JB
The man who looks for security, even in the mind, is like a man who would chop off his limbs in order to have artificial ones which will give him no pain or trouble.
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When the bus pulled away in Magma
We had spent the entire weekend together. We had willed our souls to meet in the flesh and let our demons play and I felt how tender your skin was. How thick your hair was and how a man can miss ...
It has been a long time but perhaps I shall renew here. Rattle these bones and grow flesh anew Bring light to darkness and my soul renew
Dad - The update in Magma
Dad was released from the hospital the beginning of this week. He’s been home and resting up. I have been a real mess lately, mainly because for the first time I found out that the second name on...
Dad - update in Magma
He is in the CCU, recovering from his pneumonia. Bp 110/56, no fever, still intubated but hoping between now and tomorrow to be off it. His doctor came in, she is optimistic.
I got the call this morning at 1am from my mom that they were taking him to the hospital. He’d been coughing alot in the afternoon at the shop. They are trying to rule out anything involving his ...
Brrrrrrrrrrr. in Magma
It is cold. The blizzard has hit us and gone like a horrible one night stand. I’m at work and the heat is out in the office, the shop area is fine as their gas heat is going strong. My fingers a...
lyrics on my mind in Magma
Wish that you were here - Florence & The Machine I’ve tried to leave it all behind me But I woke up and there they were beside me And I don’t believe it but I guess it’s true Some feelings, t...
Bacon Camp in Magma
The idea has sprung up between a bunch of friends regarding a trip North to Michigan for something called “Bacon Camp”. Timing is late May-June which may not bode well for my work schedule. Tim...
Open Diary....... in Magma
So I was told by a friend and read an announcement that the old stomping grounds will be returning to action and making good on old “lifetime” subscriptions and handles. My curiosity is officiall...
When all you crave is the touch of a woman one’s mind is on fire. In drought I am an inferno.
Burning Lust... in Magma
It’s on my mind, replaying imagery in my mind. That is all....
Ghost Ship in Magma
Countless nights my mind returns to this dock, searching out for this one ship, this place where the memories echo and I find that smile, that thick hair between my rough fingers. All these thoug...
Being this aroused in the morning is going to throw a throat punch into my productivity. And I might need new pants.
Pepper Update in Magma
It has been almost 2 weeks since Pepper disappeared. My wife is heartbroken and I am just quiet, looking out at night out the window hoping for a miracle that won’t happen. I’ve never been attach...
Sunday night he escaped the house. Unsure if it was when Nina got home or when I went out the back sliding door to get a fresh load of firewood. It has rained and temps in the evening have been c...
My December Fire in Magma
It will be your birthday soon. A fact which pushes to the surface like an abandoned castle in the distance. I have journeyed there many times in my mind but that is all. A hollow gesture to someo...
I’m not sure why but gone is all I get. Perhaps this is a speck of what it felt like for you when the line of communication was ripped apart. I don’t know. I just wish there was some closure so I...
I can’t wait for fall to arrive, most people look at me like I’m crazy but this heat and discomfort doesn’t work for me. Meh.
Long weekend in Magma
The kids and my wife are upstate this weekend to visit with friends. My work schedule really screwed me this year considering they have a great party and the weather is zero humidity. Plus cigar...
Bye girl... in Magma
Miss Kitty passed away yesterday. She was 18+ years old and she was a sweet cat. I saw my son howl in pain and tears when he realized she wasn’t coming home from the vet. She had a tumor the siz...
In my chest.... in Magma
Here in my waking hours I contemplate many things but the one that is always here is you. You appear to me like a ghost and yet the clenching of hands in Vegas, our embrace. It is all things and...
When all is quiet in Magma
I hear the ice cream truck outside my office window. It’s 6:15, an hour and change past quitting time but I have work to get done. I saw my doctor and got onto to some anti-anxiety meds for the t...
I’m in a bad way right now, can’t remember it ever being this bad. To the doctor’s office Thursday, am going to ask for a script of anti-anxiety meds. Hate this.
My dad’s in the hospital again and I’m all nerves all over again. Congestive heart failure. Blocked artery (?) Haven’t slept since two nights ago.
There is much I want to say everyday to you. Apologies, stories about my life, the kids, my hopes. But mostly just to hear your voice. I miss it’s cadence, the soft sway of your voice and hear...
