HoniBunnyCakey ⋅ 21 ⋅
I'm a pan girl with some issues and some dreams. I want to be author someday and live a comfortable life with someone.
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Ashamed of my behavior in Journal 2024
Manuel said he’s going to get me three rings. A promise ring, engagement ring and wedding ring. I felt OVER the moon hearing this. I always assumed a engagement ring was the same as a wedding rin...
Run Around For Payment in Journal 2024
Currently on the run around trying to get my author account verified on another site. Also found my book under some other author’s goodreads account further proving I chose a BAD pen name. Good t...
Sophomore Release Blues & Dread in Journal 2024
I’m struggling with my sophomore novel (I released the one). I’m having a lot of ideas come out and writing huge stories then dropping them 20k words in. It’s a real pickle. But anyway. There’s ...
Boyfriend Woes in Journal 2024
We spoke. I have been in what I can only describe a maniac state of anxiety and fear and I spent that night I wrote my previous entry up blasting club and hyper music, crying my eyes out hyperven...
New Year & New Me Hopefully in Journal 2024
It’s a new year for me and it came so fast. I’m in a happy relationship, a intern and passing all my classes. It’s a total contrast of what my life was in the end of 2022 to Jan 1st 2023. I have...
New Year & New Me Hopefully in Journal 2024
It’s a new year for me and it came so fast. I’m in a happy relationship, a intern and passing all my classes. It’s a total contrast of what my life was in the end of 2022 to Jan 1st 2023. I have...
New Year & New Me Hopefully in Journal 2024
It’s a new year for me and it came so fast. I’m in a happy relationship, a intern and passing all my classes. It’s a total contrast of what my life was in the end of 2022 to Jan 1st 2023. I have...
A foggy couple months in Journal 2023
What’s been going on and how I’ve been doing. Manuel has been helping me and taking care of me. Long distance of course. He has bought me gifts and a stuffed animal. I feel so grateful, no one h...
A healthy relationship! in Journal 2023
I took the dive and dated the guy 10 years older. So far, it’s been great. His family loves me and his friends all want to meet me! I fear him leaving me like I always do but he supports and pro...
2 Dates = Great Time in Journal 2023
I’m turning comments off for the rest of this month. He took me on two virtual dates, gave me access to his Netflix and bought me something already. Some may think it’s the bare minimum but to me...
Meeting his friends in Journal 2023
They don’t want to meet me. I’m not sad. I feel like I’m not that impressive in the first place. So I was like oh yeah that makes sense. I am going to work hard so they like me. I can be likeab...
Dating a 30 year old in Journal 2023
Hi. So, this wasn’t planned. I honestly was shocked I was asked out but I’m taking the chance. He’s very sweet, I actually kind of know one of his friends and we were friends beforehand. I had a...
Harassment at Uni in Journal 2023
I’m sorry for updating like this. I have been so wound up recently, food is my only solace. I went to a grand opening with friends but I feel so gross. I ordered food and feel gross. A guy at sc...
Seashells and Slumber in Journal 2023
It’s been over a month since I’ve written. My mind has been a mess, my body feels weakened and fragile. I keep writing various fictional novels with a lot weighing on me. I don’t know how to writ...
Anxieties in Journal 2023
I haven’t been doing well. I’m working hard in school but I’m haunted by Joseph’s words. I don’t know how to act towards him now. I feel like some sort of unstable burden on him and everyone else...
Moving on in Journal 2023
I felt immense guilt reading that. Honestly, I just felt myself lock my inner self in a box for the last time. Sharing emotions just hurts people. I’m not a good person and even the kindest of pe...
Cold Rainfall in Journal 2023
I’m skipping school tomorrow. I read his comments about me. How I treated him like a animal, how I didn’t value him as a human being. I had no energy to cry, I have no doubts he’s correct. I kind...
Spring semester in Journal 2023
I’ve started my spring sophomore semester. It feels surreal because if everything had gone as planned I’d be graduating. But honestly I don’t mind it, I just need one more semester. I’ve liked t...
Jan 31. 2023 in Journal 2023
Haven’t had much to write about. I’m still writing and my stories are doing well. But I feel, very uneasy. Just, been very stressful this month and I feel like there’s no point in talking about i...
Writing and Manwha in Journal 2023
Hi, I apologize for disappearing so long. I’ve taken the reading manwha and manhua since Christmas eve and it really consumed me. Last night I meant to write but my mother screamed in my face for...
Lung issues & writing in Journal 2022
I apologize for disappearing, I’ve been very sick for the past few weeks. The doctors are sending me a inhaler which is nice, my mom swears I have a lung infection. Idk. Finals are next week, I’m...
I'm his drug apparently in Journal 2022
When he said this I found it nice. Today was okay, I guess I shouldn’t refer to him as a animal anymore. Uh I guess I’ll call him JK since I’ve used J before for Joseph. JK is nice I guess. I f...
Sleeping Pills in Journal 2022
Today was something. My brother humiliated me in public again. I don’t have any energy as I write this tonight. I feel so alone, so done with the world over school and family and struggles to get...
Update before Thanksgiving in Journal 2022
I haven’t been updating or writing much due to school. I have been trying to keep my grades stable, I need to contact my professor about my family printer having no ink. My break starts soon and ...
Almost taken to the ER in Journal 2022
I passed out a few times and slammed my head into the ground the last time. My younger brother who I don’t mention alot due to his privacy and the fact when this diary started he was like 12/13, ...