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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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Much Beddah! in Hello
After store brand Tylenol and another two hours of sleep I felt much better. This might sound silly but after going through what I did yesterday and last night without getting fucked up, I am go...
I Don't Feel Good in Hello
My whole body is hot to the touch, I’ve got a massive headache and zero energy. My joints ache and I didn’t sleep well last night. Stress? Maybe. Weather? Good possibility. I’ve showered for the...
I'd Like To Sleep In A Freezer in Hello
Not sunburned but have a wicked tan on my back. Been feeling hot all night since my walk. I’m not angry anymore. After isolating myself in my bedroom and gaming for a few hours, sober no less...
Update Followed AKA Fuck The Justice System in Hello
Well, I went to court. The first thing the judge told me was, “You’re about to go to jail!” Visibly confused I asked, “Now?” “Not yet but you’re headed there. You failed your last screening for...
Updates Will Follow in Hello
8:27 AM Dragged a razor across my head and face, took a nice hot shower with green apple body wash. Now I’m sitting down with an iced coffee and about to have two pieces of bacon and some scramb...
Hot! Hot! Hot! in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
I think I may have a little sunburn. Can’t really tell. I forgot to wear a hat when walking, remember I shave my head bald. So of course my forehead, shoulders and back feel hot. I walk in a ...
Broken Brain in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
Took mom to her optometrist appointment and while I was looking at the video game section in Wal-Mart I noticed I had the shakes. Was I hungry? Was I still detoxing? Was I craving? Craving…a...
Not Salmon Patties, NOT THE NAVY! in Hello
emphasized text Tonight was the second time ever of me making salmon. As the title says, not Salmon patties. Those don’t count (though I rock the Southern Style recipe.) This was two salmon fi...
Et tu, Phyllis? in Hello
Title comes from something I just heard on Murder She Wrote. I only walked and did some yard work today but my abdominal muscles feel like I did one-hundred sit ups. Guess it was from flexing on...
Wanna Get Stoned! in Hello
Got the Naltrexone prescription today. Shoe buddy does it make me tired. Drowsiness is one of the side effects. I did over a two mile walk after group then cut down some branches on a small tr...
Cold Black Heart in Hello
Found out my cousin Brad (42) died in a motorcycle accident back in late July. I have no remorse, only relief. Dead beat dad, drug user/pusher, bad kid all throughout his life, in and out of ja...
Awful Awful in Hello
I feel so sick this morning. Between the tacos and the spicy chips from last night my stomach is telling the rest of my body to fuck off. I’m thinking light meals for today. Maybe some chicke...
Cunt-ry Gravy in Hello
Found a recipe for bacon gravy aka country gravy. Come breakfast time I’m gonna whip up a batch to put on my eggs. 2:15 AM I think the trazodone is starting to kick in. Had to eat a peppermi...
Blurred Vision Will Roux The Day! in Hello
It feels like my eyesight is getting worse. Bah! Yesterday ma and I went to the mall to walk around a bit for exercise and because we got cabin fever. That was the longest time I’ve spent there...
I want to thank everyone for the comments from yesterday. Monday at 10 AM I have an assessment with the medical side at Wellstone. After the evaluation they’re going to give me a prescription fo...
Drunk in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
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FUCK YOU, BUDDY!!! in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown
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5:44 AM And I'm Hungry in Hello
Typical. Woke up and couldn’t get back to sleep. The thunderstorm is too loud for me to even attempt to try. ☹️ Screw this noise, I want a smoke and food. No bacon and eggs…maybe another gril...
I'm A Barbie Girl in Hello
Finally dozed off sometime close to three and got up around ten. So groggy. Hell, it’s almost eight now and I’m still frickin’ beat. Mom and I went to Target to walk around then Dollar Tree, ...
Well Done (12:23 AM) in Hello
I over did it today. Since I’ve finally relaxed and gotten comfy my back and biceps hurt. When I got up to pee my left knee screamed in protest. At least I got those two jungle bushes on the s...
All The Cool Kids Are Doing It ( Stolen From Porg) in Hello
This time last year, what was happening in your life? At the exact moment I would have been at work. Did you/will you have coffee or some other form of caffeine today? Iced coffee and Mt. Dew Ice...
Shoe Buddy! in Hello
Shoe buddy, I sure am tired. Topic at group was a recovery video. Guy was 28, drinking three pints of vodka daily. Yadda yadda, got into inpatient and died seventeen days later. It hit me HARD...
Those Fucking Dogs Again! in Hello
Well, one of them this time. I found out how they’re getting through the fence. A small hole. Tomorrow I’m cutting down some branches, taking the twigs and leaves off, intertwining them into ...
Plot Thickens... in Hello
Just got a call from Wellstone to reschedule my one on one tomorrow. When I said one PM would be fine they said I’d be with another counselor. I ask what about the first one, “He no longer is e...
After group I kept thinking Taco Bell or a Philly pizza from Marco’s. I had to steel myself from that way of thinking. Instead I came home and ate a sandwich with some Cheetos. Group’s subject ...
