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I woke up dizzy today, nauseated. If I went to the hospital would anybody visit me? I don’t know. I have issues with my paycheck so we have to get it checked out today when I go to work. I just w...

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I wish he would just answer my messages. I feel bad. I felt scared yesterday and now I feel sick.

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I mean he’s so cute…idk I feel like I’m to ugly for him ;-;

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Their fine but I just feel done.

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I had someone say today they thought that I hated them and that they had tried to kill themselves, it felt hinted like it was my fault. I couldn’t…I just cried Ben crying but I couldn’t even spea...

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I was on reddit and I saw a post about a article. A woman was angry about Christmas gifts she had gotten. She suffered from depression and ranted about everything she had gotten and how it had hu...

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I’m really tired while I right this on halloween night. It’s been boring and anxiety ridden but who cares. I just want to sleep peacefully without worry.

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I have to keep hating them. I’ll never forgive them no matter how sorry they feel. I keep feeling like saying stop and forgiving them but I’m wrong. I just can’t. I hate them. I hate them so much...

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I just want to go away. I closed my eyes and drifted away. I felt my chest tighten and everything. I want to go away. I want to go away. I need to. I run away mentally and I just want to go.

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I just needed to vent for a bit. I randomly started crying and I don’t know why. I just feel sad, beat down, destroyed. I’ll probably do a long update soon with a summary of the past month and a ...

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So, over the past months I would get private comments criticizing my actions. This would bother me a lot, but I tried to bury it down deep and try to push it aside. These things hurt, they hurt r...

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I dont want to write anymore publicly, everyone probably thinks I’m dirty. I don’t like sex I never have. But everyone probably thinks reading this I’m some whore, so does Kelly probably. I don...

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Is that what it looks like? I never thought that…everyone must find me so disgusting....

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My chest hurts really bad. I don’t want to have sex with Kelly. Or anyone. But then they’ll be upset, I’ve been crying nonstop and my chest hurts so much. I don’t want to lose it, the last pure p...

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Day and night ut hurts. I am hurting and everyone ignores me, even Kelly. I feel worthlsss. I wish....idk…I’m just full of rage, sadness and rage. It hurts to breathe I’m so upset

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They are my friends and I love them very much. Bunny is my bff, she’s smart and cute and I love to imagine myself holding her close. Boolie is very nice too! He’s in college and treats me well an...

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I thought kelly message today…

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I feel bad I said something mean to Kelly, I just wanted to sound romantic and maybe idk attention. But they where scared and I felt bad…i feel bad…i started to cry a little bit a go but i covere...

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I have my bunny, miles with me. I feel tired…I wanted to talk to Kelly today but it’s okay, I’m not scared. I feel tired, mom’s making me sleep in her room as there’s possibly mold in mine and we...

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Grim reaper

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Both dreams where blurry but I had black hair and was with my dream family. Everything felt sort of nice, gonna sleep later with binary beats on.

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You think about it and it works out better than planned. When I give people the journal I hope , I think they will get it and it never happens. Sometimes I dont think they even read it or care ab...

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That high is down and I feel miserable again.

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I sent John the journals, these journals. I’ve wanted to for so long and I’ve been so angry at EVERYONE I can’t take it anymore. I sent him Journal 19, it’s honestly the worse. And this journal ...

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