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Hey diary. I’m sad, the usual kinda just exhausted..nothing to write again.

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That movie, that album is iconic and I shall forever cherish Melanie Martinez. I never really liked her music to the point of worship, only knowing/liking her songs Carousel and Dollhouse. Over t...

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I can’t find any answers and I’m in tears at this point. Genophobia. It makes sense but it also doesn’t. Every article I found says it’s rape or culture pressure that causes it. I just don’t have...

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He’s actively ignoring me now and I feel like crap. Every time, i get my hopes uo and I now I feel stupid I haven’t been able to write in here since I feel so.dumb about my entries I don’t even t...

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Dear Alex, I regret agreeing to ever date you last spring. You seemed so strong, so defiant and so cute I couldn’t help but like you. I should have listened to all of our friends who told me it w...

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So we talked and he revealed he’s been super stressed lately and needs time alone to clear his head. I started to cry a bit, because I just feel useless kinda if I can’t be someone he can to when...

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WOW MOM I’M TO DEPENDENT ON YOU? WHEN YOU LITERALLY HAVE A WHOLE DAMN FIT IF I DON’T HUG YOU OR SNUGGLE WITH YOU. OKAY FINE.

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Goodnight, hopefully.

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I don’t know what to do with all the pills. I think your supposed to flush them down the toilet when you don’t take them but have to hide the fact. I’ll do that I think. John said I didn’t have t...

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It feels like he doesn’t. Like he doesn’t even love me anymore, they’re empty words to me. I can’t even feel anything in my heart anymore. It feels empty and dead now. He won’t text me for nearly...

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I feel so dumb, I just left the writing group as soon as I could. I found a review on one of my old works online and got super excited to see i was invited to a online writing group! I haven’t wr...

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I feel like a horrible person. I want to die so badly I’m even fantasizing about it. I’m terrified of anyone find where I live on here and contacting my family. I’ll be punished and I can’t take ...

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I’m confused…but I’m okay. I had a dream that felt so real, a dream where I was about to try and overdoes again. I felt so happy in that dream, with two other people. It was like at that moment I...

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Another day of being tired.

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The world is kicking me in the gut again, to the point I’m getting anxious and nervous. My boyfriend seems so distant it’s weird. When we went about before I was never this anxious about our rela...

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Guess whose boyfriend is going to the doctor because he thinks he has a blood clot in his leg. .-. besides, that I’m doing midly better than before. I watched the Steven universe movie which was ...

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I’m kinda no I’m definitely worried about my waist. One of the bones in my hip I think is like wierd. I don’t know if I’m losing weight or what but it’s really visible to the point I thought it w...

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Thank you all for your kind comments around these entries, especially the last one. I’m scared to tell anyone that I’m scared of having those urges. Because … It’s just scary, everything is terr...

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I’m better I guess, my boyfriend and i talked about how sexual things made me uncomfortable and he was fine with it. It felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders … But then it didn’t. B...

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I think, he wants us to have sex when we meet up. And idk…I don’t want to, I hide my desired under lots of shame and disgust and hurt and hatred. Over my time gone i tried to…you know but that di...

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I’m okay

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I write a blog now for the online community/support group I run. It’s very cutesy and speaks really well to the person I am deep inside. If anyone knows any cute gifs that relate to comfort and m...

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So my ex returned, after their ex cheated on them. They where heartbroken, turning my best friend for a relationship which enraged me. They confessed to my best friend, J after apologizing to me ...

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So much has happened in the past week, no two weeks. One of those things is my ex who broke up with me right before I became active on here, came back right after being broken up with/being rejec...

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I’m back and I feel kinda okay. I almost had a good entry and update but then I had to go and make myself upset, get self conscious, cry, get my friends worried about me and run off to hide in my...

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