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Manuel said he’s going to get me three rings. A promise ring, engagement ring and wedding ring. I felt OVER the moon hearing this. I always assumed a engagement ring was the same as a wedding rin...

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Currently on the run around trying to get my author account verified on another site. Also found my book under some other author’s goodreads account further proving I chose a BAD pen name. Good t...

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I’m struggling with my sophomore novel (I released the one). I’m having a lot of ideas come out and writing huge stories then dropping them 20k words in. It’s a real pickle. But anyway. There’s ...

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We spoke. I have been in what I can only describe a maniac state of anxiety and fear and I spent that night I wrote my previous entry up blasting club and hyper music, crying my eyes out hyperven...

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It’s a new year for me and it came so fast. I’m in a happy relationship, a intern and passing all my classes. It’s a total contrast of what my life was in the end of 2022 to Jan 1st 2023. I have...

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It’s a new year for me and it came so fast. I’m in a happy relationship, a intern and passing all my classes. It’s a total contrast of what my life was in the end of 2022 to Jan 1st 2023. I have...

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It’s a new year for me and it came so fast. I’m in a happy relationship, a intern and passing all my classes. It’s a total contrast of what my life was in the end of 2022 to Jan 1st 2023. I have...

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What’s been going on and how I’ve been doing. Manuel has been helping me and taking care of me. Long distance of course. He has bought me gifts and a stuffed animal. I feel so grateful, no one h...

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I took the dive and dated the guy 10 years older. So far, it’s been great. His family loves me and his friends all want to meet me! I fear him leaving me like I always do but he supports and pro...

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I’m turning comments off for the rest of this month. He took me on two virtual dates, gave me access to his Netflix and bought me something already. Some may think it’s the bare minimum but to me...

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They don’t want to meet me. I’m not sad. I feel like I’m not that impressive in the first place. So I was like oh yeah that makes sense. I am going to work hard so they like me. I can be likeab...

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Hi. So, this wasn’t planned. I honestly was shocked I was asked out but I’m taking the chance. He’s very sweet, I actually kind of know one of his friends and we were friends beforehand. I had a...

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I’m sorry for updating like this. I have been so wound up recently, food is my only solace. I went to a grand opening with friends but I feel so gross. I ordered food and feel gross. A guy at sc...

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It’s been over a month since I’ve written. My mind has been a mess, my body feels weakened and fragile. I keep writing various fictional novels with a lot weighing on me. I don’t know how to writ...

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I haven’t been doing well. I’m working hard in school but I’m haunted by Joseph’s words. I don’t know how to act towards him now. I feel like some sort of unstable burden on him and everyone else...

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I felt immense guilt reading that. Honestly, I just felt myself lock my inner self in a box for the last time. Sharing emotions just hurts people. I’m not a good person and even the kindest of pe...

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I’m skipping school tomorrow. I read his comments about me. How I treated him like a animal, how I didn’t value him as a human being. I had no energy to cry, I have no doubts he’s correct. I kind...

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I’ve started my spring sophomore semester. It feels surreal because if everything had gone as planned I’d be graduating. But honestly I don’t mind it, I just need one more semester. I’ve liked t...

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Haven’t had much to write about. I’m still writing and my stories are doing well. But I feel, very uneasy. Just, been very stressful this month and I feel like there’s no point in talking about i...

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Hi, I apologize for disappearing so long. I’ve taken the reading manwha and manhua since Christmas eve and it really consumed me. Last night I meant to write but my mother screamed in my face for...

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I apologize for disappearing, I’ve been very sick for the past few weeks. The doctors are sending me a inhaler which is nice, my mom swears I have a lung infection. Idk. Finals are next week, I’m...

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When he said this I found it nice. Today was okay, I guess I shouldn’t refer to him as a animal anymore. Uh I guess I’ll call him JK since I’ve used J before for Joseph. JK is nice I guess. I f...

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Today was something. My brother humiliated me in public again. I don’t have any energy as I write this tonight. I feel so alone, so done with the world over school and family and struggles to get...

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I haven’t been updating or writing much due to school. I have been trying to keep my grades stable, I need to contact my professor about my family printer having no ink. My break starts soon and ...

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I passed out a few times and slammed my head into the ground the last time. My younger brother who I don’t mention alot due to his privacy and the fact when this diary started he was like 12/13, ...

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