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Ok. I need to think, and in order to think, I need to write. Also, I’m cold, so walking while I type all this out will help me warm up. “Turn up the heat?” Part of why I keep it cold is so that I...

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Where to start… Over the last week I hit a high point of 208.8lbs. To say that frustrated me would be an understatement. But over this weekend I went to Habitat, did some good work there, and fou...

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Today on reddit I learned about a guy who developed “Mr. Spock” in his mind to help him look at his own life from abstract and logical point of view. He used it as a tool to get over being too ha...

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Anxiety. That is the best word to describe how I’ve been feeling for… a long time. Roe Jogan (Go Rojan? Hoe Jogan? Joe Rogan!), via Youtube’s black magic algorithm that only shows popular and non...

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This is a reply I wrote to a friend, but it was entirely too long to send to her. So instead, I am posting it here, then paring it down to something more manageable for her. Thanks so much for ta...

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Ever feel the need to just write? Well, I don’t really have that so much as I have a combination of sickening boredom, lack of purpose, and free time. I lost my job last week. Specifically, I was...

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I was going to write this as a letter to my mother. But in reality, I don’t want to share any of this with her. I don’t really need her opinion so much as I need to write down what’s in my head t...

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I took today off from Habitat. Partly because I was starting to burn out in my soul, partly because my muscles were sore, partly because the group we had Wednesday was…I got to interact with the ...

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Woo! Vacation week. Yesterday was a women’s build day with Habitat and I spent the day with two ladies jackhammering out a floor in the basement of a house we’re renovating. The ground water is u...

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I’m glad I met Sarah before I got my money. I played the scenarios out in my head a bunch of times and always came to the same conclusion, someone who cared that you had money and wanted some in ...

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First post and disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. I do not have the life I claim to have here. For more info, read the book description. The idea is to write here daily to train myself to be ...

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So, I finally understand why I hate my job now and I didn’t back when I first got hired. I finally managed to work out what has gotten under my skin and totally sapped out my joy. Short version, ...

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My walkstation is doing its job today. I didn’t walk yesterday, but I did help install a drainage pipe that tuckered me out pretty good. But today…I’ve overeaten, I’m paying for eating potato wed...

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There will be Endgame spoilers in this post. Mostly because I want to talk about one of the characters and something someone on Reddit pointed out. Hopefully this is enough text to block out the ...

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I have been realizing / thinking a lot, recently, about the fact that I am waiting to start my life. I don’t have a life. Not really anyway. You see, I spent my teenage and early 20 years getting...

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I spent my entire life obese. The first time I stepped on a scale I think I was 85 lbs, and that was before my 10th birthday. By the time I was a teenager I was over 300 lbs. By the time I gradua...

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