novelistbynite ⋅ 45 ⋅
Mother of three daughters, plus a stillborn daughter. Novelist. On novel #19. Married. For now. Pansexual. Raising a lesbian, woot. University student (English and social work.) Class of 2021. Mother of an autistic daughter.
"Don't dream it, be it."
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Dream with interesting subtext in 2021
So, I had a dream. I don’t remember many of mine, so that’s new. In the dream, I had two relationships: a childhood friend (female) who was showing off things she’d bought (possibly to resell?...
Update of not much importance in 2021
Because it isn’t really important. Nothing I do honestly is. However, there are parts of the stuff I do that I like in general now, so there’s that. When I am away from home, at work, I’m pret...
ranty ranty in 2021
I’m fucking irritated that I just folded what equates to three baskets of a stranger’s fucking laundry. Oh, and they’re washing clothes again. Because apparently being caught out in the same tu...
Eh. I’m permanently angry. I am also lost. This is the first technical day of summer break (and it’s really the last summer break, since work starts Tuesday) and I feel so lost. So weirdly em...
Thinking out loud in 2021
No, no Ed Sheeran. Jeez, I have enough fucking redheads in here already. University ends this week. It was a five year ride - two years of junior college first, then three years of uni. I don’...
the new abnormal in 2021
Stuff is bad right now. This is usually the case, yes, but bad is still bad, so I still get to vent. -Her Majesty is 18. I have to file guardianship papers. These are expensive and involve hou...
Fuckassery in 2021
Tonight’s fuckassery: I bought perfectly good beef for a stir fry. I bought okayish sauce to flavor it (it wouldn’t have much on its own.) I bought seven dollars worth of frozen mixed veg that...
I was thinking today (about all I have energy for: I am still bleeding heavily. Tried to grocery shop yesterday, but I can only be away from home/toilet/sink for like 90 minutes to 2 hours.) An...
Uncrustables War in 2021
Yeah, the little sandwich things. Today my day was ruined by them. Apparently that roommate and her spawn bought some, and I bought some, and Spawnetta ate some, and nobody knows whose she ate,...
Murder by Numbers in 2021
But here’s the twist - nobody’s dead today but Larry King. (I wasn’t a fan.) Jterm has begun. I’ve got that one fiction prof back, the one who never posts the schedule ahead of time so you neve...
It turned out to be a car stereo in 2021
That thing he “had” to do with my car, I mean. It was a car stereo. He’s been promising me one since 2018, so that only took about 2.5 years. Faster than that vasectomy he promised, right? Th...
For a given value of "okay" in 2021
I am technically OKAY. I do not have a uterine tumor. Their sample was small, but they didn’t pick up any of the kind of tissue that would support a growing tumor, so that’s the argument. I jus...
the waiting is the hardest part in 2021
My therapist semi wins. I do need a therapist. I need one right now. I am waiting to hear back from stupid fucking Kaiser about the uterine biopsy they have just done. Tomorrow is the expecte...
Brain dump the millionth in April Showers (April 2020)
I am very frazzled right now. I need to buy a new mouse. I do not know where my wireless mouse is, but I do have the dongle. By the Law of Small Electronic Objects, the moment I get a new one ...
Have you missed me? Me, too. in April Showers (April 2020)
Fast unscramble. Internship: Got. Love. I just adore my internship. School: Zoom University can suck my butt. Home: - Still married. Ew. -Still have roommates. Ew. -Still have entire collec...
Antsy in April Showers (April 2020)
I really miss school. The daily routine of it was good. I liked waking up and getting in my car and toodling off. It was a relief. I only had to think about me for a while. Me, and the amazin...
I had a glitch for like a week in April Showers (April 2020)
My last post was coming up every time I tried to make a new one. this is an experimental one. Well, it’s visible and it seems to be working now. So I’ll…just write. Right. Psychotrickerist deci...
Digital Letdown in Snowspangled
Unlike the old, (crappy) tune about the digital getdown, which was definitely not a clean concept, I am experiencing digital letdown. I hate the sudden switch to online classes. I hate the brok...
Shit I Should Tell My Psychiatrist in Snowspangled
I should, but I won’t, tell my psychiatrist crap because she always threatens to hospitalize me but 1 - she never does it, and 2 - I don’t have time for that bullshit. I have trouble getting yo...
Probably whining. in Snowspangled
So. Do you remember last week’s drama? I’m not gonna forget it anytime soon, for sure. The short form is that the damn bitch child of the roommate that doesn’t speak to me has told a CPS worke...
Bossy fricking thing made me put a title here in Snowspangled
So, puzzling turns of events. No, still married to Dickface, and he’s still clueless. His latest thing is wandering around asking me what he DID. Because he treats me FINE. Because this used ...
To do list from hell in Snowspangled
I keep looking at what it would take to finish school with both majors. I still want both…even though I know the writing one could be sacrificed. It does me no good, I know it. I love it anywa...
Turn and face the strange in Snowspangled
If I had my life to do over, and I knew everything I know now, I would have applied to university from high school. I was afraid I’d get in and not be able to afford it, and basically get laughe...
Dancing with Myself in Snowspangled
I kind of win the bet I made with you guys about whether he would remember Valentine’s. Technically he did remember, but at 12:27 am, so it wasn’t Valentine’s anymore. But still so early he pro...
What a day to explore eyeliner in Snowspangled
So I tried out that makeup I bought today. It was a bad idea. I just can’t seem to stop crying it off. I’m okay, though. Good as I ever get. I shouldn’t be crying. Other than that time I miss...
