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I tried everything guys. I didn’t do anything to drive him away. I tried so bad. And he…he…lied. I saw in a server with my own eyes last week he talked about how he wasn’t over his ex, how the en...

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I don’t know if I want to write the mess that happened mid afternoon. I’ll write it tommorow or later tonight. Quite a mess indeed. Anyway, my boyfriend has been such a cutie recently. A adorable...

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So far my day has been good, besides a horrific nightmare/sleep paralysis experience this morning. It shook me to the core as I couldn’t move stalk for a few minutes, I barely slept for like two...

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So Emi and I made up. He seems healthier, he got himself a partner seventeen days ago(?) and he just seems more happy! I’m really happy for him. <3 Anyway, life’s been hectic I’m unsure. If I ...

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I know you can see this. And I don’t regret saying i wished i never met you. Because I don’t, you treated me… like…like I was your property.

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Last night my friend did want to fuck me. But it was a girl this time. Anyway, I found myself not being scared by what she was texting because a) she was a girl b) she isn’t like that despite fac...

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I’m well aware of the fact i give to many chsnces. I know. I try to be very open and kind. But it does backfire. And it does open yourself to uncomfortable situations…

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For nearly a month it’s worsened and worsened. I feel empty, I’m trying my best

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I’ve been trying so hard. And I keep trying to. But it never is enough. It never is.

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I didn’t think Will, would do that. I honestly hope I’m wrong. But if I’m not…I can’t believe it. Did he think I’d leave Isaac for him? Hell no. In my anger at thinking Isaac cheated I said I’d ...

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I’m tired. Today was a exhausting day, I ate cheeseballs and pizza and potato wedges and drank orange juice and water. Good. I feel sick and hurt but it’s okay. Just gotta keep working on these r...

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I don’t want him to die. He had begun starving himself in my absent. I hate myself, for thinking breaking off our friendship would serve him well. Life was better for him even though he was dying...

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I’ve been busy. I finally decided to tell the owner of the support group what happened, after a friend convincing me now was the best time. I was shaky, not knowing what to say or do. I didn’t co...

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I know Celtic cares about me but I know if something where to happen with me and Madi she’d always take her side. Always. This kinda came to me at random but it made sense. Madi’s more important....

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I rarely talk to Isaac now, it’s kinda upsetting but he’s super busy and I just have to be patient. Some stuff has been going on at home that I’ll write about later.

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I feel really unhappy recently but I’m scared to say anything to anyone…or say why…

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I didn’t get to talk to daddy at all yesterday and it’s all my fault. I think I scared him away. I had this stupid idea… really stupid idea. I talked to Celtic about it and she told me be careful...

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Okay, so I’ve realized I must plan out my matchmaking adventure. I need the three of them in a healthy mindset, good economic place and ofcourse still interested in one another. I’ve decided I n...

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I told Celtic about Emi and she was horrified. She told me that I’m not his toy, that I shouldn’t offer my body to him when he’s upset. It made me feel so bad telling her because I said I wouldn’...

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I feel as though there’s going to be a rough entry soon, not about me but let’s buckle up. I’m the emotional support.

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I don’t have a happy place anymore. It’s all gross and mucky and wrong now. But that’s okay. These things happen. I been blacking out a lot. And barely controlling myself from falling asleep. But...

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Well, that didn’t go as planned. Today I decided to let all my vents out to a friend and what do they do? Ask for a virtual hug. And ignore it. After a while. I gave up my boyfriend ended up read...

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I’m going to explain what happened on Christmas. So, in my past entry I talked about how this “friend” I had lied about DID. A serious disorder and was basically given a slap on the wrist. She wa...

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So, I used another diary site before this before goodnight journal. I ended up deleting it because a whole bunch of creeps where commenting once my entire got more detailed and graphic. I regret ...

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I kinda realized I do have a good amount of people reading this, so I need to set something up so people know who I’m talking about. Xela = Kai = Ali (ex girlfriend) Babi = Chlo IRL BFF = Cousin...

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