~Octopussy~ ⋅ 41 ⋅
Just an American living Bangkok and writing about all the inappropriate things that I somehow get roped into joining... I've been writing in blogs since 1999, so I'm fairly inconsistent. Sometimes I write a lot, sometimes I have nothing to say for months at a time, but I'm never gone, so just be patient and something new will come around.
The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time
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Head Games in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I know I haven’t written in quite a long while but there’s a very specific reason that I haven’t written: I’m trying to keep my mind healthy. The truth is I’ve been taking this last opportunity i...
The entire time I’ve been going through this dark spiral I’ve been afraid. Now this isn’t really that unusual because I’ve come to discover that nearly everything I do is in response to some fear...
My time in Sacramento very much reaffirmed how depressed and angry I have been in SoCal. There are multiple reasons that people think that I might not have been able to retain my high spirits but...
I ended up getting overwhelmed with everything that happened at home that I didn’t have time to write about any of the other amazing things that happened. I’m going to break this up into a few en...
I actually recorded a whole video entry which I shall not post because I was crying throughout the whole thing. My grandmother is not well. She’s being affected by dementia and it’s causing her t...
I’ve visited with a few people, not as many as had initially gushed at the idea of my prodigal return, but I’m not too upset about that. I am enjoying having time alone or with just my brothers. ...
On the last day of classes, I ended up randomly hanging out with this guy Jonathan. He was the guy upon whom I projected all those feelings after the death of my friend. It was one of those meet-...
If you have read me for any significant amount of time, you know what this title means. Whenever I go on a trip somewhere, I have to name it. It’s like a statement of purpose; a way of defining w...
The Cocoon in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I have to be honest, I cannot operate technology. Like at all. It’s confounds me at every turn. I have somehow gotten through college without ever having learned how to use PowerPoint. I don’t ha...
I'm So Afraid by Fleetwood Mac in The Song Remembers When
Fleetwood Mac is one of my favorite bands, but it took me some time to get into them. I didn’t really know who they were when I was younger, although I knew many of the songs from their Tango In ...
The final night of my research project ended up with my not arriving home until 4:30 in the morning. I had forgotten that the evening before Thanksgiving is the busiest night of the year for bars...
Last night I continued my long-stretch of homework overload. I have so many things to do that I literally am drowning in it. I cannot explain it, but there I was sitting at the bar with all of my...
There’s an amusing little parallel between the renovation of this house and my own life right now. But I don’t want to think about anything too deep, it’s depressing. I only really have about 4 d...
There Goes My Baby by Trisha Yearwood in The Song Remembers When
I have been singing for twenty-one years now, and I can honestly say that I’m proud of the breadth and depth my voice has acquired over those years. My voice has been molded and sculpted through ...
The Answers in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
So in my frantic attempt at finding something to do for the rest of my life, I applied to go work in Jordan with the Peace Corps. I was denied, but my mother had this big sigh of relief because s...
The Duo in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
Sunday I agreed to help David (the hot tattooed ex-bartender that I had the big crush on) move from his apartment. He and Mykel broke up at the beginning of this summer but had to remain living t...
(I first started writing on Open Diary in 1999 and continued up until about a year ago. My OD was very serialized and typically I would provide links to past situations which I was discussing, an...
The Canyons in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
My emotions have been all over the place for the last month. I need to take this moment and acknowledge some truths, no matter how uncomfortable they make me feel. I hate my life right now for no...
Okay, let’s talk about drugs. I feel like I was the only one who paid attention to all those little lectures they gave us in school. I’m not going to lie and say I have never done any because I h...
Hot Homo by Cazwell Feat. Big Dipper in The Song Remembers When
I needed to laugh and this did it for me. This is really explicit but that’s the point… OMG…
Halloween/My birthday was nice. I spent it with Angie in the weird alternate universe that is Playa del Ray. Seriously, this is one of the strangest parts of Los Angeles I’ve ever been to simply ...
Stranger Ways by Anberlin in The Song Remembers When
Anberlin has been a favorite of mine for ten years. I remember the night I first saw them which was the night I met them. I was hanging out waiting for my friend Bobby. Bobby worked at one of tho...
I’m currentlly coming down from a panic attack. I’m having them a lot more grequently as of late, and that really isn’t so surprising considering the whole “dealing with death” issue that happene...
Well, someone died. This makes the fourth dead person to have been in my bed and then passed away. I don’t know the details. I don’t know that I need the details. I’ve been rather incoherent over...
I know it’s been a while. School started and brought a huge wave of issues and sort of swallowed me whole. Plus, I started tugging at some frayed strands in the tapestry and realized some pretty ...
