I feel like a curse on everyone and everything around me. Every time things start to go a little right, they go a lot wrong. Been at my ex’s house for the last month and a half taking c...

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Ever just wish you could learn how not to fall in love with people? Attraction I can deal with. I wish I could learn to avoid falling for a person though. Mostly because I know I will never sa...

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That I consider myself probably the most skilled person I know at knowing exactly who I am and am completely honest about myself with myself and yet I never am able to see myself as more that a s...

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I know I bitch alot when I am here. I don’t mean to. When I was a teen, when depression began to truly take hold, I still had an overwhelming sense of purpose, as if there was something in my l...

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That moment you see with utter finality that when the chips are down, you will ultimately always come up short.

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The Road So Far… Sora, Donald, and Goofy have won victories and faced drawbacks in their war against the Heartless and Organization XIII. The last few hours have been no different. The trio fac...

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