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I’m still alive! in Musings
I can’t believe it’s been so long since I’ve updated. So much has happened. The main thing is I quit my job. It led to a whole realization that caregiving is not for me anymore. It isn’t good fo...
Family wounds. in Musings
Nathan is very close to his brother and cousins. In fact he is in the other room playing a game virtually with them right now. I reacted poorly to his announcement that he was hanging out with th...
Everything is Changing in Musings
We officially signed a lease on a rent home and will be moving in next month. Finding it was a bitch but we finally secured one we really like. The house is in a cute little neighborhood. It is m...
I’m vaccinated! in Musings
Just got my second vaccination yesterday morning. I conked out at 8:15 pm and woke up at 9:30 this morning. I did wake up once in there covered in sweat so I know I had a fever at one point. But ...
I finished my 30 days off social media challenge. Again, I’m not sure it was life changing necessarily but I now have very little desire to get on social media at all. I think I will tune in for ...
I think Covid has left a lot of us feeling lonely. Add that on to the fact that I left the church 4 months before it hit so I had no time to reconstruct any sort of community in person. I found i...
I quit social media in Musings
If you don’t know, I have an Instagram account called iquitchristianity where I talk about my process of deconverting from Christianity. A couple weeks ago I got a rude, creepy message which set ...
The Capitol in Musings
I wasn’t going to watch the coverage of the electoral count because Im just so worn out by it all but I have been trying to watch things directly as much as I can instead of trying to hear snippe...
Can we have a conversation liberal to conservative? in Musings
I’m so conflicted on where I stand with coming together as a nation. I didn’t become interested and aware of politics until the last four years. It wasn’t the media that made me dislike Trump. It...
Thank all of the gods and goddesses the election is over and Biden won. I still don’t understand how this many people voted for Trump. How my own family voted for Trump. Trumpism is something th...
Election Woes in Musings
I should be asleep right now but I have been scrolling through political Instagram and Twitter comments because for some reason I thought that was a good idea. I have never felt the type of divi...
Long time no type in Musings
SCHOOL So we made the decision to send the girls to in person school. It was a hard choice, but Covid cases were pretty low at the time we made the choice. Leah NEEDS interaction. She was getting...
An Update from Quarantine in Musings
So much to update on. Holy cow. COVID-19 Obligatory update on how we are doing. Nathan had some question about whether his job would be suspended or not. Turns out it isn’t whew. He still has to...
Tear it down. Build it up. in Musings
Out of nowhere my youngest, Alex, said “God makes houses.” I told her “No baby, people makes houses” In her inquisitive little 3 year old way she asked “How could they build the houses so big?”...
The scariest thing I’ve ever done in Musings
It might sound silly to some but today I did one of the scariest things I have ever done. I sat down face to face with my parents and talked to them about my beliefs (or lack there of). My relati...
Breaking my mom’s heart in Musings
I told my mom. In an email because I express myself better this way. I told her I’m not a Christian. I told her I don’t believe in the God of the Bible. I told her a snippet of what I think is wr...
An Abusive Relationship in Musings
After I wrote that last entry I was made aware my language around putting Christians in a box is pretty problematic. I consumed some more atheist (specifically made by ex Christians) content and ...
Telling other people what to do (Things I hate about Christianity pt1) in Musings
On my last entry I got a rude message from a Christian who told me everything I was saying was wrong. And told me what I should and shouldn’t be believing or saying. I replied kindly but firmly a...
The Holiday Season as an Ex Christian in Musings
For the most part my day to day is not changed by me dropping religion. I now get Sunday as a completely free day but other than that nothing much is different. But Christmas is another story. Wh...
Coming out as... an Atheist in Musings
Christianity is in my DNA. My dad comes from generations of good church going folks. His brother became a preacher. My mom is one of those rare non rebellious pastor’s kids. Her brother also beca...
Dear Leah, in Musings
You’re six years old today. I will never forget the brief moment the day you were born when they laid you on my chest before they had to rush you away from me. Your little eyes looked at me. Not ...
Alex’s birthday was Monday. Three years old. So many people say “it goes so fast!” But it honestly feels like ages ago that she was a baby. But I’ll never forget that first week after she was bor...
NBJ—Half way through in Musings
Well I’m halfway through my No Buy July. I really want to document this just to see what I learn if I want to repeat it. The hardest part has definitely been not thrifting. But I knew that. It’s...
No Buy July in Musings
I have heard of the idea of “no buy challenges” for a while. We decided to try it out just to save money and see what we learn from of it. I wanted to write about our parameters in case we decide...
Summer so far in Musings
First of all, whatever is happening with the weather and allergens does not get along with my body. I already went to the doctor once because my allergies turned sinus infection and a horrible co...
