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So I went to the store and bought more things for my moms huge gift. A small mini eyeshadow palette, a huge box of turdles, etc for mom. The biggest gift I’ve ever made and I got my brother some ...

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My friends and I went to see Spiderman no way home Monday. My best friend slept in so we went a few hours late and I was pissed because she’s been late alot recently, even to a our graduation pra...

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Bruh water and Jamaican detangler spray with a detangler brush really is a lifesaver. My thick ponytail holders finally came along with my large blowdryer brush and my container to hold it all. I...

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Today was okay i guess. My mom screamed in my face but besides that it was okay. My old house (great grandparents) is a hoarders den. Bugs, mice, etc probably reside. It made me so uncomfortable…...

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I thought I wrote in November! Anyway, I’ve been meaning to update but school and just forgetfulness got me. Plus all I have to talk about is really just college, job hunting, therapy and writin...

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It’s been a odd few weeks. College is like a blur. I feel tranfixed, overwhelmed and happy all at once. Exhauston is normal.

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So, I’m erping with that friend I talked about and I’m enjoying it and I just froze. Idk how to respond to him and I feel embarrassed to say anything 😕

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I have to apologize for not writing much this year, I’ve taken a step back from being so open. So school has been good, it’s a technical community college that’s about a hour walk from my house. ...

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Start college soon. Nervous

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I had a bunch of meltdowns over this but I think I’m finally ready. This weekend with my brother we will be riding the bus for the first time. We will go to my campus and then back home. I have t...

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I’m kinda sad, I miss my old friends but I cut myself off for a reason. I really really miss my friend Sebastain. I see him as a little brother but I need to work on myself before we talk. Some f...

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The year has been wild so far. I’m a adult now. I have a job. I’m enrolled in college. So much has happened and I don’t even know where to start. Yesterday I went with my mom to pawn her ex fianc...

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It’s been a lot of voices. A lot of hallucinating. A lot of hating work…he makes me feel better. I’m worried. I hate hate everything. I hate work. I hate being awake. I hate him not understanding...

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I had those thoughts again. The jealousy. As soon as it happened I felt awful. I guess I’m not really better yet. It was just a retweet of some girl with my friend and I got so angry and jealous...

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I’m alone but it’s alright. I have to get better alone. I have to.

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Didnt get to read comments yet sorry this is a quick entry as I’m exhuasted Usually when I cramp I take four to eight pain pills and rest. Recently I’ve started taking thera flu with everything. ...

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Still no bank account. Still no job. I feel like a failure. I might see a gynecologist for my periods but the thought of even letting a man there brings me to tears. My fear of men has worsen sad...

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Thank u for the graduation messages. I feel like I found my true friends. About maybe two. Everyone else only sees you as a object. Something you get something from. They aren’t friends. They’re ...

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I graduated highschool friday, it was a busy 2 weeks so yesterday I just ate so much and relaxed. Now onto finding a job as I am done with school until college. It all feels so strange, I used to...

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The comments have been really nice this time around and I re read them a lot to feel better when I’m done. Thank you so much.

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I wanna sleep forever, no more adult stuff. Just sleep

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I watched lovely bones today. I’ve watched the movie a lot as a kid and now it was just too much. I felt too uncomfortable and I lied saying I had to use the bathroom. Instead I just cried, I’m s...

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I just realized I didnt write about the suicide attempt on a live. Its embarrassing honestly. I don’t want to share it at all. I’m so exhausted. Sorry for being gone so long, I’ve just not been ...

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I was harassed again. At least I wasnt accused of pedophilia and fetishization. But it had suicide bating this time…thankfully it’s been handled but still hurt. It always hurt, it hurt the first ...

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John messaged me. I’m on guard. I don’t have time for games. I’m not my past self, I’m not Mari anymore. I have to admit that.

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