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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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NO SLEEP TILL... in Hello
EXHAUSTION!!! Finished Robogenesis and went as far to email the author on his website if a third book is in the works. It ends on a cliffhanger where the two AI’s are about to duke it out for co...
Dunno if it’s nerves or too much caffeine today but I’m wide awake. Watching Drugs Inc on National Geographic Channel. The last episode was about krokidile. Last five minutes showed a guy’s le...
Who Woulda Thought in Hello
I’d be craving getting high more thank getting drunk. It was real bad earlier. For those who aren’t addicts, when a craving hits all your emotions hit at once. This time I was angry. I wanted...
Managed to catch another hour or so of sleep today. I bet been relaxing with my heating pad, PS4 and my book Robogenesis. I finished the first one Robopocalypse a few days ago. It’s about an AI ...
NO SLEEP FOR YOU! in Hello
Another night of shitty sleep. I’m very tired right now but can’t doze off to save my life. In the meantime I’d like a few sausage links, order of hash browns with cheese (and maybe a few splash...
Sandpaper And Iodine in Hello
My friggin’ left foot is itching so bad. I got a bug bite, figures. It dawned on me earlier that today is double digits, ten days sober. Awesome! I’m still having the urge to get stoned but ...
Three Good Deeds in Hello
Went and widdled in the cup this morning. Even the guy administering the test was surprised I was called twice in a row. After, I sucked it up and went to New Horizons and filled out the paper...
Seriously? in Hello
Just called the color code line. I get to pee AGAIN in a cup this morning. 🙄
Beached Whale in Hello
Another factoid since quitting pot/alcohol, I’ve been putting away a lot more food. Granted it’s been veggies as I’ve been cooking more but tonight I over did it in fajitas. When not taking in ...
I went and did my alcohol/drug screening this morning. I was going to go to New Horizons and do the assessment for the outpatient program but I chickened out. I don’t know why I’m so apprehensi...
Widdle In A Cup in Hello
My color got called today. I’ll go around eight-ish for the drug/alcohol screening. Didn’t sleep too good last night. Still very tired.
Seven Days in Hello
No weed and no alcohol. Woo hoo!!!
General Emptiness? in Hello
I don’t know what was going on earlier but I just felt…hollow? Empty? The way I put it to New Friend is Friday I had the Lewis Black show, yesterday I did yardwork and then went out to eat. To...
Did that yard work today. Chainsawed a bunch. Now my arms and back hurt from hauling that crap from the backyard to the curb. I’m sunburned, too. Bah! Mom took my eldest and SIL out to eat ...
Lewis Black And Other Musings in Hello
The show last night was funny just the audio sucked. When he was speaking softly I couldn’t really make out what he was saying but when he started his ranting and yelling I could hear him fine. ...
Eggplant Parm Rocks in Hello
Mom cooked last night. Ended up eating two plates as I was super hungry. Ended up eating the last just a few minutes ago for lunch. My withdrawal symptoms are getting better. I’m very tired ri...
Rage Monster Update in Hello
I’m so fucking irritable today. I want my vape. 6:07 PM I’ve calmed down a lot. Mom and I did breakfast at Blue Plate Cafe, went shopping and generally enjoyed the nice weather. After so muc...
Let's Boogie! in Hello
Court. I’m not on probation but am on color code. I have to called a number EVERYDAY and if my color comes up I go to widdle in a cup at the courthouse. Judge told me to check out New Horizons...
In My Head in Hello
As the title says, I’ve been in my head all night. Why I suck at relationships, would I have gotten married, it sure would’ve been nice to get help for my mental health a long time ago… Ya, thin...
Those Were Weird... in Dreams And Nightmares
Dream one is I started dating the old friend who works at the law firm. Other than a minor crush when I was 16 there is nothing romantic Dream two, nightmare time! Mike and I were kidnapped by ...
Jesus Found Me And Touched Me Deep Down Inside in Hello
At least guitarist was rocking out like he was in KISS! And yet dad wondered why I laughed my ass off at this, stating, “It’s a good Christian song!!!!” My dad was a computer programmer for NAS...
Almost at 30 Hours Awake in Hello
And still not tired. 🤷♂️ Grilled two chicken breast, mixed them with the ceaser salad mix. Added a few extra squirts from the bottle I got and tossed the kielbasa on the grill after. Ate well....
Almost at 30 Hours Awake in Hello
And still not tired. 🤷♂️ Grilled two chicken breast, mixed them with the ceaser salad mix. Added a few extra squirts from the bottle I got and tossed the kielbasa on the grill after. Ate well....
I’m still awake. Made teriyaki chicken and shrimp for dinner last night. After we ate and I finished dinner we discussed food tonight. Ended up going to Publix to get Caesar salad mix and flo...
