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“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
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This is getting old. Been up since 6. Group, ran errands, cooked. Wide. Freakin’. Awake. At least it’s cold in here, FINALLY. 🥶 Feels amazing. If I’m up in another hour I think that left o...
Today Was Nice in Hello
Peacock messaged last night asking if I was free for lunch. I replied that I was and a when and where. I’m not going to lie, this morning she said meet at the new Publix on the opposite side of...
Right Side Of The Face in Hello
While enjoying my Cajun turkey sandwich for lunch I bit down funny and now my upper teeth hurt. The pain is shooting into the nasal cavities on the right side of my face. Any of my long time re...
Woke Up, Fell Out Of Bed, Dragged A Razor Across My Head in Hello
Slept on and off throughout the night. I’m showered, shaved, about to take my meds and get some food in me. Today I’m going to take things a bit more seriously instead of floundering in the dee...
I Feel Like I'm At Rock Bottom *Edit in Hello
My mind is a mess… Mk I feel a bit better. Peeled myself off the couch, showered and got a meal in me. I guess I’m just feeling overwhelmed today. Haven’t gotten much sleep. Now that I’m clea...
Interesting in Dreams And Nightmares
Had a dream that there was some street festival going on and the punk band Bad Brains was playing a free gig. I got to me the singer and guitarist. Now only if something cool like that happened...
Leftovers For Lunch in Hello
Since Mom has been feeling a lot better she’s been active in chores around the house and cooking. Last night she made some killer fried chicken thighs with corn and cabbage. Today I’m having le...
Dear Sweet Relief Of AC! in Hello
Elder bro brought his AC unit. Just turned it on a few minutes ago and it already feels a bit cooler in here. Got the exhaust pipe going out the garage side door. Put some boxes and tacked up...
Thirst Or Juice Controls The Media in Hello
Was just texting with a friend. I’m craving a big glass of iced pink lemonade. From time to time I get on these kicks where I crave something fruit flavored to drink, be it juice or lemonade or...
Bat To The Head in Hello
I’ve had a headache all day. There is a knot in the back of my head like I hit it on something. Temples feel squeezed with pressure. Ice pack here I come.
Sick Stomach in Hello
Mom and I went to Longhorn for lunch because we didn’t want to hear the house up anymore than we have to. The French onion soup is sitting on my stomach like a swampy mess. Never again! After ...
Be Serious in Hello
I day drank yesterday and spent the rest of the evening sleeping. It’s 3:44 AM and I feel like absolute shit. My chest feels like there is a weight on it, blood pressure is definitely up and I’...
Limp Legged in Hello
Conked my shin on the left leg last night. Got a nice goose egg that’s humming with pain now. Owie… I had a really wild dream. D&D game, fighting monsters with friends I haven’t seen in ye...
Crippity Crap in Hello
Gotta go to my brother’s tonight for a birthday get together. He’ll be 50 on the 14th. I honestly don’t want to go. I really don’t feel like seeing my cunty cousin (huge bitch) and they’ll be ...
Small Town LOL!!! in Hello
Dude… you’re using a hip hop drum machine. SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!. Now…the truth… Honestly.
Mouth Was On Fire in Hello
4:30 AM. Gotta take mom to work in an hour. I ate the last two pieces of chicken from Popeyes while dipping it in Dreamland BBQ sauce. The heat in the sauce has a kick like a mule. After I ate...
It's Always Sunny In Philly in Hello
Munching on a Philly from Publix. Good dinner. So it did rain last night and got a bit cooler. I actually slept in my bed instead of the couch. Much cooler back there. It’s going to be super...
And it’s fucking 80 degrees in the house. Luckily a cold front is moving in the week. Sweet relief.
Almost 4 AM in Hello
And it’s still uncomfortably warm in the house. I don’t think I’m going to sleep tonight because of it. Only reason I slept any the last few days is because I got blackout drunk. I didn’t drink ...
Nommy Num Nums in Hello
Grilled burgers last night and boy o boy were they juicy! Tonight I grilled a rack of ribs. I’m nice and stuffed I missed group today, even emailed the counselor about relapsing. Glad I misse...
I've Relapsed Since Friday in Dreams And Nightmares
I even smoked my vape tonight. Maybe a year in jail is what I need.
I feel like absolute shit. My throat is on fire, my body aches and pretty sure I have a fever. My AC really needs to start working again. Too bad it’s a holiday… And sleep, I’d kill for an unin...
Blues Brothers And Cocaine in Hello
Did you know they actually budgeted money for cocaine when filming The Blues Brothers? AC is on the fritz again… It’s friggin’ 80 F inside the house. 🔥 Popeye’s chicken for dinner tonight. Tryi...
Drove mom to get the tag for the new car. Stopped for some quick take out at China Taste. She wanted to take a quick nap after we ate and I said I’d wake her in two hours. Weeell…I fell asleep...
Went to Guadalajara last night for dinner. Table across from us was pounding down a pitcher of beer and a fish bowl margarita. À Yup, triggered me. Yup, got alcohol. Yup, relapsed BUT!!! The s V...
