
Philomath
Just a 21 year old trying to find myself in the world around me. Avid reader and occasional writer.
There is a rainstorm within me, from which will bloom the most beautiful flowers you've ever seen
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04/05/2025 in The Beginning
Glenn Miller’s “Moonlight Serenade” is one of the most beautiful pieces of music ever created. I once got really high on edibles and cried for 3 hours straight. That’s all.
04/03/2025 in The Beginning
Sometimes when I look at someone I get sad about the fact that they’re going to die someday. Is that just me? A girl came on the elevator today, just was a very sweet, pure person. She talks li...
3-25-2025 in The Beginning
Currently sitting looking across from the ocean and sunning myself. I’m lucky enough to live somewhere where I can be in 80 degree weather in March. There’s definitely downsides to where I live,...
2/24/25 - Up & Down Week in The Beginning
This week has just been a weird one filled with up and down emotions. For the past month, I have submitted job application after application. I easily have submitted over 30, usually averaging 2...
2/16/25 in The Beginning
Currently sitting here in the dark listening to Bob Dylan’s Jokerman: Jokerman dance to the nightingale tune Bird fly high by the light of the moon Oh, oh, oh, Jokerman Well, the Book of Levitic...
2/06/2025 in The Beginning
It has been a while since I’ve written on here. The truth is though, that nothing really exciting has been going on in my life, although I can’t say that’s a bad thing. Hopefully I’ll actually s...
October 31, 2024. in The Beginning
.Listened to Kerouac’s October in the Railroad Earth while high. Everything just feels slowed down and everything is at peace. I have a strange feeling of wanting to go out this Halloween, but t...
September 26 2024 in The Beginning
I have a few brief moments where I can go on here and type away with what I’ve been doing with myself over the last few months. I’m currently about two months into my first semester at universit...
6/04/24 in The Beginning
8:15 P:M Just awoke from a nap and stumbled outside to the patio while the sun was still out. It’s a beautiful night; warm and quiet, except for the occasional screech of a bird or when the choir...
May 20 2024 - Confidence? in The Beginning
Maybe what I’m about to say will sound cynical, arrogant, brash, bold, or just plain fucking stupid. After all, I am nothing but a 21 year old man who hasn’t had the time to figure out the world....
5/1/24 in The Beginning
I didn’t realize my last entry was all the way back in February. The days just seem to collide together into one continuous cycle and I lose track easily of the days. Especially when it comes to ...
2/26/24 - What can I do? in The Beginning
What a disappointment for this to be the first entry I’ve had in almost two months. And for what? To mention the same sort of things I’ve written about time and time again? That when I look back ...
1/2/2024 in The Beginning
Hope that this new year brings new personal growth and adventure. I hope that I am better as a human being then I was last year. I hope to leave all my fears and worries in the past behind, only ...
12/14/2023 in The Beginning
Traveling into the mountains in a few days’ time. Sorting out my stash of books to take with me for pleasure. I haven’t been able to read as much as I would like, due to my studies. So, I’ve been...
November 29, 2023 in The Beginning
Every time I decide to write an entry on here, I feel empty. I want to write on here more but I often feel that I have nothing to say. I feel unsatisfied with my life, which admittedly I always h...
11/8/2023 in The Beginning
Since I was a child, I always wanted to see the world. I never was satisfied with the idea of staying in one location for long periods of time, at least in my hometown. As a young boy, I often dr...
Medieval thought on the universe & structure in The Beginning
Just a quick summary of what I’ve been reading recently. In no way does this cover in detail everything. Instead, just several topics in a short summary for those who might be interested. Just a ...
November 6 in The Beginning
I haven’t been able to login in over a month on my phone. Very frustrating, but alas I am alive. I refuse to believe that it is already the 6th of the month. These last few months have gone by to...
September 25 in The Beginning
I went to the poetry meeting today. Kind of a disappointment but I guess that’s what happens when you set your expectations and then being grounded by reality. Small group (which I expected), the...
September 24 in The Beginning
I think the Fall weather is slowly creeping in. At least what constitutes as “Fall weather” down here in southern America. Of course, it can never replicate those beautiful autumn days in the Nor...
September 21 - Too Sensitive in The Beginning
I’ve always been a very sensitive person, I’ve always tried to impress people, I don’t like confrontation and I feel like a failure when I let someone down. This has been me my entire life. I hat...
II in The Beginning
I just learned that my friend’s grandmother passed away earlier in the day. I gave him my condolences and told him that if he ever needed to talk, I was here. I started to think back about my own...
September 2, 2023 in The Beginning
I come on here, partly because I feel as though it’s my obligation to check in and post. Yet, eveytime I do, I truly having nothing remarkable to say. The days and weeks pass by me in such a daze...
8/18/23 in The Beginning
I walked around campus for around an hour. First to escape the heat and then to escape the rain. I walked around aimlessly at the library trying to find something to read. I picked up a collectio...
07/24/2023 in The Beginning
It’s a rainy day here in the city. The rain always reminds of the Leonard Cohen song, “Famous Blue Raincoat”. It’s been so hot recently that we really needed the rain. If not for the environ...