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Three o’clock was my wake up call. I don’t mind getting up this early. It is nice and quiet and I can do a lot of reading around this time. I had a good nights sleep and I woke up feeling not as...

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I am up at 3 this morning. I slept pretty good with no nightmares. I didn’t do too much reading. I managed to read one chapter in current book. Also I felt fairly good yesterday depression wise. ...

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I am up. I wish I can say life is good. I made it to my doctor’s appointment at Healthways. I didn’t say how depressed I have been. I did tell him anxiety has been high. I didn’t tell him about t...

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I finished reading A Bright Shining Lie: John Paul Van and America in Vietnam. by Neil Sheehan I started reading another book American Founding Son John Bingham and the Invention of the Fourteen...

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I am feeling a bit better I talked with my therapist about my situation. He gave me some helpful insights. First he said the caregiver crossed professional boundaries. I agreed with that. I also...

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Well I am up at 2 this morning. I am not so sure how I feel right now I think I am in a state of numbness. I am not in the grips of an overwhelming sense of sadness, helplessness like yesterday....

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A lot of things have happened since my last entry. Chocolatechip and I broke up . I do not want to go into details. I will say I feel terrible about this. Depression and anxiety have been high. I...

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I had pizza for supper last night. This was a big mistake because it gave me heartburn. I couldn’t sleep because I would have a flair up every time I tried to lie down. Then when I did fall a sle...

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I survived another day. I didn’t do very well yesterday. My case manager came and picked me up at 8:50am. We stopped at the bank. I got money out for rent. I also got a cash advance for $40 for m...

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Well this is a new month and a new year. We have been experiencing bitter cold temperatures the last few days. This is the third and I have to go out in this weather. Case manager is taking me to...

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It has been a long time since my last entry. Things have been going good. I have a new caregiver and she is the hardest worker I ever had. She lives in the same building and there is not a proble...

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This is another day and another entry. I got up at 1:am.today. I tried going back to sleep but couldn’t. I think I got about five hours of sleep last night. I’m not sure when I went to bed. This ...

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I have not been doing well at all. Anxiety has been through the roof. I have been feeling very restless and on edge. I have been getting this feeling that something terrible is going to happen....

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I have not been sleeping very good. I was up all night Monday I couldn’t sleep to save my soul. I felt like a zombie the next day. Was very tired and miserable. I laid down on the couch to try t...

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I had a very shitty morning yesterday. Every bone in my body was aching. Also I felt so tired. I did not want to get going. I felt like shit. Then Chocolatechip cam e up for a while. She fixed a ...

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I had a good day yesterday. Spent a lot of time with Chocolatechip. We watched a movie together. I got a letter in the mail from Social Security. It was good news. I will not have to pay that $...

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I had a very bad morning yesterday. I was calling my pharmacy to phone in a prescription. They told me that my Medicare was cancelled Shit. I had no idea about this. I said this is news to me. Th...

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It has been awhile since I last wrote anything. There have been three major things going on. First last month I proposed to Chocolatechip. She accepted. We were really happy . I called the Social...

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Well I have my old case manager back. She came for a home visit Friday at 4 it did not go very well. I really got anxious when she was here. She kept asking a battery of questions. I can’t rememb...

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I had one hell of a day Thursday. Anxiety got really bad Wednesday night. I wasn’t thinking anything in particular. Then I started thinking about all kinds of crap. I was thinking about the usual...

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I am up. Tuesday didn’t go very well. I made it over to the Social Security office. I didn’t get what I needed for recertification. The lady at the desk said she will mail it to me. In order t...

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Well I am up. Life is good. I had a very off day yesterday. I felt kind of anxious. Recertification is up . This is when we have to renew or lease. I have to get proof of income from Social Secu...

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Wake up call was 1:30 this morning. I could not sleep. Anyways it has been so frigging cold in my apartment Saturday and Sunday. They will not turn on the heat until November when we turn off the...

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I have some good news to report. Chocolatechip and I are back together. It is a long story. We were chatting on FB yesterday Earlier I put a picture on my page. It said “Learn to walk alone it wi...

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I missed a day. Nothing much has been going on. I have been feeling pretty good with no depression or anxiety. I am going to bed early and getting up early. It seems that 3:30 is my wakeup call....

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