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Smart people of the internet, I need a new computer. I think I am pretty sold on going with a desktop vs laptop. No sense in two, and I really need my computer to WORK. I run a handful of progr...

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I oughta be working some but I just ate lunch and I feel like I should start typing before the ideas just explode out of my ears. Man, wouldn't that be a sight? I digress. Some pushing and p...

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What do those three names mean? They mean that Matt Nathanson, Gavin DeGraw, and Andrew McMahon are in concert on July 23rd and goddamnit I aim to go. sells diapers to show how serious she is ...

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The last two days I've burned these disgusting burps, full sulfur and gross. I think too many vegetables perhaps? I've come back a few times to write but I sway awAy. I feel vulnerable here too,...

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I used to think the band that would write the soundtrack of my life was Dashboard Confessional. And then I thought I fit better with Something Corporate. I dabbled awhile with Nirvana but they ...

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So I finally mentioned my irrational and unfair anger and sadness 're:babies (I was set into tears by my ex announcing a pregnancy due 8-25) to Jack. I told him it's not overpowering, it just...i...

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My sweet Gavin is barreling toward 18 months, and I am hugely in denial that my BABY could possibly be halfway to two years old. But it's true, and no denying it. He has hit the developmental "ru...

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I am officially, totally, completely, 100% ready to be done with January. The week began with a cluster of appointments - well childs for all the kiddos and finally getting Jack into his (our?) ...

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My Joshua, It is desperately hard to believe that three whole years have passed me by since you were born. You have grown from the tiny, perfectly round baby into a skinny toddler with a love f...

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It's over, it's done. A perfect tiny thing in a sac, a perfect tiny sac and a complete placental area and I.... Feel so empty . What a change from a month ago when I was horrified to be pregn...

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I'm the girl who reacts inappropriately in bad situations. Not like, snickers during a funeral, but I find it hard to show my true emotions. I get intimidated easily, or feel like I am on display...

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I am officially exhausted, starving, and nauseated. Help, I have the first trimester woes. Seriously though this seems so blissful in comparison to the last two pregnancies. I am mostly sure by ...

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Let's just go ahead and talk about it: I'm still not sure how I feel. I mean, I am getting happy and excited now. I am letting go of my disappointment and sadness - we had plans and life isn't go...

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Jack mentioned today the looming need for me to "work elsewhere" aka not be at home. :( The past few months have been incredibly difficult, and I am struggling to keep up a lot of days. We've a...

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It's been a really rough few months, Compounded by what I assume is my version of SADS, And I am just all out of coping skills. Today's mini snit was brief but led to me sobbing as a release. I ...

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At the risk of outing other journalists or whatnot, I will attempt to tell you a story without identifying anyone specifically. I realize I don't say it often in my journals, but I am actually ...

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