~Octopussy~ ⋅ 41 ⋅
Just an American living Bangkok and writing about all the inappropriate things that I somehow get roped into joining... I've been writing in blogs since 1999, so I'm fairly inconsistent. Sometimes I write a lot, sometimes I have nothing to say for months at a time, but I'm never gone, so just be patient and something new will come around.
The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time
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BJ in Things That I'm Grateful For
Today I made a pointless post on Facebook (as if I ever post anything worthwhile) that said, "I miss my waterbed." My friend BJ responded by saying, "I miss your waterbed, too." That may seem li...
Rain Rein Reign in Things That I'm Grateful For
When everything comes down around you, you have no choice but to take control and assert dominion over the things that you believe have spun beyond your realm of influence. All of the messes tha...
The time has come for me to start trying to figure out what I'm going to do when I finish school in March. Ideally, I would like to go back to France, but I'm not sure that that's very practical ...
Now to write something a bit more straightforward. Where did I leave off? Well, I realized about a week ago that my behavior over the last several months exhibits signs of depression. Now, it ...
My hair is long. It has passed my shoulders. I’ve never felt like a man. I know that I am one simply because that’s how I’ve always identified myself, but I don’t do manly things. It has always m...
I had a complete mental breakdown a few weeks ago that sent me spiraling out into realms that I'd previously left unvisited. I felt so rejected by JD, and I didn't realize that I have severe aban...
So I had to create a short film for one of my classes and it was quite depressing because nobody believed in my vision. I ended up getting it done and I'm quite proud of the way it turned out, bu...
DOA: Women in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I just lost two of my best friends. Well, "lost" isn't the right word. I have chosen to sever all contact over something seemingly trivial, but to me it is a representation of some deeply held b...
It was purely by chance that the end of Open Diary coincided with me getting back in touch with a writer whom I began following a few years ago. Aside from just the entries he wrote, we began e-m...
The end of Open Diary would probably be one of the most trending topics on this site if it had the ability to keep track of topics. I started mine in 1999 at the behest of an acquaintance from ...
There was something that happened while Richard was visiting that made me realize a fundamental difference between us. Richard was with me for around three days. During that three days, I took hi...
Well, remaining single didn't last for long. Not only am I no longer single but I'm not that upset about it. I've actually settled into it quite respectably. He's extremely patient with all my fo...
I suppose I was a little more shaken up by the glimpse of couple-dom than I previously thought. I'd always seen these cute little pictures of boys kissing and hugging and holding hands and wonder...
It's currently 3am and I'm awake because my sleep schedule was disturbed a few nights ago. There was a terrifying pounding on my window and when I opened it, there was a woman whom I didn't know ...
I have spent the last two weeks trying to scrounge enough money to pay my rent. What a spectacular start to a harrowing entry. It still hasn't really come together, but I'm close to pulling a r...
Flow in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
So a lot has happened since the last entry, but I really don't feel like writing all of it. I'll just breeze through most of it. The last night for the karaoke night I've been going to since Ja...
I got really emotional when one of my roommates moved out. Like seriously emotional, and that's when I realized that I have a lot of relationships that I perceive to be more than what they are.....
Migration in Things That I'm Grateful For
You know, for some reason, a lot of people from deep into my past are moving to Los Angeles and I'm really excited about it. Joy has been a friend of mine for nine years and I really adore her p...
I was walking on air for the next several days, I can't really explain it but that lucky feeling just kept me going through any foibles that were made over the next several days. However, my goo...
In my devastation, I was not really wanting to go out and party too much. My mental state on the inside, despite the brave front I was putting on, was actually quite dire. Keeping step with the...
I spent most of the weekend trying to just get through everything that had happened. The dire predictions of everyone in my life did nothing to alleviate my anxiety about the loss of my keys, th...
