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Last night I lost it. Mom and I had a incident and she accudnelty pushed my face in a cabinet, said everyone hates my personality and the way I act. In retaliation, I destroyed my thighs. They ar...

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I tried to purge yesterday

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I watched this short documentary on the “dark side” of harajuku and I really liked it. I was suprised I avoided watching it for so long it was really good. Anyways I had someone flag or something...

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I’ve had this account for over a year and it still amazes me. I’m proud of myself for writing even if it wasnt day to day.

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Sometimes I just sit and cry.

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Hey. Abandonment life. Kayden abandoned me. Ben…yeah. Single life to. I’ll explain in a later entry the breakup but today we have to focus on my health. I ate a lot.todsy. couldn’t finish dinner....

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I feel really really bad :( Everyday, I feel weaker now. My chest hurts really bad, my legs ache to the point they feel useless and I can barely stay awake. I’m trying to eat more than snacking ...

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I just ate a bowl of half cooked, pre cooked chicken nuggets. I am supposed to be watching a movie with Calin and others but it wouldnt load for me. I dont wanna ruin the movie so I’m being quiet...

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So, my YouTube channel is getting a lot buzz. I’m honestly shocked that people wre noticing it and I’m feeling self conscious. I wonder if I take a break but then requests are coming in soooo fas...

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I washed and combed my hair today. My mom said I did good. Today was good, still had its ups and downs. I dont want to talk about the downs.

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Sorry for not writing more I just have t had the time. Same old heartbreak from friends and relationships happening. I’ve been fighting a mean cold to. I just dont want to lose Calin. We’re on a ...

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I feel dead inside. Just have to keep the smile up.

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I wrote this to Kayden about Lili, I still dont think I’ll ever get my pain across until I break free from it all. Okay I’m tired of feeling bad so imma say this: was me banning lili petty? Maybe...

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Written April fifth 2019 I feel like I’m burdening so many people. Yesterday, my friend Dray finally messaged me. I was really happy as we have none each other for a while, for 5 years almost. I...

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Its my bday and itz gone well…just I fobt know.... I feel like I’m a burden idk why Everyone’s so and want to care for me…I feel like dirt…going to my happy place more I cant wait to just be gon...

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So my school closed for a few weeks a week ago and some change due to the virus. I’ve been home, lounging around leaving to only go to the store and such. I’ve been bored as heck honestly. Watch...

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Calin is such strange boy. A strange boy, I have. I cant help but wonder what had happened if instead of the others, i found Calin instead. What would have happened if i had been asked out by him...

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