HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21 ⋅
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Bug in Journal 2021
John messaged me. I’m on guard. I don’t have time for games. I’m not my past self, I’m not Mari anymore. I have to admit that.
Doesn't matter anymore in Journal 2021
I feel bad but sometimes I wonder if it had been better to let Calin die. Helping him just earned me another betrayal after betrayal. Helping everyone just ruined everything. I think about this a...
Truth. in Journal 2021
I don’t think I was supposed to hear the conversation. My mother’s fiancee was talking about how he thinks I’ll basically drop out or give up and how I can’t take care of myself. And that my mom ...
Two Months Later in Journal 2021
Two months since the breakup. I managed to class pre calculus for the year. I am working on passing my current classes the hardest I can, I have a big test this week so I want to make sure I get ...
Falling apart in Journal 2021
I feel empty and broken aside. I’m so tired of everyone. I’m so tired of everything. I’m so empty, I just want to run away. I want to get away forever. I feel sick and alone. I’m all alone. I’m...
Break in Journal 2021
I pushed them out…
Mmm in Journal 2021
I have only college to look forward to. Relationship to good to be true. I dont want bragging or yelling so no more comments. The days go by as a blur. Have to try again to get my license. Everyt...
Sick in Journal 2021
I spoke to Nelson last night. I’m a horrible friend. I woke up sick.and I just want to die. I want to die so bad.
Fucking Sick in Journal 2021
I’m ill. Not with covid. I feel sick from everything, just everything. I might vomit soon. But anyway, we gotta get serious. Life is short and the way I’m fucking my body up now it’ll be a lot f...
A new year in Journal 2021
I’m about to go to bed. I’ve been bored all day. Lonely, anxious, bored. Sleeps my only escape. My body my mainframe hurts when I eat. No one will date me or live me romantically. I’m so tired. H...
Crush in Journal 2020
I want him to notice me I’ve been busy but today it came back. The feelings, they hurt me. I wonder if there’s just something wrong with me. I wish we could have normal conversations. He didn’t e...
Hurt in Journal 2020
He didnt want the gift. It was a horrible gift anyway who wants a letter for a gift. I cut myself off from any other mental health server owner, after what the few did I dont trust any of the oth...
Yesterday. in Journal 2020
Tiring
Today. in Journal 2020
I woke from crying in my sleep from nightmares and now I just feel exhausted but to scared to sleep. Yesterday was hell.
Christmas together... in Journal 2020
I guess I wanted to talk to him…its stupid
Holidays in Journal 2020
I honestly dont like or care for them anymore. I feel defeated and empty.
anniversary in Journal 2020
I wrote him a letter as gift. It was stupid gift and he has better things to do then read a stupid letter. With tons of more pretty girls to look at…I saw another today and just curled up in bed ...
ANNIVERSARY in Journal 2020
blows confetti blower today’s the day today’s the day. It’s our one month anniversary ^*^ I have to start on his gift I’m so excited and happy and ahhhhhh.
Update in Journal 2020
The anticipation of a message is killing me. It’s almost time for our anniversary, one month. I reread our messages over and over analyzing everything I could. I hope he messages today, I won’t ...
Hearrt in Journal 2020
I woke up today, like yesterday feeling sick and exhausted. But happy at first because maybe he messaged me! But he didn’t…I can wait though. My face was hurting because I smiling so hard at the ...
The night before in Journal 2020
I woke up today feeling dead. It’s like your entire body and mind hurts, it was really hard to deal with. But god fucking damnit I felt so happy! Everything had worked out and I’m never going to...
Thoughts in Journal 2020
Applied to Penn State today, it feels like a dream I cried during my personal statement…anyway so happy I have been offered a merit scholarship by my first at hood college ^^ Also it’s almost tim...
Update in Journal 2020
So much happened this week ;-; I argued with so many random people.
Gifts in Journal 2020
Is it weird to try and write poetry for xmas gifts? Idk…I want to write him love poems, ballads???? But I can’t sing…
Sad in Journal 2020
I feel exhausted and sad. I just want to be happy again with everyone and have a good life. But it’s always my fault…I just…want to end it.