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I'm a previous OpenDiary subscriber. I bet most of you are too. I'm a Diagnostic Medical Sonographer (I do ultrasounds) I have 1 daughter (Lily) 1 Dog (Callie) 1 cat (Sophie) And 'C' is Lily's father.
1. Go Sky Diving 2. Ride a horse 3. Get Married. 4. Have children and have my brother be able to meet them 5. Write a book 6. Publish a book 7. Own a house 7.5 Own a BIGGER house 8. Travel through the mountains 9. Learn to Play Solfeggietto on the pi
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Foolish Man; Foolish Girl 10-24-2013 in Out in the Open
Foolish Man; Foolish Girl Thursday, October 24, 2013 A reply to his next text. C, When I first read your text my initial thought went something like this. “No. No. NO. NO! NOO!” Then I...
I Need Release 10-23-2013 in Out in the Open
I Need Release Wednesday, October 23, 2013 I want to cry, but I can't. I am at work. I wanted to cry before work, but I couldn't. Lily was home. I can't release. It's all inside me and ...
Goodbye C 10-23-2013 in Out in the Open
Goodbye C Wednesday, October 23, 2013 An email to C after finding out today that he has a 3 year old child... I have been trying to say something to you for a while now, but I just can’t ...
Birthday Party for My Daughter 10-21-2013 in Out in the Open
Birthday Party for my Daughter Monday, October 21, 2013 Today was so nice in so many ways. My beautiful daughter had her 5th birthday party today. We celebrated in the home that I am ren...
One of These Days in Out in the Open
One of These Days Sunday, October 13, 2013 One of these days, while lying in bed together I will get you to respond to me. You will let me touch you and when I do you will finally feel th...
I Love Him 10-08-2013 in Out in the Open
I Love Him Tuesday, October 08, 2013 It's funny. Not funny, "ha ha" but funny as in curious. He claims he's got these deep ceded issues, and perhaps he does. Yet, I am the one that freaks o...
More Text Messages 10-08-2013 in Out in the Open
More Text Messages Tuesday, October 08, 2013 Let me just say this first: Opendiary has been painfully slow and was completely unusable yesterday. I have started a new journal at livejourna...
The Texts 10-07-2013 in Out in the Open
The Texts Monday, October 07, 2013 Me: I don't think you truly understand what exactly you did by not going to the reception. You told me that you were going so I told Lily and my family....
The Beginning of the End 10-07-2013 in Out in the Open
The Beginning of the End Monday, October 07, 2013 To say that I have given up isn’t completely true. Instead, let’s just say I officially have stopped trying. It’s not worth it anymore....
Well, That Was Awkward 09-30-2013 in Out in the Open
Well, That Was Awkward Monday, September 30, 2013 Went to C's house this weekend. I always enjoy spending time with him. He just makes me happy deep in my heart. His voice and his laugh ...
Was It True? 09-25-2013 in Out in the Open
Was It True? Wednesday, September 25, 2013 Tomorrow is my birthday. I'll be 38 years old. I am happy with where I am in life, I guess. I am certainly happy with who I have finally turn...
I Have Missed You, Diary 09-24-2013 in Out in the Open
I Have Missed You, Diary* Tuesday, September 24, 2013 I have been reading my past entries and have discovered something. I am so glad I wrote in my diary all this time. I want to start d...
Test 09-23-2013 in Out in the Open
test Monday, September 23, 2013 There have been so many times in my life that I have longed for the feel of being loved back by the man I love. It's been a long time since I have felt th...
Finally Let It All Out 09-17-2013 in Out in the Open
Finally Let It All Out* Tuesday, September 17, 2013 I told him everything that I have wanted to for so long. I couldn't hold it in any longer. I told him I wanted another baby. I told...
For Crying Out Loud 04-13-2013 in Out in the Open
For Crying Out Loud* Saturday, April 13, 2013 I cried last night for the first time in a long time. I needed to. I cried out all the questions I had for C. Except C wasn't there to hea...
Something to Think About 04-05-2013 in Out in the Open
Something to Think About (pics) Friday, April 05, 2013 A noter stated perhaps that I am building walls in order to prevent an advancement in C's and my relationship. At first I was like...
Falling Again 04-01-2013 in Out in the Open
Falling Again Monday, April 01, 2013 I have been seeing Lily's father a lot lately. Lily's father C, is becoming more and more involved in her life and it's been a beautiful thing. He gav...
I am NOT on a diet. 02-24-2013 in Out in the Open
I am NOT on a diet.* Sunday, February 24, 2013 Every time I restart my diet I talk about it on here. So this time I am not doing that because every time that I do that, I fail miserably ...
My Daughter. My Child 12-14-2012 in Out in the Open
My Daughter. My Child. Friday, December 14, 2012 I can not understand, nor put into words how deeply saddened I am for the children that died today. And yet, I can't begin to know what it ...
El Rancho 10-30-2012 in Out in the Open
El Rancho Tuesday, October 30, 2012 My daughter was watching Dora and says, "El rancho means 'farm.'" To which I replied, "Well, more like ranch." So she looks at me and says, "Ranch is...
My Daughter's Father 10-20-2012 in Out in the Open
My Daughter's Father Saturday, October 20, 2012 Oh these feelings I don't understand. Lily's Dad came over last night. It was so much like when we were dating. He was so kind and so o...
SPT Physics Board 08-18-2012 in Out in the Open
SPI Physics Board Saturday, August 18, 2012 Took my diagnostic medical sonography physics board. Passed it! Whoop! Whoop! Her Leave a Note Congratulations!!!! :) [Mommy2Katie] 8/...
The Ultrasound Tech's Side of it All 08-10-2012 in Out in the Open
The Ultra SoundTech's Side of it All Friday, August 10, 2012 She was having abdominal pain, flank pain really. Her back was hurting and her side. She went into the urgent care to see wh...
What Do You Know, she's Not Perfect! 05-13-2012 in Out in the Open
What Do You Know? She's not Perfect! Wednesday, June 13, 2012 I am doing nights during the next few weeks for my clinicals. I was scared to death to work with one of the other students i...
Good to Feel Attractive 05-11-2012 in Out in the Open
Good to Feel Attractive Monday, June 11, 2012 I got some wonderful compliments from Lily's father today. It always makes me feel good. He called me beautiful today. And on sunday I go...
