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"Localized" goals-- 184 days counting down in My life
1:15 AM. I could hear the neighbor snore. I can’t work on anything (not because of the snoring, just in general). Okay, until 2 AM, my goal is 43 minutes of working. Met my goal, yay! This has b...
"Localized" goals-- 183 days counting down in My life
1:24 AM. Planning on another all-nighter. (partially). My mom said she would kill me if I did all-nighters but admitted she did it when she was in school too. Mom is super hypocritical like that....
"Localized" goals part 5 in My life
I don’t get how Prosebox is capable of so much and it’s free? Unlimited storage (I see people with entries from YEARS AGO), comments function, anonymity, automatic saving, user-friendly layout, f...
"Localized" goals part 4 in My life
His love for me is just inspiring. I just need to not abuse it or mess it up. Because I’m insecure. If you have a good thing, insecurity is going to ruin it. If you have a bad thing, insecurity i...
"Localized" goals part 3 in My life
Ah, my life. I’m not getting as much done as I want. I think instead of reading softcore porn like I usually do to distract and numb myself (quick, easy dopamine rush– extremely harmful and addic...
"Localized" goals part 2 in My life
At the library while my husband is hanging out with his mom at the apartment. I have to work hard, for the sake of my sister. Only I can support her education now. I’m only 29-going-30 and yet I ...
"Localized" goals in My life
Maybe I should make localized goals. Like, I shouldn’t plan for the day or the week. I should plan for the study session. What’s my goal? 8:41 AM CT. I want to study until 9 AM then have my brun...
Shame on me in My life
Failed my goals already! Already let rotten Internet searches ruin my productivity. I worked, like 4/25 hours so far.
Self-improvement with Prosebox in My life
I’m so tired of being a failure. Maybe I should make my goals public. I should let everyone on Prosebox know when I’ve fallen behind on my goals. I just need to get through this. My #1 goal is, n...
She is responsible for her own undoing in My life
I get it: she isn’t dealt the best hands right now. I’m so grateful that I’m not the favorite child of my parents. When your parents do more harm than help, it’s better to not be the favorite chi...
“Cast not pearls before swine.” in My life
Matthew 7:6 “Do not give dogs what is holy; do not throw your pearls before swine. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces.” I guess sometimes you ...
Nobody believes in me in My life
Not my husband. He loves me though. I guess if I have to point out the person who loves me the most in this world that would be him. I also believe in God but I’m referring to mortal men. Not my ...
Article on the Internet: 10 Signs You’ve Chosen The Wrong Degree To Study in My life
https://www.society19.com/signs-youve-chosen-the-wrong-degree-to-study/ 1. You’re failing your exams (fortunately I haven’t sank that low) You’re missing lectures (still no; I care too much; fo...
I'm tired of making him unhappy because of my unhappiness in My life
I should just say everything here. I hate my life and I should just vent here. I hate it. I know it’s ungrateful to God. It is, and I’m sorry. I’m still doing things. I’m still going, am I not? ...
Finding the will to go on in My life
Why am I so unhappy, honestly? What is going on? And no I’m not seeing another therapist. All they do is laughing and me and saying my problems are stupid. Seriously. HA HA. THAT’S what you’re cr...
I learned about the concept of "quiet quitting" in My life
It’s quitting by not actually leaving but by doing the bare minimum to pass by. I would still hate getting bad grades, though, so I can’t give up completely. But so many days a week I feel like I...
Free Coding Courses: The Odin Project and App Academy in My life
https://www.theodinproject.com/ https://www.appacademy.io/course/app-academy-open I got this from a reddit post. I’m not sure about the quality of any of this but just saving it here. The general...
I've given up on getting good grades in law school in My life
I mean, I know that in science classes they curve grades too, but they do it so that people would get BETTER GRADES, because otherwise everyone would have done badly. In law school, they curve gr...
Closing comments on Prosebox again in My life
I have received countless of kind comments telling me that I’m doing fine and I shouldn’t be so stressed out and upset with where I am in life. But I also seem to be afraid of writing more about ...
Lost, despairing, sad. I wonder if in a year, I will look back at this moment thinking that I got it good or that I got it bad. I’m also left here cleaning up my parents’ messes. And they refuse...
Anxiety, procrastination, obssession with all the wrong things in My life
Basically describes the person I am. The things I do. I will never be his equal– and that… you know, that’s fine. He’s done wayyyyy better than maybe 99.9% of the people his age, I think. My gues...
Dreading the start of the school year in My life
I simply hate it. Last year, I was actually excited. I thought I had it all figured out and that I was going to do well. First semester was okay. Second semester was so NOT okay. I dread it. I ha...
Therapy is expensive? Divorce is 100x more so in My life
I need to remind myself that. New therapist is ok. I’m going to keep seeing her. She seems OK. At least I would have some additional space to process things rather than putting everything on Dear...
Annoyances in My life
I tried to meet with two therapists who worked for my school. Both times they were like 10 minutes late– to a 30 minute- call. No they did not make up for lost time. It’s kinda confirming my dist...
I need to appreciate my life and not be so downhearted in My life
Seriously so. It’s right here on Prosebox. https://www.prosebox.net/entry/1471917/i-did-it-again/ https://www.prosebox.net/entry/1471988/head-injury/ Many people are fighting a much much bigger b...