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They’re All The Same in Sober
I had other shit to say but he is clearly falling asleep right now and refuse to rest… I ask what’s wrong and he just shakes his head and say he’s fine. EVERY TIME. I just don’t know if he’s too ...
When he looks away in Come Down
Sometimes I just feel so unattractive… I see him looking at me. It just makes me wonder what he’s thinking. Am I annoying him, interesting to him. I don’t know what to fucking think. Ever .
Every night... in Sober
Shoe addiction… I guess he doesn’t want to pluck his face. Also… I feel like no matter what, I play a song thinking for a split second that it can make him think of me but it just may actually be...
I’m a disappointment in Sober
Already. I’m not use to making someone elses lunch and coffee and having to wake them up multiple times after the alarm goes off… I bet she would have had it done.
I may not sleep before we go back to work. I’ll be fine at work. I’m excited to go and my mind will be stimulated and I can’t wait to put more things together. So much on my mind… Feeling lonely ...
Hold Your Peace in Come Down
I can see it in his eyes. He’s thinking. He doesn’t ever tell me. Must be the memories… With people he wish he could still see every day… I wish I was good enough and entertaining enough.
Why though? in Come Down
Not only does he go to bed after I fall asleep, he’a only been getting two hours or less of sleep the pass few days… Obsessed with those damn shoes. It’a like avoiding me… He says he’ll be to bed...
I feel so unattractive when high on mari.
You look at your hand. Yeah you took her ring off and it’s gone… unless the other one you still wear is also from her or hers… fuck it. Finally you accidently say her name instead of mine! Haha. ...
Double Standards in Come Down
Why is it okay for him to have an attitude. He’s clearly tweaking right now and I said it. I guess because I’m the one to say so he denies it. “I’m not tweaking” The continued obssessing with t...
What’s It Called? in Sober
He say he doesn’t want to stay up late. Two hours past the time he claimed. I lie down and he goes do other things… No wonder I’m so insecure and think people just love waiting til I fall asleep ...
I’ll just stay to myself in Come Down
At least I’ll try, if I can’t be nice. He let me try something new today. Although I think I’ll still want to hit the oil burner. After what happened last night (this morning) I’m just frustrated...
I fucking swear in Come Down
I swear she just fucking called him while he was texting her next to me…
He loves me in Sober
He’s the best thing in my life.
He loves me in Come Down
He’s the best thing in my life.
It must be nice in Sober
To have such a great memory with someone that you can take their ring off after getting into another serious relationship. I’m ridiculous. I’m just sitting here stressing about that while he’s al...
Should I believe? in Come Down
Should I believe that he rather be with me than her despite the texts he sent her, wearing those rings, keeping those pictures, etc? Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, can’t put the blame...
I’m just lost... in Sober
Is there anything in this world for me?
I feel like I’m in a different world now. It’s like how things feel unreal or fake or impossible when depressed But this… feels more believably false.
His decision in Sober
He ended up seeing my previous post shortly after I confessed looking at the messages. Yesterday he randomly said “and yes I made my decision”, then rubbed my leg while smiling. We can all assume...
Things You Don’t Say in Sober
I tried not to say it, but it needed to be said anyway… I had to We cleared things up well. I love him. I’m in love with him.
It’ll happen eventually in Come Down
He’ll make his choice… I have to be honest though. I wasn’t ever a really interesting person to be around for fun… I guess.
I don’t get it... in Come Down
Why did he come back to me? Was it really to be with me? Why did he take me along?
I hate when I’m right in Sober
My insecurities coming true
Too bad I’m not entertaining enough to keep him from texting the girl that he apparently hates so much because she cheated on him. Well… maybe I’m not good enough for that… She must be special.
