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I feel hurt. I love kayden but I’m a burden to him. My mind is making it clear. I’ve had nightmares regarding our friendship and how much I’ve tainted it. I need to be a good person and leave him...

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Can’t think of any title. SATs tommorow. Nervous as always. Menstrual cycle started. Didn’t puke this time. Just had to pee. I’m in bed, thinking of Linka. He’s an amazing boyfriend. Amazing per...

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What’s been happening 1) another creep using me and attempting to manipulate me in a weak state. 2) incoming SATs this wendsday. 3) set up my senior classes, taking four classes and only three ma...

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Adding on to the previous entry, I think Kayden’s annoyed with me. So is Wolfie. And Fairy. Everyone is annoyed with me…even Linka :(

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I think I’m pushing Kayden away

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Crying

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Fairyfriend is so perfect, Linky must have told her so much about his life. Lily is perfect to, Kayden tell me all the time. Joy’s just as perfect as the both of them… I feel so jealous....why ca...

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I feel sicker than when I had the flu… probably from crying so much… God…I just want to lay down and hife

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Another bad day and it’s barely even started…barely slept…spent a lot of the time coughing or crying my eyes out.....

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boyfriend doesn’t get it about my mom I won’t mention it anymore

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I feel like I’m all alone in the cold

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I need to write, I feel like I might pass out. I’m very tired mentally and physically, I feel emotionally drained. I just want to do my boyfriend right....but I’m not and I feel like I’m losing h...

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I think I need to sleep more, my hallucinations are coming back in the tenfold. I just had one about my keyboard on my phone and I restarted it in a panic. I’m paraniod about my bf, I’m scared he...

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I’m writing this because I feel like it’s time. This diary I want my daughter to read when I’m old enough to have one and maybe she’ll understand why her mother is understandable. I had a thirty ...

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I don’t know if I trust my mom anymore or if I ever did. Sure, I get along with her but I don’t really trust her now. She acts as if I’m always mad or this bad, rude person. I’m not. This is why ...

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Since they diary I’ve made many friends. And I’ve lost many of them. I started to wonder if I’m the problem and reason why but I can’t find anyway to prove that. If so it must be my personality, ...

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I’m so angry I don’t know know why I’m just so so angry. I’m crying I’m so angry. I want to just scribble on paper until I can’t stop. I feel my insides boiling and I just want to kick and scream...

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Emi left. And I tried to DM him today only to remember her left. John doesn’t want to do anything anymore and since that’s the only way we talked we’re never talking anymore I guess. Lili’s alter...

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I was never meant to be a good person. I was never meant to be happy. I get that now. I’m tired of trying and then all my work is thrown in my face. I don’t recognize myself anymore. I feel more ...

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There’s bad people in the world and today kinda proved to me how bad you try, you will be seen as a bad person. It will make you rot and went to tear yourself apart from the inside, you’ll want t...

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Wolfie was nice today, he sent me some nice messages. I regret my crush I had on him so much, I only told him to help not make our friendship uncomfortable. He’s twenty three and I’d never date a...

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So. Yeah life’s been sicky. I’ve been trying to talk to John, Lili or Kayden about stuff. But I pretty much gave up. I just. Gave up for a good reason, just trust me on this. Something happened y...

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Guess who has the flu! Anyway, today I ate lots of food. Because I’m excited because I learned my weight at the doctor’s Thursday. They where checking my measurements and turns out I’m actually ...

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A friend deleted a comment i made in public on their account, saying I’d cause them trouble at school… This is why I prefer stuffed animals. They’re never ashamed of you. Or yell at you. Or get d...

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Today… I’ve wondered if writing journals is really worth it in the end. I’ve been doing this for nearly a year now and it’s sad to see how much has gone wrong. However, many things have gone righ...

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