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I get my social security check today. The thought of leaving my apartment is causing considerable anxiety. I don’t like going out or being around people. I keep thinking people are talking about ...
Sunday Morning in New Diary
I’ve been on the new meds Celexa for six days. It is working. I do not feel so depressed. One a scale of one to ten I would rate my depression a 2 along with anxiety and paranoia. Still have ver...
Budgets and Computers in New Diary
I have been thinking about budgets. I will get my Social Security check of $649.00 Out of this comes rent $241.75, Comcast $140, Rent A Center of $128.25. This leaves me with $139.00 Out of thi...
I woke up early today. I wrote a long private entry where I talked about my new diagnosis. Then I hung out with fiancé for a while and listened to CNN all morning. I took my trash out and sat ou...
Thursday Morning in New Diary
Yesterday I was doing wonderful. I got out of my apartment Fiancé and her ex got together. We all went for a ride up to the Hancock County Senior Center also stopped at Tomlinson Run State Park. ...
Wednesday Morning in New Diary
Well I am up July is almost over. I will be glad to see a new month. This was a bad month all away around. Anne got socked with a huge Comcast bill. Then Rosie called that name. I had a sever at...
Tuesday Afternoon in New Diary
Well I got back from Healthways. They did not send me down state. Case manager came and picked me up at 9:30 this morning. We made it to the appointment on time. I saw the doctor first. Case mana...
Depression is back in New Diary
Well depression is back. I had a good day yesterday. Depression hit me this morning. I didn’t want to get out of bed. I laid on my couch until 8 this morning watching tv. I finally forced myself...
My wake up call was 4 am. I woke up feeling pretty good. On a scale of one to ten I would rate the depression as a 3. Life is pretty good this morning. Of course my mood can take a nose dive at a...
I am having a very bad day. I feel very depressed. What am I thinking? I am a very bad person. I am a complete failure. My entire life has been a waste I am going to end up down state if I can’t...
Saturday Morning in New Diary
I found this cool website that talks about many of the things I learned in therapy. They were talking about the five irrational beliefs that many people have The most infamous five include: 1 Mu...
Wake up call was 5am. I had a good night. I spent an hour reading. I am really enjoying this book about John Marshall. Life is good. I am feeling pretty good this morning. I think what cheered me...
Good Morning in New Diary
I had a good morning. That visiting nurse came along with my case manager. First, case manager said that I have an appointment with my therapist at 9:45am on Tuesday. I also see the doctor. My p...
Wake up call today was 3 am. I had a good night. I turned it on the Golden Oldies channel and listened to music. Music always seems to help put me in a better frame of mind. I even did a little ...
On the Other Hand in New Diary
I work up feeling pretty good today. I ended my last entry on a positive note I thought I was coming out of this latest bout of depression. I was wrong. Just as soon as I finished I started feeli...
Depression Part 2 in New Diary
1 I am above the dirt. 2 I have a wonderful fiancé who cares about me. 3 I have a place to stay. 4 I have food to eat and clothes to wear. 5 I have money for the meds I need. 6 I have a new heari...
Depression in New Diary
It has been a while since I wrote anything. I feel like shit. been very depressed and last Saturday seemed to be the worst I felt in a long time. |I called the emergency on call number. They we...
. I don’t know what got into me yesterday.. Everybody gets down in the dumps but I was really down in the dumps. I had no energy and laid on my couch almost all day. I couldn’t look at my book mu...
Depression really hit me today. I didn’t feel like getting up. In fact I laid down on my couch almost all day. I didn’t get dressed nor did I look at my book. Felt like shit. Depression hasn’t be...
I made it out today. We went to the bank first. I got my SSI check of $94. Then Connie took us to Wal Mart. As promised I gave my fiancé $70. I hung around Wal Mart while she did her shopping for...
Monday Morning in New Diary
I was up since 3 today. I guess I am back to being a morning person. I didn’t read last night. I tried to watch tv but don’t remember what I watched. I think it was a Dateline episode My kid woul...
I finished the first chapter in my book America’s Constitution: A Biography. I started the second chapter last night. The author, Akhil Reed Amar, was talking about Congress. He said that Congre...
Saturday Morning in New Diary
Depression got the better of me yesterday. I don’t know why I get depressed for no reason. Sometimes a feeling over sadness just creeps over me. I felt depressed all morning. Fiancé came up and...
I missed a couple of days I haven’t been doing a lot. I finally finished my book America’s Unwritten Constitution by Akhil Reed Amar. I started reading another book by the same author America’s C...
Yesterday wasn’t so depressing after all. Fiancé came up for a while. She always cheers me up. I did a lot of reading in my book America’s Unwritten Constitution by Akil Reed Amar. I only have th...
