HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21 ⋅

I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.

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June 19, 2022

Bad day in Journal 2022

I wanted to write sometime nice or atleat detailed but it’s just not good right now. I finally got to cry over all of it and it’s not just Joseph. It’s other things irl I don’t feel brave enough ...


Mom made me angry this morning but whatever. She did my hair and it looks great. Joseph and I are speaking, it’s nice but also painful. My body feels broken. My ankles hurt, I’m tired, I’m beate...


June 15, 2022

He read the entry in Journal 2022

I thought about it but yeah, he did. We had a conversation and he shared how he felt bad reading how much I was hurt. He shared his thoughts and I shared mine. I feel good that we spoke, God, wh...


June 12, 2022

Getting sicker in Journal 2022

Bad news :( I am even sicker than before. At this point, I will need to talk to the store as I used all the headache medicine and I’ve almost used all the cold pills mom bought. She gave me some...


June 12, 2022

Sleeping 12 hours in Journal 2022

I slept for awhile today. Joseph and I talked but it just made me feel worse. It’s pride month, it’s the summer I should be having a great time. But I’m not, I’m just not. I have to upload the e...


June 11, 2022

How DARE HE in Journal 2022

how dare he even say that. He’s a liar, I tell myself this anytime I wanted to crack in tonight’s conversation. He’s a liar. He left you alone. He doesn’t care. He doesn’t care about you at all s...


I don’t know what I want. I’ve been rereading comments here and Joseph’s messages over and over. I have been really sick. Eating hurts. I was so frustrated I hurt my leg but it’s better now. Con...


I would never, ever use someone in a relationship. I loved him. I still do. I am not going to force someone to stay with me. Or try to convince them otherwise. That would be gross. Being told I ...


June 07, 2022

He left me, wow. in Journal 2022

I apologize if this is sudden, trust me I didn’t see this coming. J or Joseph, requested a break from us and honestly a break up. I had fears but honestly, I felt secure and confident. It hurt. ...


I was trying to find the right day to write a new entry. I might have lost aid for sophomore year which…sigh. J’s friends like me, even if they are wary of me. I was smiling hard either way as it...


Mom made me calamari and a yummy shrimp/bacon salad. J and I haven’t had much time to talk. I, had to gather my thoughts to write a entry. I really, truly did. I can’t stop thinking about how mu...


Just finished my last class before finals are due with a blast. Skipped my second period, was gucem free pizza, candy and doughnuts over the last few days. I need to spend this free time studyin...


I want to try sexting again for J but it feels gross. I don’t like being turned on, sorry, it’s just gross. I went to a specialist for my health issues and I was lost and I just wanted to go hom...


May 08, 2022

Warped Mindset in Journal 2022

I’m doing it again, doubting myself. I had a good week, weeks even, but this weekend has been bad. All I think about is our conversations And my fears. I applied for fall 2022 classes, if everyth...


J and I had some hard talks today. He worries, that he not only makes me happy but depressed. I guess, maybe. I don’t know but I love J alot, he’s the softest, kindest, man I’ve ever met. I had ...


J is so so nice ehehe. I was sad and made sure to pout and sniffle and message him. I wanted attention, sympathy and warmth and he immediately showered me with it. Sometimes, I wonder if they i...


April 24, 2022

Why am i so jealous in Journal 2022

Stalking J’s Twitter is something I try not to do often because I see comments that make me jealous. I used to breakdown with my ex doing this and I remember I laid in bed, crying and screaming i...


I had nachos for dinners and cheese fries for lunch! Yummy! I haven’t done much today. My brain is still depressed from everything that’s been going on, I started a few assignments for finals tho...


I had applied for join my university’s newspaper for the summer and I got a interview! So excited so happy! I cannot wait to do it, this is one step towards my dream. But that dream is hanging o...


Soon it will be J’s birthday! I’m so excited, he said he doesn’t want anything besides me to VA for one of his projects. I’ve never voice acted before but I’ll do it for him. J’s explained he’s n...


I have had a average time. J is nice, he is such a caring and selfless person. Recently, I’ve started asking online in various reddit and forums how to become unbroken. I don’t like that I have ...


April 12, 2022

A nice warm shower in Journal 2022

Life has been average I suppose. I got on my period the day before my birthday so I mostly stayed in my pajamas that day, eating various sweet treats and desserts. I’ve just been talking to J I ...


April 01, 2022

Tomorrow I'm 19 in Journal 2022

And I feel ready. I’m excited but this year I’ll have a meal I can’t wait to eat. I do have to worry about some grades but I won’t let that weight me down, I’ll fight as hard as I can to maintain...


I get jealous easily. Spent to many entries talking about it to explain why. I feel so hot with a sick fever and jealousy. I don’t care if J has friends but I feel… boiling at some words. I’m je...


March 20, 2022

Sexual Exploration in Journal 2022

J and I have started to be sexual with one another, it’s a nice change. It’s slow sexting but I feel like I can enjoy it and not depend on being depressed or hating myself like before. J truly is...


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