HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21 ⋅
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Ugly in Journal 2020
Mom noticed the scars, I felt ugly. I…I don’t like my privates. It’s weird to describe but I just don’t like them. They are so…them. and I feel uncomfortable when yeah nvm.
Depressed in Journal 2020
I just feel depressed honestly About calin. About john. About ali. About July 16th 2019. Senior yeqr. Evrrythibg. I’m so str3ss3d
Growing up in Journal 2020
I talked to Lynxee today and I felt horrible with how I sounded. He said he would make more time for me but he shouldn’t and I feel awful. Really awful. He’s my friend and I depend on him too muc...
Lonely in Journal 2020
Lonely day of not feeling to well. Work work work. Did my first ever collab video and I am sooo happy with the results of it.
ANS disbanded and im not okay in Journal 2020
I’m upset. ANS was a kpop girl group that I love, I wasn’t in love with them or obsessed, I don’t even know all the members names. But they where talented and had some bangers and deserves better...
Bleh in Journal 2020
Another day of being ignored by friends. I don’t know why I even try, seriously I cause myself more harm then good. I just gotta continue with me i guess. I could honestly manifest more friends,...
:( in Journal 2020
Now their even sadder and it’s all my fault. I shouldnt have even said anything. I feel bad. And I feel the overwhelming feelings starting where it’s hard to talk and I just want to hide. I’m a b...
Stressed in Journal 2020
I cant sleep. I’m to wound up about my weight. I’m stressed about it. And I feel bad because my partner felt bad. But I feel ugly now and insecure. I talked to Jason and he was trying to cheer ...
Sleepover in Journal 2020
They are at a sleepover. At first I felt a bit lonely but then I realized the entire time they probably missed me and I felt better.
Therapy in Journal 2020
My friend talked to me about it. I don’t think a therapist would understand. I’m dirty. Inside and out. It’s like poison and it’s like fat. It’s like a phantom limb were you’re constantly fearful...
Detached in Journal 2020
I think I’m finally hitting that weird point that I saw a lot of people hit. It was like people suddenly became really unstable and cold and mean. I keep finding myself thinking…why do I care abo...
Worse day in Journal 2020
I’m chubby apparently I failed I wasnt.chubby when I was dieting I’m chubby now It’s just a nice way to say fat, obese I felt like vomiting after learning I’m chubby and.im.so angry at myself. ...
Entry in Journal 2020
This is quick since I’m tired and sick. I’m in a new relationship but I feel like I’ll ruin it. I’m scared. I’m terrified. I feel ugly. And fat and I dont know what to say or when to. And I keep ...
Another day, another girl group in Journal 2020
I am regretting getting into kpop. They aren’t kidding when they say the market is oversaturated, so many groups are debuting it’s hard to keep track. I naturally like nugu (basically groups who ...
Repeat in Journal 2020
I dont know what I did wrong this time
Storytime in Journal 2020
There once was a rabbit, her name was bunny. Bunny was a energetic rabbit who liked making new friends and hanging out with the ones she already had. One day, she met a very fuzzy wolf. This wolf...
Disappointment in Journal 2020
You can save someone’s life and they can still stab you in the back
.--. in Journal 2020
It’s a french toast type of morning
Bad thoughts in Journal 2020
Today I had a bad thought well last night. That Calin, was dating my friend. I dont know where that thought came from but it makes me cry. I cried and I felt like throwing up due to the sheer amo...
Sick sick sick in Journal 2020
I had soup for breakfast and friends potatoes! I had four chicken nuggets and maybe nine french fries for lunch. I’m full and sicky, but I rested. It was bad today as I found myself arguing with ...