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Traveling this rough road of life in Just in Case
Day to day life is ok. I get up at 4:20 to get to school, leave school around 5:00 pm do any shopping that needs to be done, then come home and do home things. I take care of anything Daddy need...
Rough Christmas in Just in Case
Normally I love Christmas. I watch all the movies, listen to all the music, and do the decorations. Last year I did some for Mama, but struggled to find the Christmas spirit. This year I can’t fi...
Not sure how to do this thing in Just in Case
This week has been extra rough for Daddy, which means rough for me, too. My best friend’s mom has been fighting dementia as well. She lost that battle a few days ago. Today was her funeral. Her f...
It went quickly in Just in Case
The transition to bringing Mama to the nursing home went easier than expected, as far as Mama being upset. She really had no idea what we were talking about. Physically it was brutal. We couldn’t...
I hate this in Just in Case
So today was the day we brought Mama to the nursing home. She’s been in bed for 4 days. Her speech was really slurred when I tried to wake her up today. There’s also a significant droop on the ri...
Worries in Just in Case
I’ve been a terrible reader. I keep saying I was to try and catch up, but I don’t ever get to. I just keep dumping. I just picked Mama up off the floor again. I’ve taught Daddy when he can’t get...
Another rough day in Just in Case
We had two appointments today and ate lunch out. Rather, Daddy and I did. Mama ate 2 French fries and two bites of corn. We weighed her today. She’s down to 119. She’s lost 50 pounds. 10 in just ...
Hospice in Just in Case
So much in a week. Mama has started hospice. Technically it’s for “failure to thrive”. She just won’t eat. She’s weak, sleeping a lot, that sort of thing. The admissions nurse told me we weren’t ...
TLDR in Just in Case
I’ve missed this place, and y’all. I know, most of you I see snippets of your life on Facebook, but here I met your families, I heard your stories. I’ve really missed that. It’s my fault. This li...
Gosh I've Missed This Place! in Just in Case
I keep thinking about this place and writing, but for some reason I always find an excuse not to. I don’t even remember where my life was the last time I wrote. About 2 years ago, after giving up...
Lost in Just in Case
That’s how I feel. I just feel lost. I’m writing this for me, using it as my journal. Hoping it helps me get my head right. Life has gotten complicate and has dealt me some blows that I am reeli...
The Year that keeps giving in Just in Case
2020 has certainly been quite a year so far. Now, it just gets more interesting. We have not one but two hurricanes headed our way. In fact the pat for both of them that they are projecting at th...
I'm just soul tired in Just in Case
It’s crazy that it’s still just the first week of school. It feels like we’ve been in for so long. Today was the first day I left before 6. (In all honesty, one night was after 7, one after 8, an...
New sort of Meet the Teacher in Just in Case
We had our Meet the Teacher. Normally that would be Open House. We would have all of our current kids an the parents, grandparents, and families that support them coming in. (Along with former ki...
Tomorrow is here in Just in Case
We start school tomorrow. We won’t have kids until Monday. When I let myself, I just get so full of anxiety with all of this. Normally, this is such a happy time for me. I’m always so excited to ...
Life in Just in Case
Life is slowly going on. I’m visiting more regularly with my parents. So, I’m still quarantining pretty strictly for the rest of life. I don’t want to risk bringing it down to them. I’m getting p...
It's Official in Just in Case
Almost a month late, Chey graduated last night. They set all sorts of regulations, but, of course, many didn’t follow them. (The parish I grew up in, and my family still lives in, is one of the f...
Life goes on in Just in Case
Sometimes I realize that living in this rural area means I am in sort of a bubble - away from a lot of the things going on in the world. I’m ok with that. We face issues here, too, just different...
Why Don't Parents Listen? in Just in Case
This morning, I was planning out my day and got a call from Mama (the plan was actually to go over there to visit.) She sounded like she was crying - She admitted that she had fallen yesterday ev...
Test Results in Just in Case
Thank y’all for the sweet support! We got word today that the results were negative. I felt that would probably be the case, but it felt good to hear it. I drove my parents to a doctor appointmen...
Waiting in Just in Case
My sister, the girls, and I got together at my parents’ house Saturday to celebrate their 54th anniversary. It was a fun, low-key day. My sister and the girls left right after lunch. Chey had Ope...
My kids in Just in Case
I got to see some of my kids yesterday. The weather made me have to cut it short, and there were others that I literally couldn’t find their house. (90% don’t have their numbers on their mailbox ...
My teacher heart in Just in Case
I got tired of asking my coworkers about participating in a Google Meet with the kids and I scheduled one. We didn’t have many participate (longer reason for that in the next paragraph). But oh m...
Lessons in Just in Case
I am taking an online beginners Birding class. I’m actually only on the second lesson LOL. So I have a ways to go. But it’s been interesting. I was trying to identify a bird that I heard by call....
A New Day in Just in Case
I shouldn’t write entries so late in the day, especially when I’m tired already. I had a decent nights sleep (well, fair to middlin, lol). The sun is out, and I’m better. I spent some time last n...