HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21 ⋅
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Bad day in Journal 2022
I wanted to write sometime nice or atleat detailed but it’s just not good right now. I finally got to cry over all of it and it’s not just Joseph. It’s other things irl I don’t feel brave enough ...
Anklss hunting and tired in Journal 2022
Mom made me angry this morning but whatever. She did my hair and it looks great. Joseph and I are speaking, it’s nice but also painful. My body feels broken. My ankles hurt, I’m tired, I’m beate...
He read the entry in Journal 2022
I thought about it but yeah, he did. We had a conversation and he shared how he felt bad reading how much I was hurt. He shared his thoughts and I shared mine. I feel good that we spoke, God, wh...
Getting sicker in Journal 2022
Bad news :( I am even sicker than before. At this point, I will need to talk to the store as I used all the headache medicine and I’ve almost used all the cold pills mom bought. She gave me some...
Sleeping 12 hours in Journal 2022
I slept for awhile today. Joseph and I talked but it just made me feel worse. It’s pride month, it’s the summer I should be having a great time. But I’m not, I’m just not. I have to upload the e...
How DARE HE in Journal 2022
how dare he even say that. He’s a liar, I tell myself this anytime I wanted to crack in tonight’s conversation. He’s a liar. He left you alone. He doesn’t care. He doesn’t care about you at all s...
I want to I want to in Journal 2022
I don’t know what I want. I’ve been rereading comments here and Joseph’s messages over and over. I have been really sick. Eating hurts. I was so frustrated I hurt my leg but it’s better now. Con...
Why would you guys say that in Journal 2022
I would never, ever use someone in a relationship. I loved him. I still do. I am not going to force someone to stay with me. Or try to convince them otherwise. That would be gross. Being told I ...
He left me, wow. in Journal 2022
I apologize if this is sudden, trust me I didn’t see this coming. J or Joseph, requested a break from us and honestly a break up. I had fears but honestly, I felt secure and confident. It hurt. ...
Welcome June, Goodbye May in Journal 2022
I was trying to find the right day to write a new entry. I might have lost aid for sophomore year which…sigh. J’s friends like me, even if they are wary of me. I was smiling hard either way as it...
First year of college coming to a close in Journal 2022
Mom made me calamari and a yummy shrimp/bacon salad. J and I haven’t had much time to talk. I, had to gather my thoughts to write a entry. I really, truly did. I can’t stop thinking about how mu...
Semester nearly over in Journal 2022
Just finished my last class before finals are due with a blast. Skipped my second period, was gucem free pizza, candy and doughnuts over the last few days. I need to spend this free time studyin...
GROSS GROSS GROSS in Journal 2022
I want to try sexting again for J but it feels gross. I don’t like being turned on, sorry, it’s just gross. I went to a specialist for my health issues and I was lost and I just wanted to go hom...
Warped Mindset in Journal 2022
I’m doing it again, doubting myself. I had a good week, weeks even, but this weekend has been bad. All I think about is our conversations And my fears. I applied for fall 2022 classes, if everyth...
Heavy Discussions and Mental Distress in Journal 2022
J and I had some hard talks today. He worries, that he not only makes me happy but depressed. I guess, maybe. I don’t know but I love J alot, he’s the softest, kindest, man I’ve ever met. I had ...
J makes me feel HAPPY in Journal 2022
J is so so nice ehehe. I was sad and made sure to pout and sniffle and message him. I wanted attention, sympathy and warmth and he immediately showered me with it. Sometimes, I wonder if they i...
Why am i so jealous in Journal 2022
Stalking J’s Twitter is something I try not to do often because I see comments that make me jealous. I used to breakdown with my ex doing this and I remember I laid in bed, crying and screaming i...
Nachos, Cheese fries and Exhaustion in Journal 2022
I had nachos for dinners and cheese fries for lunch! Yummy! I haven’t done much today. My brain is still depressed from everything that’s been going on, I started a few assignments for finals tho...
It will all be okay! :) in Journal 2022
I had applied for join my university’s newspaper for the summer and I got a interview! So excited so happy! I cannot wait to do it, this is one step towards my dream. But that dream is hanging o...
J's birthday and Purity Rant in Journal 2022
Soon it will be J’s birthday! I’m so excited, he said he doesn’t want anything besides me to VA for one of his projects. I’ve never voice acted before but I’ll do it for him. J’s explained he’s n...
Possible Pregnancy, impurities and gross. in Journal 2022
I have had a average time. J is nice, he is such a caring and selfless person. Recently, I’ve started asking online in various reddit and forums how to become unbroken. I don’t like that I have ...
A nice warm shower in Journal 2022
Life has been average I suppose. I got on my period the day before my birthday so I mostly stayed in my pajamas that day, eating various sweet treats and desserts. I’ve just been talking to J I ...
Tomorrow I'm 19 in Journal 2022
And I feel ready. I’m excited but this year I’ll have a meal I can’t wait to eat. I do have to worry about some grades but I won’t let that weight me down, I’ll fight as hard as I can to maintain...
I wanna rip her head off in Journal 2022
I get jealous easily. Spent to many entries talking about it to explain why. I feel so hot with a sick fever and jealousy. I don’t care if J has friends but I feel… boiling at some words. I’m je...
Sexual Exploration in Journal 2022
J and I have started to be sexual with one another, it’s a nice change. It’s slow sexting but I feel like I can enjoy it and not depend on being depressed or hating myself like before. J truly is...