HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21 ⋅
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Happier in heaven in Journal 2022
I just feel overwhelmed and I have no one else to talk to. I tried to make friends on campus, I tried to go to the movies and I’m flaked on again, I’m done trying. I just wish deep inside I just ...
College and Numbness in Journal 2022
I’ve been gone for awhile. I honestly just didn’t have much to say. Classes are busy, I feel overwhelmed honestly and tired. So tired. I just hope maybe, I can have some time to make some friends...
These me do not care at the end of the day in Journal 2022
I got my period so my week was eh. Two of th guys I guess I talk to seem to have a thing for kidnapping. It’s very ironic to me with my brother’s parental kidnapping (I mention this in my 2018 e...
Where the fuck I've been and what I've been doing in Journal 2022
Hey, I’ve been gone for nearly a month. I guess I should explain myself. I guess I’ve started sexting. I told myself that I needed to let go of Joseph and my pain. I needed to self destruct, I h...
College and Spirituality in Journal 2022
I started to feel really hopeless. So I asked the universe to send me a sign of some kind. I will play around with my tarot tomorrow to ask for guidance. Something. I don’t know if I will stop ha...
Purple Hearts and Why I Hate Military Propaganda in Journal 2022
I don’t like the military all that much. I find the whole ROTC and the way the military pushes itself onto highschoolers very brainwashy. Recently a book adaption came out and as I love books I w...
Privacy in Journal 2022
I don’t want to be attracted to any gender anymore. I just want to be sage. I talked to my friend and he said I couldn’t think that way. I understand but I just can’t do it again. I have extreme ...
Relatives and so tired in Journal 2022
I’m really sleepy, I just wanna lay down all week. Everything feels uninteresting, unmotivating and blurry. I feel like the days go by in a wink. I talked to a friend yesterday,he’s nice. Really...
Bad dreams about breakup in Journal 2022
Hi everyone, I have to make this quick. It’s very late and I feel a migraine coming on. I get those constantly now as mentioned before. It feels awful now. I got my hair done and my friend cancel...
Another school year in Journal 2022
In a month I have university. It feels endless, like I’m in a endless cycle and honestly I’m really scared to start school. I’m scared I’ll fail again and not be able to graduate, I hate it. I t...
Changes in Journal 2022
The baby shower for my cousin is going to be soon. I need to hurry and order another gift for her, maybe some baby books as I planned. Overall, I’m kinda excited for her but also worried due to h...
Insulted behind my back in Journal 2022
I don’t like talking to people for a reason. I felt hurt seeing others on a chat I’ve never been in insult me without even knowing who I am. I just, I don’t know. There’s that tiny version in me ...
Alone in the night in Journal 2022
I felt lonely, so I decided to write today. I miss having someone to talk to at night. I don’t really do much besides study for school (I got my aid back yay), write, watch TV or comment on tv. ...
Very Sick in Journal 2022
Today I went to a store for a interview and I just, didn’t go. I could tell from everything there I would hate working there and it was so empty I kept walking in circles trying to find anyone to...
I waited 2 days. in Journal 2022
I waited 2 days for anything. Anything at all. I told myself to not be rash with making decisions. I’m gonna just dissappear for awhile, maybe a few months if everything goes as planned. I just ...
Rash decision in Journal 2022
I don’t want to make any rushed choices so I told myself I’ll wait a few more days. I might get a new therapist whose also black and younger, my moms super excited and kind of pushy for me to do...
I dont want to stay awake in Journal 2022
Im trying to not do what he said but i can’t because now I just feel bad about myself. I woke up feeling bad and I cried alot and I’m still crying. I just don’t wanna leave the house today. I ju...
Not sleeping in Journal 2022
I don’t feel good so I’ve been up this entire time listening to music and reality tv and just feeling not great. I keep thinking about it, my personality and me not caring. I’ll maybe idk tell m...
He gave his honest answer in Journal 2022
It’s my personality. I try to hard, I’m too insecure and he thinks I didn’t actually care. When I heard the not caring about our relationship part, I admit, I choked up a bit and wrote five dif...
He's being nicer now in Journal 2022
Joseph is being so kind now, it confuses me. He talks to me more often and compliments me and acts so gentle it hurts. It hurts because I really wanna be independent, I wanna make myself feel how...
He texted me ^^ in Journal 2022
I need to write a big entry this morning so I’m sorry if alot is going on. I got attacked by a bee and it flew in my breasts 🙃. But besides that little five second panic of me screaming and tear...
Writing Again & WTF in Journal 2022
I started writing and planning out my next novella. Nearly 2k words so far. I also finished First Kill, netflix’s lesbian ya tv show, very cheesy but I want another season atleast. I went out wi...
Isolation in Journal 2022
I don’t know what to say here, I haven’t been feeling good these past few days. Not like myself. I have been showering and eating but I don’t care about anything. I just want to sleep. I will ad...
butterfly effect. in Journal 2022
That’s it that’s the title. I was talking to Joseph and I just felt something come over me. This feeling of emptiness, this feeling of pure nothing. I haven’t been having a good few days and I ...
Bad day in Journal 2022
I wanted to write sometime nice or atleat detailed but it’s just not good right now. I finally got to cry over all of it and it’s not just Joseph. It’s other things irl I don’t feel brave enough ...
