~Octopussy~ ⋅ 41 ⋅
Just an American living Bangkok and writing about all the inappropriate things that I somehow get roped into joining... I've been writing in blogs since 1999, so I'm fairly inconsistent. Sometimes I write a lot, sometimes I have nothing to say for months at a time, but I'm never gone, so just be patient and something new will come around.
The truth is of course is that there is no journey. We are arriving and departing all at the same time
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The vacation has begun. I have nothing really to say except that I randomly got a few ideas for some interesting plans over the summer. Hopefully I’ll get some work done on those and have someth...
I am fine. The earthquake in Bangkok did not affect me too much. I was at work recording a message for Limp while it happened. The message is pretty boring but it ends with “Holy Shit, the buil...
I talked to my mother for the first time since before Valentine’s Day. It was a long talk, and she’s kind of a bit lost with herself. I get it, and I understand it but I had to point it out to h...
Real Connections in Things That I'm Grateful For
I’m so behind on work, and I honestly can’t even get myself to feel any motivation for it. Like, it’s all so corrupt that I don’t even have momentum to get things done in a timely manner, which ...
White Flag in Things That I'm Grateful For
In a very technical way, I’m in my first relationship since that awful debacle with Jonah which everyone told me later was an abusive relationship. Not physically, other types of abuse, and I su...
Deal in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
I went on a little vacation last week. I visited Chiang Mai. It’s quite a lovely place, although it reminds me a bit too much of Haight-Ashbury. Lots of tourists, not really anything too exciti...
I randomly watched this series on Netflix and it kind of ripped me apart. I’ve been walking around like an open wound for the past week. There were situations in the show that I understood so w...
Well, the property is officially sold and I was very surprised when my mother deposited my share of the sale into my account. I have to be honest, I’m not sure how I feel about the whole thing...
I tried to get myself organized, but it seems to be a much more difficult process than I had originally thought it would be. I mean, I have to come up with a serious life for myself now. There’...
Why did you threaten him with Shakespeare?! in Things That I'm Grateful For
What size is your bed? You know, I don’t know. When I was talking to my mother about Cameron moving, she mentioned his “tiny” bed being so old, and I told her that bed was 20 years old. “How do ...
I received some news from my little brother in mid-October that surprised me. He said that he was surprised that I hadn’t been told about it, either, and so I called my mother for confirmation. ...
Honestly, my life stayed mostly the same for six months. I was working so much that I had almost no time for anyone or anything. Anytime I did go out, it was mostly rote and full of stupid choic...
The next semester started after I had only 9 days off. I discovered just a few days ago that I was assigned an international class against my requests, which means I do not have a day off until M...
You Are the Moment in The Song Remembers When
Everyone around me keeps talking about the major album releases that have happened this year, and I do have some thoughts about them, but I usually keep them to myself only because anything but a...
I think I may have made my mother’s statements from the last entry misunderstood, she has always been like that and it wasn’t said with malice, it was said matter-of-factly. It’s just an acknowle...
I know that erasing all of my social media was a big overreaction, and I know what it was about, too. First, there was a message from Dave. 10 years ago, Dave was one of my closest friends. He w...
I decided that I would participate in Pride, which is something I mostly had avoided since moving to Thailand. I’ve never really enjoyed that kind of frivolity, just too many people and other thi...
Holding Pattern in Things That I'm Grateful For
For a few weeks, I was toying with moving down to the main area of town. I quickly came to my senses when I realized that I am finally stabilized financially after abruptly switching jobs and it ...
Forgiven in Things That I'm Grateful For
I was out and suddenly ran into Good. I know I know. How many times am I going to get caught up in that nonsense? But it was very amusing because the week before I had been out with this guy I ho...
I hadn’t been out in a very long time. I’d finally gotten the all-clear from the doctor, but I was still recovering from the surgery. The biopsy had come back negative so the month of existential...
A Deeper Love in Things That I'm Grateful For
I read recently about the questionnaire compiled by a psychologist to help people determine compatibility in romantic relationships, and so I figured that since there are so many nonsense surveys...
I don’t want to say I turned over a new leaf, which would not be accurate because I went to another one of those insane sex parties, but I’ve become much more selective about who I socialize with...
Last night was random in ways I wasn’t sure I was prepared for… I had decided I was going to have a nutty night out because I spent nearly all of November in a holding pattern. I’d finished week ...
Hebdomadal in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write
Well, I got through my first week. I say “got through” but in reality it was fine. Yes, every class there was some problem, usually with the technology or some other thing that nobody in leadersh...
Neon in The Song Remembers When
I was very depressed when I was young. I experienced way too much death too quickly and it was overwhelming me, emotionally, and honestly, looking back, I don’t think I really ever stabilized. On...
