
BossElLobba ⋅ 37 ⋅
I walk while I write. I kept an online journal back in the days when AIM was a thing. I liked people telling me my insights were helpful to them, or that I helped them get through some pain in their life. I haven't had an online journal for years for various reasons. But, finally, I decided to give it another try because it will probably be therapeutic to me. And, who knows, maybe I can cure my chronic singleness with someone who likes what I have to say. *shrug* :)
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Existential Crisis in Journal of life stuff
I am having something of an existential crisis. See, in Dec 2019 I was going to move out of MA, move somewhere cheaper to live, and find happiness. Then the work that our good friend Dr. Fauci pa...
I'm good at planning in Journal of life stuff
I have trouble giving myself credit for things. A lot of trouble. I saved a company over $30 million in revenue one year, and over $20 million in year-to-year recurring revenue (literally the bes...
I'm too good at being alone. in Journal of life stuff
Do I go or stay? I originally decided to go to Dollywood for this vacation because I had no ideas what I was going to do to keep myself from going crazy staying at home. What I have found is that...
Vacation - stay or go in Journal of life stuff
I can’t make a decision, so, let’s try writing about it. Do I stay or go? I have next week off of work, and it’s actually the first vacation I’ve taken since moving here in May. I had been waitin...
Friends and relationships in Journal of life stuff
Continuing yesterday’s theme: Friends and social interactions. Prior to high school the friend I saw most often was my next door neighbor. Too many years have passed for me to remember if he ever...
Finding yourself isn't really how it works in Journal of life stuff
“Finding yourself isn’t really how it works. You aren’t a ten-dollar bill in last winter’s coat pocket. You are also not lost. Your true self is right there, buried under cultural conditioning, o...
Poo poo people. in Journal of life stuff
I find myself giving people advice I can’t follow myself. Well, obviously it’s easier to know how to do something than to actually do it. What matters to the other person is if the information is...
No point, just a lot of words. in Journal of life stuff
Boy do I ever have stuff on the brain. Let’s jot down some topics to hit: -Dating vs sugaring -Eating habits -Job (done) -Stress level (probably covered in one of the above) -Moving - I have my ...
Houston Review in Journal of life stuff
About the author: Single white guy in his 30s who got a new 100% remote position and whose lease is about to be up. I have been looking at places to move because I live in New England and I hate ...
Some things never change, and some do. in Journal of life stuff
I have a flight tomorrow; er, later today. I should be asleep. But, I can’t sleep. When I was in college, the thing I hated most of all was flying home. I loved flying, I hated being at home. One...
Dream debugging in Journal of life stuff
I’ve come to the realization that I’m still unhappy. I have a job (soon). I will (soon) have income. I’m traveling to a new place (soon) but I’m still not happy. I did a lot of thinking and the r...
Written offer in Journal of life stuff
Ok, so, to close out an earlier post, I got my written job offer! Yay! So it did end up happening. The offer was also for 15k MORE per year than discussed. Wow! First time that’s ever happened! A...
Why is the real point so hard to see? in Journal of life stuff
There’s a youtube channel called Legal Eagle. The guy is apparently a really good lawyer and he breaks down various legal concepts or analyzes popular movies to say just how illegal they were. In...
Shitty people & dating is like a job hunt in Journal of life stuff
I can’t sleep. I can’t sleep because my heart is, well, not exactly racing, but more like beating at the rate as though I were at a brisk walk. Why? Because I ate too much sugar and chocolate. A ...
Job offer in name only. in Journal of life stuff
I got a verbal job offer yesterday. I spent much of the day very excited and happy. I’ve mellowed a bit since then. I am writing this as much for me as for anyone who reads it. In my life, many t...
Where to go in Journal of life stuff
I can’t make up my mind, so…let’s write about it! I had a great interview today. It’s actually for a fully remote position, so for the first time in my life, I may just get a job where I can live...
Moving the needle in Journal of life stuff
My last post moved the needle forward on the internal discussion. So, two questions this time: What motivates me? What happened to me? 2017 was a nexus point in my life. I got laid off from a j...
Mental Churn in Journal of life stuff
I keep wanting to write a letter to an old friend. I want to tell her that I finally understand. It literally took 10 years, but I finally understand the depression she felt. I finally get it, an...
I don't know where to move in Journal of life stuff
I never wanted to live in New England. The only reason I moved up here was because, in 2013, I was more terrified (and it was legit terror) of not having a job than of having a job in a place I h...
A decade in reflection in Journal of life stuff
There was a thought provoking question on Reddit a few days ago: “If you could go back in time to Dec 21, 2011 keeping only your knowledge but giving up everything else, would you?” I considered ...
stress ramble in Journal of life stuff
I’ve been sitting wanting to eat because I’m stressed for the past hour. I tried looking through imgur posts to find peace. It kinda worked, and kinda didn’t. What made me decide to start writing...
Nuclear & peace in Journal of life stuff
It’s done. The development phase of my Factorio mod is finally done. That is to say, the part of making the mod where I actually define the in-game items, their properties, their orders in menus,...
Well off, but unhappy. in Journal of life stuff
Now that 2019 is close to being over, a lot of people are posting the “Bitcoin Minimums” to counteract the natural FUD cycle that comes and goes with cryptos. 2012 – $4 2013 – $65 2014 – $200 20...
From despair to peace in Journal of life stuff
I finally reached out to Trisha again. Trisha and I went on two dates about a year ago. She was the best person I’ve met up here in New England. I got peace and closure on why she and I broke up....
Kitchen AIDS in Journal of life stuff
One spot of writing today wasn’t enough. I need more. Kitchenaid mixers are the pain point. For those who don’t know, you get a plastic drive gear in the models that aren’t “pro” or “professional...